tell me that you love me

can you take some time
can you meet for a glass of wine
I need a dark and roomy place
to fill this void and space
spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me

I'm calling you don't you hear
I know you're really busy dear
I made us a chocolate cake
for dinner I grilled us steak
but spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me

do you see, do you know
I'd go anywhere to be with you
I'd do anything to see you
I want to take care of you
all I need are 3 simple things
love, respect and honesty
can you give these things to me?
If so I can fulfill your dreams

think about it take some time
then meet me for a glass of wine
I honor your every graceful move
tell me what I need to remove
spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
if it's based in honesty
tell me that you love me
then close your eyes and dream

~Jenn

away from me

I can't believe its over
I never thought you would be
someone I didn't want to see 
someone who will always be
away from me 

I can't believe I cried 
for you and in my tears
I saw the reflection of you face
and watched it disappear in place
away from me 

I'm gonna move along 
play my favorite song
dance to another drum 
curse you all night long
I'm gonna burn every picture 
watch the flames roar 
as I see you face soar
away from me  

I don't know who I am 
I don't know what to say
I don't know how to write
I don't know where I stand 

I can be so mad 
I can be so confused
I can let it all disappear
I can stop my tears

but this time, this time
you've gone too far
I pushed you there 
this game is too unfair 
can't you see 
I don't know who I am 
I don't know where I stand 
I have lost all that I command

I'm gonna move along 
play my favorite song
dance to another drum 
curse you all night long
I'm gonna burn every picture 
watch the flames roar 
see you face soar 
away from me 
away from me 

it's coming it's coming

look, can you hear
it's coming it's coming
gonna fly over here
are you watching, hope your'e watching
waiting, we've been waiting
everything that I hold dear
is coming soon I can feel it
it's high up in the air
where is it going
what's it gonna find
who's show is it running
will it always survive
it's a beautiful day
perfect for the arrival
I'm gonna sit right here
I'm not gonna miss it
it's coming it's coming
look, can you hear
it's direction to protect us
trying to make things more clear
it's coming it's coming
I'm so lucky I can see it
maybe I will get a picture
if it's slow enough to catch it
it's coming it's coming
be quiet now and watch
now I have something do
now I can actually sit still

~Jenn

where are you now

where are you now
I've been looking round the neighborhood
where are you now
you disappeared just like I thought you would
where are you now
are you anywhere that I can find you
where are you now
are you lost or do you know what to do
where are you now
I think I'm missing you more each day
where are you now
do you have a better place to stay
where are you now
are you looking for a better life
where are you now
are you searching for a better wife
where are you now
are you ever coming back to town
where are you now
don't you think you should have let me know
where are you now
I hope you're somewhere nice and warm
where are you now
won't you please come back after the storm
where are you now
I don't know if I can get over you
where are you now
I don't know how you gonna know the truth
where are you now
can I write a letter to keep in touch
where are you now
since you've left I've been down on my luck
where are you now
will I ever get to hold you again
where are you now
please, I don't want this to be the end ...

where are you now

~Jenn

I wish I didn't know

where did you go
I seem to have lost
the feeling I had
the moment I knew
I was meant for you

what did I do
what made me change
from yesterday til now
when I knew it was true
that I was meant for you

it's got to feel good
it's got to feel good
when desires turn to 'shoulds'
it's not gonna feel good
just go baby go
go get something good
it's got to feel good
don't listen to your 'shoulds'

where did I go
you told me you felt
something had changed
now you have no clue
if I am meant for you

what did you do
what did I say
I can't remember anything
I don't feel what I knew
that I was meant for you

will you remember me
will I think of you
the years are on my face
but I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go

I wish I didn't know
pain like this again
I'm getting tired
will there ever be an end
I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go

I wish I didn't know
I wish I didn't know...

~Jenn

sarah oh sarah

today is a little better than yesterday
but to sarah, oh sarah,
it only means
that tomorrow will not be like her today
it won't be as good.
so what does she do all of today
she worries about how to cope
when it turns into tomorrow
her happiness becomes her sorrow.
today is better than yesterday
but sarah, oh sarah
what will become of tomorrow ...
if only you knew
all the people who loved you

~Jenn

I will find you

I'm trying to find you
in a lot of emptiness
you would think it be easy
without all the other mess
believe me I'm looking
but everywhere I think you are
I hear you up and left
right before I get in the door
if you would just stay still
just for a little longer
maybe I could catch you
and I would be with you
I could find you and finally
finally make you mine
but I fear you are too quick
I know you want me
I know you look for me
instead of waiting
waiting for me to get you
I am happiness without my home
without me you are alone
but I will get you if you stay still
I will find you if you want me to

~Jenn

let it be, let it be

do you know what to do
to get back on track
do you know you've fallen
off that one track
do you know do you know
who you are what your want
do you know your heart
tell me let the time start
and then let it be, let it be
I can't promise you anything
but say what your want
maybe someone is listening
let it be let it be
go on do your thing
maybe no one needs to hear
other than you and me
tell me your secrets
don't be shy don't be shy
I don't have any evil glares
peeping through my eyes
and then let it be let it be
I can't promise you anything
but say what you want
maybe someone is listening
let it be let it be
go on do your thing
maybe no one needs to hear
other than you and me

~Jenn

I am a tree

I'm standing here all alone
watching everything going by
the pink car without it's top
the kids running away
the leaves falling once day
the petals blowing away
I am a tree here all alone
I am done growing
I am tall and strong
you think I don't know a thing
but I see everything
passing in front of me
I am a tree till the end
I will last a long after you
and I see every year
that nothing really changes
you are who you are
no matter how hard you try
to be someone else
you will always go back
to being yourself
I am standing here all alone
but never feeling sad
I feel a part of this world
all the good and the bad
I am a tree who loves
I deserve your respect
take your dogs away from me
I don't like the smell of pee
I am a tree forever
I will last for you and you
I am a tree look at me
or walk on by and leave me be
but I will see you
I will see you
you can't get away from me

~Jenn

september

He walked into the store
didn't know who he'd see
his gaze was on the floor
didn't feel he was worthy

the night before was high
shared everything he had
he wanted to be so high
the day had been so sad

I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you

why did everything turn
why did you run out
what am I gonna learn
all I can do is shout

I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you

'can I help you sir'
don't look at me now
all I remember is the kiss
'right here, please, a pound'

I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you

I don't want to remember
look at me I'm happy
I can't believe it's september
and I still feel crappy

I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
what am I without you

~Jenn

it's a new day

it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
don't matter what you want
just matters what you think
right it down again
all you want my friend
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
don't know what to do
to get my mind off of you
but I know I'm strong
not afraid to sing alone
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
you don't know what I mean
don't matter what you think
this time is mine again
it's mine until the end
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
gotta keep on walking away
gonna find my place to stay
I'm following my star
it'a never been too far
it's a new day
it's a new light
its a new day
time to do it right

~Jenn

I admit...

I have FAILED in my one promise I made to myself more than a year ago...I promised I would write EVERYDAY in this freakin blog, EVERYDAY was my goal, EVERYDAY was my commitment, EVERYDAY was my JOB I gave myself to grow as a writer, a songwriter, and fulfill a promise to myself (and all of my readers)...so, here I am, finally, saying to myself, saying to my readers, I HAVE FAILED in keeping my promise.  I am NOT saying I am a failure, very different obviously, but I have FAILED, and I guess the only thing to do is to get back up there, get back on track and start writing again...BUT, before I do this, this failure makes me want to analyze myself, take a step back and try to understand why did I not commit to what I said I was going to do? Maybe if I can figure it out, I won't ever let myself fail that way again.  Does it mean I have a commitment problem?  Does it mean I don't think of myself as worthy enough to do what I set my mind to?  Does it mean I am destined for failure because I am afraid of success?  Happiness?  Dreams coming true?  Well, I am not a therapist, so I guess I don't know what it all means other than I didn't do what I said I was going to do and I can do better than that.  Maybe I am just lazy and am okay with that part of myself being lazy.  Maybe I want to prove to everyone around me that I am not someone who lives up to their potential so stop looking at me.  Maybe maybe maybe I just made a mistake and will learn from the feeling of not wanting to be a failure or a disappointment so I will never let it happen again.  Maybe I am sick of not getting what I want so I better do what I say in hopes of getting what I want or say I want.  Maybe maybe maybe... I guess having an answer doesn't matter to much, so the only way I know how to move forward is to admit that I didn't do what I said I was going to do, but I WILL do what I say I am going to do which is to write EVERYDAY again and start from there.  I don't have to write anything good, I will probably write a lot of crappy things that no one will care to hear, and I will probably see how lame I am as a writer, what I was probably afraid of seeing, but I guess being a lame writer is better than saying you're a writer who doesn't write, right?  I hope so...anyway, this is my written apology to myself and to my readers, I am sorry for disappointing everyone involved who had expectations of me, I am sorry for not living up to my promise of writing daily, and I am sorry for failing you, I am sorry.  I hope I can move forward from this and learn a valuable lesson...the lesson for me is that I know I can be strong enough to admit to failure, I know I can be strong enough to go after something again, and I know I can be strong enough to know I might possibly fail again...but I won't...unless I have a really really really good reason not to be able to write, but I WILL WRITE, alright ?  Peace

~Jenn

beach day

I wandered around the shore today
dodging rocks and pebbles
the sand was wet and cool as love
and the sun was sitting above

I found myself far from home
the day had come and gone
I saw the residents driving away
I smelled the barbeques in waves

I didn't feel like turning back
I had too much on my mind
yesterday I had someone worrying
if I made it back on time

Alone again watching the stars
feeling in touch with my destruction
thinking, wishing you were here
praying for my abduction

Tonight I'll stay and wait for the sun
it's something I can count on
I love to hope that the new day
might be a whole new song

Tomorrow maybe I'll go home and feel
like the world is on my side
and maybe you'll remember me
through your loving eyes

~Jenn