yo yo

every time you get angry, she sees the light
every time you push her away, she hears your plight
every time it's almost over, she wants to start again
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue

every time you lose your steam, she comes clean
every time you throw in the towel, she's not mean
every time you raise your voice, she makes a nicer choice
cuz it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue

up and down, she turns you around
when you get to close, you're right back to ground
she'll run away but when she gets to far,
she'll take your hand and she'll pull you for more
cuz it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
but what I think she's scared to admit
is her love for you, it scares her a bit...

and it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue

8 ball eyes

He looked at her with his dark, 8 ball eyes
and then it happened, she was born.
But instead of swimming up stream, floating freely,
she was pulled into a dark wet swamp,
quicksand that she was strong enough to survive,
but, the challenge to stay afloat would become her life.
Her goal was to keep her head above water,
to be seen by the clouds that most people took for granted,
until one day, one miracle, that's all it takes,
a bird would see, then listen, then whistle a message
that she could hear with she naked ears above the mud.
she would never see this bird again
but this bird, forever, would be her friend
and the message would be a sign, would be an end
and the swamp would melt into clear blue water
and she wouldn't have to fight or try to swim
because the current would carry her home
and all her friends would be waiting together
celebrating the end of her being alone.
And then it would happen, in the midst of the party
the man with the 8 ball eyes would catch her eye
and once again, against all her wisdom and strength,
she would be reborn, and death would fire her world.
that's all it takes to fly
that's all it takes to die
8 ball eyes, 8 ball eyes

~Jenn

my balloon

red, blue, white, pink
fly away without strings
wishing to disconnect like you
I want to be my balloon
fly with the wind
you don't have to come back
but I will catch you out of envy
I will make you mine one day
tie you up so you can't play
I can deflate you as I wish
make you mine and be unkind
you have everything I need
air, freedom, and peace
wherever you go you stay the same
but I know your weakness
it feels the same
a light prick and you lose the game
your skin will never be the same
oooohhhh, I can make your life change
and I know you will become
the same as me, we will be one
dead skin and lifeless body
stuck to the ground
no more sound
watching the sky to see
what you once were ...
free

~Jenn

dreamer dreamer dreamer

All you do is dream
when dreaming isn't real
and look at everything
thats going on around you
dreamer dreamer dreamer
you're looking at the stars
don't you know you can never touch
you'll never be close enough
look at me in front of you
touch me, see me, it's real
what can the stars give to you
listen I'm telling you the truth
life is gonna pass you by
as you star gaze and dream
how do you think things get done
when all you do is wonder
dreamer dreamer dreamer
stop looking at the stars
what you need isn't that far
look at what you have here
look at you and who you are
you don't have to dream
to be your own star
everything that need to be
is exactly what you see
dreamer dreamer dreamer
you're running up and away
you're no gonna get anything
if you don't deal with today
snap out of this dream
it will be there when you need
stand on your own two feet
and then you can dream away...

~Jenn

if I never met you

one day when the skies are grey and it's you and me gazing at the sea
I'm going to look at you and say
my life would not be as complete
if I never met you
one drive over a weekend ride when it's you and me travelin silently
I'm gonna reach for you hand
my life would not be as grand
if I never met you
if I never met you I would still be wandering through
all the different paths one can take
looking for something that would fill the empty space
and even if we never met I know I would be missing you
because you are and will always be
the only one for me
one night when the stars are out and it's you and me strolling the beach
I'm going to smile and shed a tear
knowing I wouldn't have this moment
if I never met you

~Jenn

I need you

are you ready to listen because I'm ready to tell you something
I need you,
but all this time I have been pretending to NOT like you
it's what do, it's what I do
then maybe your will like me more
if you think I don't need you
it's so true it's so true
but here I am telling you the basic truth
I need you desperately I do
so now I said it, you know how I feel,
you can tell me now you feel differently for me
I know you do, I know you do
every time I speak my truth,
every time I become vulnerable
it's something new, something new
you could take advantage of me knowing I need you,
I wouldn't go
it's so true, it's so true

the armor is off, I have no other shields,
now I'm scared of what you might do
some don't like to be needed or wanted
it makes them scared they might fail
I've failed so many times in my life,
but if I fail again, I hope it's with you
and just so you know,
I wish I didn't need anyone
but I know I'm not enough
I want a guide along the path
I want to listen and do what I'm told sometimes
I want to be heard and understood other times
just like anyone else would
cuz I'm not enough all alone
but I'm more than enough sharing the thrown

if this information has made you see me differently
don't be shy, speak your utmost peace
I'll be on my way if you tell me that today
I'll know better for the next time not to share my needs
but it's true, it's very true
I need you.

~Jenn

exactly the same

get off the phone, why are you always looking down
I'm talking to you, standing in front of you
get off the phone, you're texting makes me feel alone
look at me, tell me you don't need me, if that's how you feel
I'm writing to you without a phone
and I still feel all alone
sometimes I wish that we lived together
but I know we would get sick of each other
happiness only lasts as far as my honesty lives
once fear intercepts, my loneliness is all that's left
I wonder, I always wonder, how you can't understand
your words speak over my head
but I know you know how to pierce my heart
I opened up too much from the start
It's always been you that I want, that I need
but you're not the one, you're not the one
I've given you too many chances, I'm not the one
and all this time, it's you that I've put in front
you don't get it, you don't see it, and I keep trying
maybe it's easier to keep trying than to give up
but I've had enough, I'm not giving up, I'm letting go
letting go of you're beauty and of being guilty
letting go of you and me because I want to be free
letting go of all that's been, moving on from all this sin
I'm talking to you, listen to me
stop texting, this is about you and me
easy come easy go for you, now I see
you're great, never change, I'll just leave
I'm glad you never asked me to stay
because everyday I would do what you say
and that's the different between you and me
I let you in, I grew, I changed,
and here you stay, exactly the same.

~Jenn

what you want and what I need are not the same thing

round and round here we go
it matters most to you not me
that I keep this dance going

but can't you see I'm just rolling
in your orders and complaints
I try to tell you but you won't listen

what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing

so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're though

you close the door again
exactly what you do to your friends
soon think I won't ever leave

but don't see I'm just rolling
in all your complaints and orders
I try to tell you but you won't listen

what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing

so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're through

All my friends can't wait to see
the ending of you and me
I stuck up for you for too long
when you come home, I'll be long gone

what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing

so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're through
good bye to you to us we're through

~Jenn

I didn't mean to say

It's hard to breath sometimes when there's so much on my mind all the time
do you know, that no matter what you have my heart even though we're apart
with this space and time I still always feel you will be mine...

cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't want to waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say...

clouds are coming in again makes me feel this time might be the end
but I know, it hurts like rejection but I'm hoping this only brings back our connection
cuz with this space and time every night you're still on my mind...

cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't wanna waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say...

I didn't mean to say we're done, I know I hurt you, I'm sorry, you're know you're still the one
I'm sorry I said we're through, cuz baby you know I'll always love you

all the papers that I read, it's too much violence, too much greed
It's so crazy to me to be fighting with you when it's you I desperately need...

and with this space and time, I'm hoping you say you're still mine...

cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't want to waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say

I want to go home

I was going through some old stuff
I found a note I wrote about us
I said I was on my way to the beach
I wanted you to come out and meet
I signed it with a kiss from my lips
and it made me remember the things I miss
       I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong
       I wish we could go back to when our love was strong
       I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone
       I want to go home, I want to go home
nothing really matters to me anymore
when secrets and tears become part of the norm
do you remember when we used to say
I love you and I can't bear to be away
so many times I needed a kiss
I have to tell you, it's you that I miss

       I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong

       I wish we could go back to when our love was strong

       I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone

       I want to go home, I want to go home

I don't want another sleepless night

I don't want to pretend I'm alright

I don't to spend another day

wishing for all of this to go away...

I am putting all of this old stuff to rest

I'm going to write you a note instead

I hope you can feel how much I need you

life is too short to live with the blues

take this note I am signing with a kiss

Im bringing back all the things that we miss

       I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong

       I wish we could go back to when our love was strong

       I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone

       I want to go home, I want to go home

~Jenn