come take a walk with me
I've been thinking about you lately
can you believe in what I see
come walk into my dream
let's fly into the sky
we have no worries, close your eyes
we're kids running free
and it's so easy to be happy
it's my dream, it's my dream
I can see it so clearly
hand in hand, we're so happy
and I'd do anything to make you see
we can live inside my dream
just believe, just believe
everything you want you can achieve
the hardest part for me and you
is to believe it can all come true
come take a walk with me
can't stop thinking about you lately
I want you more when you come with me
so come walk into my dream
let's make this dream come true
the dream with me and you
~Jenn
Monday, December 10, 2012
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
danger of will
it feels so right
nature and nurture
force and a little might
heads butting against structure
could facts be true
in a hailing storm
that what we should do
is more fitting to the norm
I'm fighting to win
never will I shrink to obey
maybe crossing my own twin
if letting me have my say
all in all in all
where are you in the end
money and metals help me fall
looking down at my pretend friends
~Jenn
huh?
nature and nurture
force and a little might
heads butting against structure
could facts be true
in a hailing storm
that what we should do
is more fitting to the norm
I'm fighting to win
never will I shrink to obey
maybe crossing my own twin
if letting me have my say
all in all in all
where are you in the end
money and metals help me fall
looking down at my pretend friends
~Jenn
huh?
Monday, December 3, 2012
The Perfectionist
It was my first time
didn't think I was gonna shine
but I took a stand
there were no hands
to help me in my place
I closed my eyes
I felt my nerves
but I didn't let them
get to me
I pretended that
they weren't mine
they weren't my friend...
Then it was over
all over, then end
I couldn't believe how fast
the time went
and all my worries
were not even there
all my concerns
didn't even matter
and I wondered, I wondered
if I could had done it better
there was no turning back
but my mind would't let go
just kept thinking
about everything I did
and everything, everything
I didn't do
there would always be
a next time for me
but never will there be
a first time to do better ...
Next time I will know
I need to do better
~Jenn
didn't think I was gonna shine
but I took a stand
there were no hands
to help me in my place
I closed my eyes
I felt my nerves
but I didn't let them
get to me
I pretended that
they weren't mine
they weren't my friend...
Then it was over
all over, then end
I couldn't believe how fast
the time went
and all my worries
were not even there
all my concerns
didn't even matter
and I wondered, I wondered
if I could had done it better
there was no turning back
but my mind would't let go
just kept thinking
about everything I did
and everything, everything
I didn't do
there would always be
a next time for me
but never will there be
a first time to do better ...
Next time I will know
I need to do better
~Jenn
Friday, November 30, 2012
Misguided Robots
Left here, right there
no not there, I said here
looking so strong
without a heart
without a mind of your own
I can't trust any more
can't you see I'm here
no, not there, here
I think you're listening
but who is speaking
if only I had a say
if only I could create
what I wanted
but you have the reigns
and you like watching
watching me fall
watching me get up
are you giving me everything ?
will I get to have it all ?
left here, right there
I'm gonna close my eyes
see where I end up tomorrow
but please please please
no more sorrow
~Jenn
no not there, I said here
looking so strong
without a heart
without a mind of your own
I can't trust any more
can't you see I'm here
no, not there, here
I think you're listening
but who is speaking
if only I had a say
if only I could create
what I wanted
but you have the reigns
and you like watching
watching me fall
watching me get up
are you giving me everything ?
will I get to have it all ?
left here, right there
I'm gonna close my eyes
see where I end up tomorrow
but please please please
no more sorrow
~Jenn
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
I can sit still for you
I had a dream, like a wave
it came at night, and I watched it still
the nights are long, but I am saved
when I saw you on the windmill
I've been wronged, but it's all my fault
and I have wronged, I'm still at fault
but I can prove the past is gone
and I can show I've learned and grown
as there you are watching me still
riding on your windmill
and I can sit, I can sit still
yes I can sit, I can sit still for you
sometimes I look back, I can't relax
what I've done, even I couldn't forgive
I needed help to move forward
before I knew even I could be helped
all it takes, one choice or decision
to make a change, do something different
all it takes to get through something
don't look back, keep on moving
but now there's you and only you
and I see you riding the windmill
and I can sit, I can sit still
now I can sit, I can sit still for you
So I'll be strong and I'll be good
I'll be everything you said I could
raise my hands to thank the earth
raise my soul to make it heard
and I can sit, I can sit still
now I can sit, I can sit still for you
~Jenn
it came at night, and I watched it still
the nights are long, but I am saved
when I saw you on the windmill
I've been wronged, but it's all my fault
and I have wronged, I'm still at fault
but I can prove the past is gone
and I can show I've learned and grown
as there you are watching me still
riding on your windmill
and I can sit, I can sit still
yes I can sit, I can sit still for you
sometimes I look back, I can't relax
what I've done, even I couldn't forgive
I needed help to move forward
before I knew even I could be helped
all it takes, one choice or decision
to make a change, do something different
all it takes to get through something
don't look back, keep on moving
but now there's you and only you
and I see you riding the windmill
and I can sit, I can sit still
now I can sit, I can sit still for you
So I'll be strong and I'll be good
I'll be everything you said I could
raise my hands to thank the earth
raise my soul to make it heard
and I can sit, I can sit still
now I can sit, I can sit still for you
~Jenn
Sunday, November 25, 2012
one moment can always be...
The time has come to do something
no more resting, no more pretending
it's now or never
time to get up
raise your arms and say
I'm here, I'm ready, I have it all
no more excuses, no more excuses
I'm here, I'm ready, even if I fall
It's gonna be okay because
I'm not waiting for you to call
not waiting for something to happen
2 more moments and then I'm done
waiting for something to happen
it's here or maybe it's not
but something is gonna happen
I feel it in the air
maybe it's just today, just today
but my heart has switched a beat
and now the beats are faster
and they feel heavier and deeper
one more day and maybe we're done
one more day and maybe it's beginning
but one moment can always be
the one to make you happy
one moment can always be
the one to make us happy
just this moment, maybe the next
but one of these moment's has got to,
has got to be my moment
my special moment
the moment to make me happy
so I can make you happy
and you can make someone else happy
and my moment can be your moment,
can be everyone's moment...
one moment can always be
the one to make you happy
~Jenn
no more resting, no more pretending
it's now or never
time to get up
raise your arms and say
I'm here, I'm ready, I have it all
no more excuses, no more excuses
I'm here, I'm ready, even if I fall
It's gonna be okay because
I'm not waiting for you to call
not waiting for something to happen
2 more moments and then I'm done
waiting for something to happen
it's here or maybe it's not
but something is gonna happen
I feel it in the air
maybe it's just today, just today
but my heart has switched a beat
and now the beats are faster
and they feel heavier and deeper
one more day and maybe we're done
one more day and maybe it's beginning
but one moment can always be
the one to make you happy
one moment can always be
the one to make us happy
just this moment, maybe the next
but one of these moment's has got to,
has got to be my moment
my special moment
the moment to make me happy
so I can make you happy
and you can make someone else happy
and my moment can be your moment,
can be everyone's moment...
one moment can always be
the one to make you happy
~Jenn
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
one special moment
so how have you been?
I've been okay
but really how have you been ?
I said I have been okay
but what does that mean ?
what does okay mean?
yeah it could mean a lot of things
well it means what it means
is that all you have to say ?
what else do you want to know
how have you been?
hah, I told you that already
but I really want to know more
I have been only okay, there is no more
fine let's move on then
great let's move on then
where should we go
so, how have YOU been ?
you know, I've been okay
so you're okay, I'm okay, it's all okay
I guess it's all okay
I dont like okay however
me neither, its kinda blah
maybe being okay means I'm not too good
maybe I'm not too good either
but I want to be good
so do I
how should we be good
hmmmm, that's a good question
let's say we're good now
and then we will just BE good?
yeah, exactly
okay, here we go, I'll start...
so, how have you been ?
I've been good!
really? that's great!
how have YOU been?
I've been good too!
do you want to make good great?
how do we do that ?
let's start up again
what do you mean
let's be more than friends
really? you think?
yeah, let's do it and be GREAT!
okay, why the hell not
that's the spirit!
so it's funny don't you think?
what is funny?
well, just a minute ago I was okay
and now you are great!
see what one moment can do
one special moment with you
and you
~Jenn
I've been okay
but really how have you been ?
I said I have been okay
but what does that mean ?
what does okay mean?
yeah it could mean a lot of things
well it means what it means
is that all you have to say ?
what else do you want to know
how have you been?
hah, I told you that already
but I really want to know more
I have been only okay, there is no more
fine let's move on then
great let's move on then
where should we go
so, how have YOU been ?
you know, I've been okay
so you're okay, I'm okay, it's all okay
I guess it's all okay
I dont like okay however
me neither, its kinda blah
maybe being okay means I'm not too good
maybe I'm not too good either
but I want to be good
so do I
how should we be good
hmmmm, that's a good question
let's say we're good now
and then we will just BE good?
yeah, exactly
okay, here we go, I'll start...
so, how have you been ?
I've been good!
really? that's great!
how have YOU been?
I've been good too!
do you want to make good great?
how do we do that ?
let's start up again
what do you mean
let's be more than friends
really? you think?
yeah, let's do it and be GREAT!
okay, why the hell not
that's the spirit!
so it's funny don't you think?
what is funny?
well, just a minute ago I was okay
and now you are great!
see what one moment can do
one special moment with you
and you
~Jenn
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
The Game of Change
If I were to play a game
if I were to find myself still
and possibly a little bored
if I were to decide that my work was done
and I needn't do a thing more
I might close my eyes and let myself drift,
drifting into the game of change...
If you've never played this game
let me share what I've been taught...
close your eyes and go back in time
what choices have you made
what would change?
For me, I always have the same dream
and I would change a lot of things ...
I should not have been so scared to leave home
I should not have been so scared to be alone
I should not have been so selfish with my time
I should not have deceived some friends and lied
I should have given more to my family
I should have walked away from abuse
I should have honored my heart and soul
I should have listened to all the advice
But now the game gets tricky
as I know, right now, sometimes I'm happy
because if I didn't make all those mistakes
if I made all the 'right' choices
I don't believe I would have found you
I don't believe I would have loved you
I don't believe I would have cherished you
and I don't believe I would have hurt you
but if having my colored past means a more colorful future with you
I would say yes to crying and hurting the same amount of times
just so one day I could have you again, and you would be mine ...
and then I drift back into today
and celebrate all of my mistakes
~Jenn
if I were to find myself still
and possibly a little bored
if I were to decide that my work was done
and I needn't do a thing more
I might close my eyes and let myself drift,
drifting into the game of change...
If you've never played this game
let me share what I've been taught...
close your eyes and go back in time
what choices have you made
what would change?
For me, I always have the same dream
and I would change a lot of things ...
I should not have been so scared to leave home
I should not have been so scared to be alone
I should not have been so selfish with my time
I should not have deceived some friends and lied
I should have given more to my family
I should have walked away from abuse
I should have honored my heart and soul
I should have listened to all the advice
But now the game gets tricky
as I know, right now, sometimes I'm happy
because if I didn't make all those mistakes
if I made all the 'right' choices
I don't believe I would have found you
I don't believe I would have loved you
I don't believe I would have cherished you
and I don't believe I would have hurt you
but if having my colored past means a more colorful future with you
I would say yes to crying and hurting the same amount of times
just so one day I could have you again, and you would be mine ...
and then I drift back into today
and celebrate all of my mistakes
~Jenn
Monday, November 12, 2012
dear dear dear
dear dear dear
I am too cold right now
inside and out
too empty right now
thinking bout overcoming
this crazy place
this crazy state
of missing you
lets do something
yeah you and me
dont you want to see
if you still have hate
if you still don't love
everything I am
everything I said I'd be
c'mon it'll be fun
life is too short
to only run run run
from things that are hard
I will stand still
I will give to you
myself and what it's worth
if you just say
if you just state
you will see me today
yeah today not tomorrow
it's better to start
our life now and not later
so dear dear dear
I will wait at my door
waiting to hear
knock knock knock
let's beat the clock
make time stop
until my dear, my dear
we are walking
side by side
on this silly, silly ride
~Jenn
I am too cold right now
inside and out
too empty right now
thinking bout overcoming
this crazy place
this crazy state
of missing you
lets do something
yeah you and me
dont you want to see
if you still have hate
if you still don't love
everything I am
everything I said I'd be
c'mon it'll be fun
life is too short
to only run run run
from things that are hard
I will stand still
I will give to you
myself and what it's worth
if you just say
if you just state
you will see me today
yeah today not tomorrow
it's better to start
our life now and not later
so dear dear dear
I will wait at my door
waiting to hear
knock knock knock
let's beat the clock
make time stop
until my dear, my dear
we are walking
side by side
on this silly, silly ride
~Jenn
Sunday, November 11, 2012
love
I surrender to my religion
I honor my own god
I give to the universe
I take nothing for myself
I am LOVE
I have everything I need
I do not look around
I feel alone but not lonely
I see only peace
I am LOVE
love love love
love love love
take me then let me give
all you need is love
love love love
love love love
I miss you but here I am
all you need is love
I need you to listen
I need you to quiet down
I beg your devotion
I'll help all the commotion
take me, don't look back
see me, I'm right here
push me, I'm still here
see I am LOVE
all you need is love
~Jenn
I honor my own god
I give to the universe
I take nothing for myself
I am LOVE
I have everything I need
I do not look around
I feel alone but not lonely
I see only peace
I am LOVE
love love love
love love love
take me then let me give
all you need is love
love love love
love love love
I miss you but here I am
all you need is love
I need you to listen
I need you to quiet down
I beg your devotion
I'll help all the commotion
take me, don't look back
see me, I'm right here
push me, I'm still here
see I am LOVE
all you need is love
~Jenn
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Behind us
How are you, haven't seen you in a while
I have to say how I miss your smile
it's been a long time of working for me
but I think about you and if you're happy
what do you say we forget the past
or better yet, can we put the past
behind us, behind us, behind us
it's all behind us, keep it behind us
why don't we meet when the sun sets
let's say 6:30 at that place where we met
I've changed, I know you will see
missed you so, I've been so unhappy
I don't know what I stand for anymore
you gave me everything to work towards
so I hope you haven't found another guy
if you have I will let you go, I'll try
so what do you say, what do you say
you gonna meet me this comin friday ?
I will wait to hear from you
but before I go, you should know
I love you
~J
I have to say how I miss your smile
it's been a long time of working for me
but I think about you and if you're happy
what do you say we forget the past
or better yet, can we put the past
behind us, behind us, behind us
it's all behind us, keep it behind us
why don't we meet when the sun sets
let's say 6:30 at that place where we met
I've changed, I know you will see
missed you so, I've been so unhappy
I don't know what I stand for anymore
you gave me everything to work towards
so I hope you haven't found another guy
if you have I will let you go, I'll try
so what do you say, what do you say
you gonna meet me this comin friday ?
I will wait to hear from you
but before I go, you should know
I love you
~J
Monday, November 5, 2012
happy happy happy
I think we are all trying
trying so hard to be happy
feeling like maybe one day
one day could be the day
where we might feel happy...
I know I've felt it
I know how to feel it
but I can't remember when
when I felt it last...
but maybe we are trying
trying too hard to survive
putting so much pressure
pressure to be the best
when we are all very special
special in our own ways...
I want us all to be happy
I want you and me to feel
feel good again together
where the love lasts forever...
and it could start today
today could be the day
where we are very happy
but if it isn't today
then I hope by tomorrow
we will let go of sorrow
knowing how bad it hurts
NOT to be happy today...
~Jenn
trying so hard to be happy
feeling like maybe one day
one day could be the day
where we might feel happy...
I know I've felt it
I know how to feel it
but I can't remember when
when I felt it last...
but maybe we are trying
trying too hard to survive
putting so much pressure
pressure to be the best
when we are all very special
special in our own ways...
I want us all to be happy
I want you and me to feel
feel good again together
where the love lasts forever...
and it could start today
today could be the day
where we are very happy
but if it isn't today
then I hope by tomorrow
we will let go of sorrow
knowing how bad it hurts
NOT to be happy today...
~Jenn
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
here we go again
here we go again
now we stop talking
look we are so mad
I'm not gonna back down
I don't care if you're sad
I had a dream you came to me
you said I had a heart
you said you wanted me
you talked of a new start
I had a dream I was happy
and you were next to me
then I woke up remembering
we are not even speaking
here we go again
now we stop laughing
look at me I am hurt
how can you be so mean
I try to tell you how I feel
and you don't want to deal
here we go again
I'm hurting can't you see
we can't do this you and me
it's such a waste of time
when I want your hand in mine
here we go again
I'm not going to call
try to break down your wall
another sleepless night
look how much we fight
here we go again
~Jenn
now we stop talking
look we are so mad
I'm not gonna back down
I don't care if you're sad
I had a dream you came to me
you said I had a heart
you said you wanted me
you talked of a new start
I had a dream I was happy
and you were next to me
then I woke up remembering
we are not even speaking
here we go again
now we stop laughing
look at me I am hurt
how can you be so mean
I try to tell you how I feel
and you don't want to deal
here we go again
I'm hurting can't you see
we can't do this you and me
it's such a waste of time
when I want your hand in mine
here we go again
I'm not going to call
try to break down your wall
another sleepless night
look how much we fight
here we go again
~Jenn
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
something to look forward to
tell me my future only if ...
tell me what's to come only if ...
only if there's smiles and laughs
only if I get to have you
only if I have something
something to look forward to
only if
share with me your past
share with me your thoughts
only if you want to be heard
only if I get to see you
only if you want something
something to look forward to
only if
tell me a story only if ...
tell me a lie only if ...
only if it might help me smile
only if it takes me away
only if it gives me something
something to look forward to
only if
all I need is something
something to look forward to
something to give me hope
something that will help me cope
something I might get to hold
something that has some love
something that will be mine
something to have in time
all I need is something
something to look forward to
~Jenn
tell me what's to come only if ...
only if there's smiles and laughs
only if I get to have you
only if I have something
something to look forward to
only if
share with me your past
share with me your thoughts
only if you want to be heard
only if I get to see you
only if you want something
something to look forward to
only if
tell me a story only if ...
tell me a lie only if ...
only if it might help me smile
only if it takes me away
only if it gives me something
something to look forward to
only if
all I need is something
something to look forward to
something to give me hope
something that will help me cope
something I might get to hold
something that has some love
something that will be mine
something to have in time
all I need is something
something to look forward to
~Jenn
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Man On The Subway
The man on the subway was tall, so tall where he couldn't stand upright on the subway, he had to slouch. Sarah was extremely short, she could probably stand with her arms lifted and not touch the subway ceiling. Sarah didn't know this man's name, but he was on the same train almost daily. So, at 5:12 pm, sarah rode the train home every day with this tall man.
Today was the same as all the others, people crowding the subway, pushing each other, a rancid smell of a hard day's work, and the tall man, standing in the corner. Sarah couldn't help but stare at him today, drifting away in her thoughts...
I see you today, look at me look at me
what you don't know, it's all I see
grace, intelligence, humility,
how can I get you to look at me
I don't like myself, at least right now
it seems that nothing I do makes me happy
and here you are not looking at me
I want to run away, I want to be saved
but what can I give to you, what can I do
I don't have much money
I don't have much of anything
I can smile when you want
I can say things you might want
and I can hold your hand if you want
but it might not be enough for you
because you might want flash
you might want a bully
you might want someone to order you
but if you don't want those things
I will stand by your side for the ride
Mr. tall man on the subway
what do you want from me
what can I give to thee
I want to attach to something good
but I can't find anything good
that wants me and all my bad
mr tall man on the subway
wonder what you're thinking...
The subway came to a sudden stop, jolting Sarah back to reality. Sarah watched the tall man exit the subway, 68th street and lexington, this was his exit every day. Before the doors closed, he turned to catch Sarah's eye. The lines on his face softened and he nodded his head, signaling to Sarah that he too recognized her, and would see her again, tomorrow...
~Jenn
Today was the same as all the others, people crowding the subway, pushing each other, a rancid smell of a hard day's work, and the tall man, standing in the corner. Sarah couldn't help but stare at him today, drifting away in her thoughts...
I see you today, look at me look at me
what you don't know, it's all I see
grace, intelligence, humility,
how can I get you to look at me
I don't like myself, at least right now
it seems that nothing I do makes me happy
and here you are not looking at me
I want to run away, I want to be saved
but what can I give to you, what can I do
I don't have much money
I don't have much of anything
I can smile when you want
I can say things you might want
and I can hold your hand if you want
but it might not be enough for you
because you might want flash
you might want a bully
you might want someone to order you
but if you don't want those things
I will stand by your side for the ride
Mr. tall man on the subway
what do you want from me
what can I give to thee
I want to attach to something good
but I can't find anything good
that wants me and all my bad
mr tall man on the subway
wonder what you're thinking...
The subway came to a sudden stop, jolting Sarah back to reality. Sarah watched the tall man exit the subway, 68th street and lexington, this was his exit every day. Before the doors closed, he turned to catch Sarah's eye. The lines on his face softened and he nodded his head, signaling to Sarah that he too recognized her, and would see her again, tomorrow...
~Jenn
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
I Wish
I wish that you would call for me
I wish you to like what you see
I wish the sirens weren't so loud
I wish you liked me being around
I wish you'd say my name again
I wish we could be more than friends
I wish and wish and wish, it's what I do
I wish I was a little smarter
I wish I had a better mother
I wish I could sing a little better
I wish we could always be together
I wish the world was a kinder place
I wish I didn't remember your face
I wish and wish and wish, do you wish too
I wish I had a lot of babies
I wish we'd be good married
I wish I wasn't afraid of dying
I wish I would stop crying
I wish you'd give another chance
I wish you'd join me in this dance
I wish and wish and wish, it's what I do
I wish I loved you more
I wish your love was pure
I wish I could erase some years
I wish you could wipe my tears
I wish you'd call me some time
I wish you'd forget my crime
I wish and wish and wish, do you wish too
I wish and wish and wish I'd be with you
I wish and wish and wish you'd see it too
I wish and wish and wish and wish for you
~Jenn
I wish you to like what you see
I wish the sirens weren't so loud
I wish you liked me being around
I wish you'd say my name again
I wish we could be more than friends
I wish and wish and wish, it's what I do
I wish I was a little smarter
I wish I had a better mother
I wish I could sing a little better
I wish we could always be together
I wish the world was a kinder place
I wish I didn't remember your face
I wish and wish and wish, do you wish too
I wish I had a lot of babies
I wish we'd be good married
I wish I wasn't afraid of dying
I wish I would stop crying
I wish you'd give another chance
I wish you'd join me in this dance
I wish and wish and wish, it's what I do
I wish I loved you more
I wish your love was pure
I wish I could erase some years
I wish you could wipe my tears
I wish you'd call me some time
I wish you'd forget my crime
I wish and wish and wish, do you wish too
I wish and wish and wish I'd be with you
I wish and wish and wish you'd see it too
I wish and wish and wish and wish for you
~Jenn
Thursday, October 18, 2012
new class
Soooooooo...I started a new writing class at UCLA to try and shift things around for me, recharge my battery, inspire me, challenge me, make me do homework, push my limits, etc...had one class and already I feel I am not good enough to write...instead of taking a song writing class, I enrolled in a creative writing class, thinking any kind of writing is going to be good for me ...and it's mostly working on fiction and short story writing...songs to me a short stories in a poem, so writing regular short stories is a huge difference, and after one class, I am not sure how to tell a story, or better yet, how to make up a really good story...most of my writing is based in real life feelings and events and life stories, so I am glad yet terrified to be trying something new. BUT, am not going to quit the class, I am going to do my homework, and I am going to push myself to be a better writer. So there. The end. And, of course, to be continued...oh wait...before I end, our first homework assignment is to write a short story of only 150 words. 150 words is not a lot! and it has to be EXACTLY 150...we shall seeeeeeeeeeee :)
~Jenn
~Jenn
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
wasted thoughts
I don't want to miss you
it kind of ruins my day
I want to be done and through
with all these wasted thoughts
of you
I don't want to feel sad
it makes the day go slow
I rather be angry and mad
with all these wasted thoughts
of you
I hate feeling alone
and I know everyone feels it
at times, it's common
but I should throw a stone
for every wasted thought
of you
I want to feel complete
and walk with my head high
smiling from head to feet
without these wasted thoughts
of you
I know I want to love
my heart giving to the sky
letting go of the caged dove
with no more wasted thoughts
of you
but today is today, and...
I don't want to miss you
it really ruins my day
I want to be done and through
with all these wasted thoughts
of you
~Jenn
it kind of ruins my day
I want to be done and through
with all these wasted thoughts
of you
I don't want to feel sad
it makes the day go slow
I rather be angry and mad
with all these wasted thoughts
of you
I hate feeling alone
and I know everyone feels it
at times, it's common
but I should throw a stone
for every wasted thought
of you
I want to feel complete
and walk with my head high
smiling from head to feet
without these wasted thoughts
of you
I know I want to love
my heart giving to the sky
letting go of the caged dove
with no more wasted thoughts
of you
but today is today, and...
I don't want to miss you
it really ruins my day
I want to be done and through
with all these wasted thoughts
of you
~Jenn
Friday, October 5, 2012
he's my hero
He sings to me when I'm sleeping
he covers me when I'm cold
his listens when I'm weeping
he wants my hand to hold
he's my hero, he's my hero
He will always answer my call
he'll crack a joke to make me laugh
he picks me up every time I fall
he doesn't care if I'm thin or fat
he's my hero, he's my hero
I had a dream I've met him
I have so much to give him
I can almost feel him
in the night I want to touch him
I had a dream I'd find him
I know he's very close
I think I might have seen him
I think I might even know him
he's my hero, yes my hero
He takes charge when I feel confused
he knows when to let me go
I let him think I can be amused
he always loves, I need to let him know
he's my hero, he's my hero
~Jenn
he covers me when I'm cold
his listens when I'm weeping
he wants my hand to hold
he's my hero, he's my hero
He will always answer my call
he'll crack a joke to make me laugh
he picks me up every time I fall
he doesn't care if I'm thin or fat
he's my hero, he's my hero
I had a dream I've met him
I have so much to give him
I can almost feel him
in the night I want to touch him
I had a dream I'd find him
I know he's very close
I think I might have seen him
I think I might even know him
he's my hero, yes my hero
He takes charge when I feel confused
he knows when to let me go
I let him think I can be amused
he always loves, I need to let him know
he's my hero, he's my hero
~Jenn
Thursday, October 4, 2012
I'm a bird
I'm a bird, chirpety chirp
I want you and you want me
I want you and you want me
but why, why don't you see
I can't be with you and be free...
and I need to be free.
I'm a bird that's perched
on top of the highest tree
and I can fly high above
so I can look down and see
all the love that goes on and
all the hate between everyone
and I know that when I see
any pain or suffering,
I can fly far away
when it's too much to take.
I'm a bird, can't you see
you can chirp with me
if you can fly up to my tree
there's an empty branch
right in front of me
we can fly together
and watch each other
as long as you don't smother
with your needs and desires
as long as you let me be
on this branch, this tree...
but, as long as you see I'm free,
but, as long as you see I'm free,
you will hear me sing...
I'm a bird, chirpety chirp
but why can't you see
I want you, if you want me
I'm a bird, chirpety chirp
but why can't you see
I want you, if you want me
~Jenn
Sunday, September 30, 2012
tell me that you love me
can you take some time
can you meet for a glass of wine
I need a dark and roomy place
to fill this void and space
spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
I'm calling you don't you hear
I know you're really busy dear
I made us a chocolate cake
for dinner I grilled us steak
but spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
do you see, do you know
I'd go anywhere to be with you
I'd do anything to see you
I want to take care of you
all I need are 3 simple things
love, respect and honesty
can you give these things to me?
If so I can fulfill your dreams
think about it take some time
then meet me for a glass of wine
I honor your every graceful move
tell me what I need to remove
spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
if it's based in honesty
tell me that you love me
then close your eyes and dream
~Jenn
can you meet for a glass of wine
I need a dark and roomy place
to fill this void and space
spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
I'm calling you don't you hear
I know you're really busy dear
I made us a chocolate cake
for dinner I grilled us steak
but spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
do you see, do you know
I'd go anywhere to be with you
I'd do anything to see you
I want to take care of you
all I need are 3 simple things
love, respect and honesty
can you give these things to me?
If so I can fulfill your dreams
think about it take some time
then meet me for a glass of wine
I honor your every graceful move
tell me what I need to remove
spend a little time with me
tell me that you love me
if it's based in honesty
tell me that you love me
then close your eyes and dream
~Jenn
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
away from me
I can't believe its over
I never thought you would be
someone I didn't want to see
someone who will always be
away from me
I can't believe I cried
for you and in my tears
I saw the reflection of you face
and watched it disappear in place
away from me
I'm gonna move along
play my favorite song
dance to another drum
curse you all night long
I'm gonna burn every picture
watch the flames roar
as I see you face soar
away from me
I don't know who I am
I don't know what to say
I don't know how to write
I don't know where I stand
I can be so mad
I can be so confused
I can let it all disappear
I can stop my tears
but this time, this time
you've gone too far
I pushed you there
this game is too unfair
can't you see
I don't know who I am
I don't know where I stand
I have lost all that I command
I'm gonna move along
play my favorite song
dance to another drum
curse you all night long
I'm gonna burn every picture
watch the flames roar
see you face soar
away from me
away from me
I never thought you would be
someone I didn't want to see
someone who will always be
away from me
I can't believe I cried
for you and in my tears
I saw the reflection of you face
and watched it disappear in place
away from me
I'm gonna move along
play my favorite song
dance to another drum
curse you all night long
I'm gonna burn every picture
watch the flames roar
as I see you face soar
away from me
I don't know who I am
I don't know what to say
I don't know how to write
I don't know where I stand
I can be so mad
I can be so confused
I can let it all disappear
I can stop my tears
but this time, this time
you've gone too far
I pushed you there
this game is too unfair
can't you see
I don't know who I am
I don't know where I stand
I have lost all that I command
I'm gonna move along
play my favorite song
dance to another drum
curse you all night long
I'm gonna burn every picture
watch the flames roar
see you face soar
away from me
away from me
Friday, September 21, 2012
it's coming it's coming
look, can you hear
it's coming it's coming
gonna fly over here
are you watching, hope your'e watching
waiting, we've been waiting
everything that I hold dear
is coming soon I can feel it
it's high up in the air
where is it going
what's it gonna find
who's show is it running
will it always survive
it's a beautiful day
perfect for the arrival
I'm gonna sit right here
I'm not gonna miss it
it's coming it's coming
look, can you hear
it's direction to protect us
trying to make things more clear
it's coming it's coming
I'm so lucky I can see it
maybe I will get a picture
if it's slow enough to catch it
it's coming it's coming
be quiet now and watch
now I have something do
now I can actually sit still
~Jenn
it's coming it's coming
gonna fly over here
are you watching, hope your'e watching
waiting, we've been waiting
everything that I hold dear
is coming soon I can feel it
it's high up in the air
where is it going
what's it gonna find
who's show is it running
will it always survive
it's a beautiful day
perfect for the arrival
I'm gonna sit right here
I'm not gonna miss it
it's coming it's coming
look, can you hear
it's direction to protect us
trying to make things more clear
it's coming it's coming
I'm so lucky I can see it
maybe I will get a picture
if it's slow enough to catch it
it's coming it's coming
be quiet now and watch
now I have something do
now I can actually sit still
~Jenn
Thursday, September 20, 2012
where are you now
where are you now
I've been looking round the neighborhood
where are you now
you disappeared just like I thought you would
where are you now
are you anywhere that I can find you
where are you now
are you lost or do you know what to do
where are you now
I think I'm missing you more each day
where are you now
do you have a better place to stay
where are you now
are you looking for a better life
where are you now
are you searching for a better wife
where are you now
are you ever coming back to town
where are you now
don't you think you should have let me know
where are you now
I hope you're somewhere nice and warm
where are you now
won't you please come back after the storm
where are you now
I don't know if I can get over you
where are you now
I don't know how you gonna know the truth
where are you now
can I write a letter to keep in touch
where are you now
since you've left I've been down on my luck
where are you now
will I ever get to hold you again
where are you now
please, I don't want this to be the end ...
where are you now
~Jenn
I've been looking round the neighborhood
where are you now
you disappeared just like I thought you would
where are you now
are you anywhere that I can find you
where are you now
are you lost or do you know what to do
where are you now
I think I'm missing you more each day
where are you now
do you have a better place to stay
where are you now
are you looking for a better life
where are you now
are you searching for a better wife
where are you now
are you ever coming back to town
where are you now
don't you think you should have let me know
where are you now
I hope you're somewhere nice and warm
where are you now
won't you please come back after the storm
where are you now
I don't know if I can get over you
where are you now
I don't know how you gonna know the truth
where are you now
can I write a letter to keep in touch
where are you now
since you've left I've been down on my luck
where are you now
will I ever get to hold you again
where are you now
please, I don't want this to be the end ...
where are you now
~Jenn
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
I wish I didn't know
where did you go
I seem to have lost
the feeling I had
the moment I knew
I was meant for you
what did I do
what made me change
from yesterday til now
when I knew it was true
that I was meant for you
it's got to feel good
it's got to feel good
when desires turn to 'shoulds'
it's not gonna feel good
just go baby go
go get something good
it's got to feel good
don't listen to your 'shoulds'
where did I go
you told me you felt
something had changed
now you have no clue
if I am meant for you
what did you do
what did I say
I can't remember anything
I don't feel what I knew
that I was meant for you
will you remember me
will I think of you
the years are on my face
but I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
pain like this again
I'm getting tired
will there ever be an end
I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
I wish I didn't know...
~Jenn
I seem to have lost
the feeling I had
the moment I knew
I was meant for you
what did I do
what made me change
from yesterday til now
when I knew it was true
that I was meant for you
it's got to feel good
it's got to feel good
when desires turn to 'shoulds'
it's not gonna feel good
just go baby go
go get something good
it's got to feel good
don't listen to your 'shoulds'
where did I go
you told me you felt
something had changed
now you have no clue
if I am meant for you
what did you do
what did I say
I can't remember anything
I don't feel what I knew
that I was meant for you
will you remember me
will I think of you
the years are on my face
but I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
pain like this again
I'm getting tired
will there ever be an end
I wish I didn't know
that now I have to go
I wish I didn't know
I wish I didn't know...
~Jenn
Thursday, September 13, 2012
sarah oh sarah
today is a little better than yesterday
but to sarah, oh sarah,
it only means
that tomorrow will not be like her today
it won't be as good.
so what does she do all of today
she worries about how to cope
when it turns into tomorrow
her happiness becomes her sorrow.
today is better than yesterday
but sarah, oh sarah
what will become of tomorrow ...
if only you knew
all the people who loved you
~Jenn
but to sarah, oh sarah,
it only means
that tomorrow will not be like her today
it won't be as good.
so what does she do all of today
she worries about how to cope
when it turns into tomorrow
her happiness becomes her sorrow.
today is better than yesterday
but sarah, oh sarah
what will become of tomorrow ...
if only you knew
all the people who loved you
~Jenn
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
I will find you
I'm trying to find you
in a lot of emptiness
you would think it be easy
without all the other mess
believe me I'm looking
but everywhere I think you are
I hear you up and left
right before I get in the door
if you would just stay still
just for a little longer
maybe I could catch you
and I would be with you
I could find you and finally
finally make you mine
but I fear you are too quick
I know you want me
I know you look for me
instead of waiting
waiting for me to get you
I am happiness without my home
without me you are alone
but I will get you if you stay still
I will find you if you want me to
~Jenn
in a lot of emptiness
you would think it be easy
without all the other mess
believe me I'm looking
but everywhere I think you are
I hear you up and left
right before I get in the door
if you would just stay still
just for a little longer
maybe I could catch you
and I would be with you
I could find you and finally
finally make you mine
but I fear you are too quick
I know you want me
I know you look for me
instead of waiting
waiting for me to get you
I am happiness without my home
without me you are alone
but I will get you if you stay still
I will find you if you want me to
~Jenn
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
let it be, let it be
do you know what to do
to get back on track
do you know you've fallen
off that one track
do you know do you know
who you are what your want
do you know your heart
tell me let the time start
and then let it be, let it be
I can't promise you anything
but say what your want
maybe someone is listening
let it be let it be
go on do your thing
maybe no one needs to hear
other than you and me
tell me your secrets
don't be shy don't be shy
I don't have any evil glares
peeping through my eyes
and then let it be let it be
I can't promise you anything
but say what you want
maybe someone is listening
let it be let it be
go on do your thing
maybe no one needs to hear
other than you and me
~Jenn
to get back on track
do you know you've fallen
off that one track
do you know do you know
who you are what your want
do you know your heart
tell me let the time start
and then let it be, let it be
I can't promise you anything
but say what your want
maybe someone is listening
let it be let it be
go on do your thing
maybe no one needs to hear
other than you and me
tell me your secrets
don't be shy don't be shy
I don't have any evil glares
peeping through my eyes
and then let it be let it be
I can't promise you anything
but say what you want
maybe someone is listening
let it be let it be
go on do your thing
maybe no one needs to hear
other than you and me
~Jenn
Monday, September 10, 2012
I am a tree
I'm standing here all alone
watching everything going by
the pink car without it's top
the kids running away
the leaves falling once day
the petals blowing away
I am a tree here all alone
I am done growing
I am tall and strong
you think I don't know a thing
but I see everything
passing in front of me
I am a tree till the end
I will last a long after you
and I see every year
that nothing really changes
you are who you are
no matter how hard you try
to be someone else
you will always go back
to being yourself
I am standing here all alone
but never feeling sad
I feel a part of this world
all the good and the bad
I am a tree who loves
I deserve your respect
take your dogs away from me
I don't like the smell of pee
I am a tree forever
I will last for you and you
I am a tree look at me
or walk on by and leave me be
but I will see you
I will see you
you can't get away from me
~Jenn
watching everything going by
the pink car without it's top
the kids running away
the leaves falling once day
the petals blowing away
I am a tree here all alone
I am done growing
I am tall and strong
you think I don't know a thing
but I see everything
passing in front of me
I am a tree till the end
I will last a long after you
and I see every year
that nothing really changes
you are who you are
no matter how hard you try
to be someone else
you will always go back
to being yourself
I am standing here all alone
but never feeling sad
I feel a part of this world
all the good and the bad
I am a tree who loves
I deserve your respect
take your dogs away from me
I don't like the smell of pee
I am a tree forever
I will last for you and you
I am a tree look at me
or walk on by and leave me be
but I will see you
I will see you
you can't get away from me
~Jenn
Sunday, September 9, 2012
september
He walked into the store
didn't know who he'd see
his gaze was on the floor
didn't feel he was worthy
the night before was high
shared everything he had
he wanted to be so high
the day had been so sad
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you
why did everything turn
why did you run out
what am I gonna learn
all I can do is shout
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you
'can I help you sir'
don't look at me now
all I remember is the kiss
'right here, please, a pound'
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you
I don't want to remember
look at me I'm happy
I can't believe it's september
and I still feel crappy
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
what am I without you
~Jenn
didn't know who he'd see
his gaze was on the floor
didn't feel he was worthy
the night before was high
shared everything he had
he wanted to be so high
the day had been so sad
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you
why did everything turn
why did you run out
what am I gonna learn
all I can do is shout
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you
'can I help you sir'
don't look at me now
all I remember is the kiss
'right here, please, a pound'
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
all I want is you
I don't want to remember
look at me I'm happy
I can't believe it's september
and I still feel crappy
I want you I want you
give it to me girl
I had you I had you
what am I without you
~Jenn
Saturday, September 8, 2012
it's a new day
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
don't matter what you want
just matters what you think
right it down again
all you want my friend
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
don't know what to do
to get my mind off of you
but I know I'm strong
not afraid to sing alone
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
you don't know what I mean
don't matter what you think
this time is mine again
it's mine until the end
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
gotta keep on walking away
gonna find my place to stay
I'm following my star
it'a never been too far
it's a new day
it's a new light
its a new day
time to do it right
~Jenn
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
don't matter what you want
just matters what you think
right it down again
all you want my friend
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
don't know what to do
to get my mind off of you
but I know I'm strong
not afraid to sing alone
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
you don't know what I mean
don't matter what you think
this time is mine again
it's mine until the end
it's a new day
it's a new light
it's a new day
time to do it right
gotta keep on walking away
gonna find my place to stay
I'm following my star
it'a never been too far
it's a new day
it's a new light
its a new day
time to do it right
~Jenn
Friday, September 7, 2012
I admit...
I have FAILED in my one promise I made to myself more than a year ago...I promised I would write EVERYDAY in this freakin blog, EVERYDAY was my goal, EVERYDAY was my commitment, EVERYDAY was my JOB I gave myself to grow as a writer, a songwriter, and fulfill a promise to myself (and all of my readers)...so, here I am, finally, saying to myself, saying to my readers, I HAVE FAILED in keeping my promise. I am NOT saying I am a failure, very different obviously, but I have FAILED, and I guess the only thing to do is to get back up there, get back on track and start writing again...BUT, before I do this, this failure makes me want to analyze myself, take a step back and try to understand why did I not commit to what I said I was going to do? Maybe if I can figure it out, I won't ever let myself fail that way again. Does it mean I have a commitment problem? Does it mean I don't think of myself as worthy enough to do what I set my mind to? Does it mean I am destined for failure because I am afraid of success? Happiness? Dreams coming true? Well, I am not a therapist, so I guess I don't know what it all means other than I didn't do what I said I was going to do and I can do better than that. Maybe I am just lazy and am okay with that part of myself being lazy. Maybe I want to prove to everyone around me that I am not someone who lives up to their potential so stop looking at me. Maybe maybe maybe I just made a mistake and will learn from the feeling of not wanting to be a failure or a disappointment so I will never let it happen again. Maybe I am sick of not getting what I want so I better do what I say in hopes of getting what I want or say I want. Maybe maybe maybe... I guess having an answer doesn't matter to much, so the only way I know how to move forward is to admit that I didn't do what I said I was going to do, but I WILL do what I say I am going to do which is to write EVERYDAY again and start from there. I don't have to write anything good, I will probably write a lot of crappy things that no one will care to hear, and I will probably see how lame I am as a writer, what I was probably afraid of seeing, but I guess being a lame writer is better than saying you're a writer who doesn't write, right? I hope so...anyway, this is my written apology to myself and to my readers, I am sorry for disappointing everyone involved who had expectations of me, I am sorry for not living up to my promise of writing daily, and I am sorry for failing you, I am sorry. I hope I can move forward from this and learn a valuable lesson...the lesson for me is that I know I can be strong enough to admit to failure, I know I can be strong enough to go after something again, and I know I can be strong enough to know I might possibly fail again...but I won't...unless I have a really really really good reason not to be able to write, but I WILL WRITE, alright ? Peace
~Jenn
~Jenn
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
beach day
I wandered around the shore today
dodging rocks and pebbles
the sand was wet and cool as love
and the sun was sitting above
I found myself far from home
the day had come and gone
I saw the residents driving away
I smelled the barbeques in waves
I didn't feel like turning back
I had too much on my mind
yesterday I had someone worrying
if I made it back on time
Alone again watching the stars
feeling in touch with my destruction
thinking, wishing you were here
praying for my abduction
Tonight I'll stay and wait for the sun
it's something I can count on
I love to hope that the new day
might be a whole new song
Tomorrow maybe I'll go home and feel
like the world is on my side
and maybe you'll remember me
through your loving eyes
~Jenn
dodging rocks and pebbles
the sand was wet and cool as love
and the sun was sitting above
I found myself far from home
the day had come and gone
I saw the residents driving away
I smelled the barbeques in waves
I didn't feel like turning back
I had too much on my mind
yesterday I had someone worrying
if I made it back on time
Alone again watching the stars
feeling in touch with my destruction
thinking, wishing you were here
praying for my abduction
Tonight I'll stay and wait for the sun
it's something I can count on
I love to hope that the new day
might be a whole new song
Tomorrow maybe I'll go home and feel
like the world is on my side
and maybe you'll remember me
through your loving eyes
~Jenn
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
man and woman
man tall and strong
woman warm and beautiful
he falls gracefully
woman warm and beautiful
he falls gracefully
she picks him up constantly
he takes his time
she watches every move
once a rebellious boy
now a committed man
he loves her all the time
she's trying to rewind
the past events in her mind,
his lies were so unkind
been together for years
rain falls less than her tears
he's broken every rule
she plays the bitter fool
to much history at stake
apologies can't clean the slate
he walks with his shoulders up
she prays for love and luck
babies forgive ignorantly
but she wishes intently
for her man to go away,
then she pulls to make him stay
coffee brewing religiously
tongues waiting impatiently
until the first sip, then she's ready
another day, just like the last
loving her man is not an easy task
she wills herself to be better
that's the dream, to stay together
what if he's never good enough
her mind plays tricks on her
as he fumbles with her skirt
she's not as tough as she wants
but she continues to put up her front
one day it will all go away
the bad, the good, nothing will stay
her words, his fists, won't mean a thing
but the kids, the kids, take in everything
a man and a woman together finally
years later fighting and not smiling
she's in the kitchen pretending
as he's secretly drinking
love has come and gone like bad friends
and then, like a cloud, drifts in again
she might have chosen poorly for herself
but he never thinks of anything else
~Jenn
the past events in her mind,
his lies were so unkind
been together for years
rain falls less than her tears
he's broken every rule
she plays the bitter fool
to much history at stake
apologies can't clean the slate
he walks with his shoulders up
she prays for love and luck
babies forgive ignorantly
but she wishes intently
for her man to go away,
then she pulls to make him stay
coffee brewing religiously
tongues waiting impatiently
until the first sip, then she's ready
another day, just like the last
loving her man is not an easy task
she wills herself to be better
that's the dream, to stay together
what if he's never good enough
her mind plays tricks on her
as he fumbles with her skirt
she's not as tough as she wants
but she continues to put up her front
one day it will all go away
the bad, the good, nothing will stay
her words, his fists, won't mean a thing
but the kids, the kids, take in everything
a man and a woman together finally
years later fighting and not smiling
she's in the kitchen pretending
as he's secretly drinking
love has come and gone like bad friends
and then, like a cloud, drifts in again
she might have chosen poorly for herself
but he never thinks of anything else
~Jenn
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Girls on Grass
She's got the look
you know the look
it makes you want her next to you
she's over there
I think she'll share
look at her glow, it's prefect you know
there they are
under the stars
looking to dance all night
they're so beautiful in the light
girls girls girls on grass
girls girls can break like glass
don't you want to know them all
girls girls girls on grass
she's walkin here
she's got the look and stare
she's high and she can prove it too
she wants you now
you can't believe how
she's found you, but it's all too soon
she smiles and takes
your manly place
she's yours if you don't run
laughin til the morning sun
girls girls girls on grass
girls girls can break like glass
don't you want to know them all
girls girls girls on grass
her problems they don't matter now
let her mind fly higher than the sky
nothing matters in this grassy land
and I'm gone once I take her hand ...
girls girls girls on grass
girls girls can break like glass
don't you want to know them all
girls girls girls on grass
~Jenn
you know the look
it makes you want her next to you
she's over there
I think she'll share
look at her glow, it's prefect you know
there they are
under the stars
looking to dance all night
they're so beautiful in the light
girls girls girls on grass
girls girls can break like glass
don't you want to know them all
girls girls girls on grass
she's walkin here
she's got the look and stare
she's high and she can prove it too
she wants you now
you can't believe how
she's found you, but it's all too soon
she smiles and takes
your manly place
she's yours if you don't run
laughin til the morning sun
girls girls girls on grass
girls girls can break like glass
don't you want to know them all
girls girls girls on grass
her problems they don't matter now
let her mind fly higher than the sky
nothing matters in this grassy land
and I'm gone once I take her hand ...
girls girls girls on grass
girls girls can break like glass
don't you want to know them all
girls girls girls on grass
~Jenn
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
You were at the right place at the wrong time
You feel it, she loves you
I know you know, that she loves him too
don't think too much, you know there's nothing to do
she loves you, and she loves him too
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
that summer day, you stood behind her in line
You wish you met her before she met him
you wish you kissed her before she kissed him
let it go, let it go, don't you think I know
you wish you met her before she met him
she sees you there, you look so blue
she knows you completely like you want her too
she's perfect in every way for you
you can't have her, but she wants you too
she makes you laugh, she's your better half
but you were at the right place at the wrong time
you want her bad she wants your hand but
you were at the right place the wrong time
it's when you can't let go but you both know
you were at the right place at the wrong time
she told you the truth, she couldn't lie
I asked her if she loved her guy
love comes in many different forms she said
then I knew we were only gonna be friends...
you can't go back, you can't rewind
the past can't change, don't even try
that time has come for you to say good bye
go before she has time to see you cry
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
~Jenn
I know you know, that she loves him too
don't think too much, you know there's nothing to do
she loves you, and she loves him too
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
that summer day, you stood behind her in line
black coffee for you, you picked up her a juice
time went by and you talked for hours
never felt like she had another guy
you wish you kissed her before she kissed him
let it go, let it go, don't you think I know
you wish you met her before she met him
she sees you there, you look so blue
she knows you completely like you want her too
she's perfect in every way for you
you can't have her, but she wants you too
she makes you laugh, she's your better half
but you were at the right place at the wrong time
you want her bad she wants your hand but
you were at the right place the wrong time
it's when you can't let go but you both know
you were at the right place at the wrong time
she told you the truth, she couldn't lie
I asked her if she loved her guy
love comes in many different forms she said
then I knew we were only gonna be friends...
you can't go back, you can't rewind
the past can't change, don't even try
that time has come for you to say good bye
go before she has time to see you cry
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
you were at the right place at the wrong time
~Jenn
Years and years
Years and years I watched her try
to be someone better than herself.
I said, why do you think you're not a flower
but only a weed in a deserted yard?
Wander as long as you need to find
peace or purpose in your heart and mind
maybe try and look another way
to help you figure out
what your life is about.
A clock doesn't know it's time
but it keeps ticking and ticking
we can't forget time like it forgets us
and I will always remember you
until you come back a new you.
Don't try to erase me
as you go searching for a new slate
you're aways going to be here,
your letters are written on my stone
I know you don't think you're coming back
you don't the colors I see yet
but don't lose everything you hate
love what I love, you can always hate...
So, I let her go.
Now, years and years still passing by
years and years, I haven't seen or heard her sigh
what I saw through my goggled eyes...
I wish I didn't let her go.
~Jenn
to be someone better than herself.
I said, why do you think you're not a flower
but only a weed in a deserted yard?
Wander as long as you need to find
peace or purpose in your heart and mind
maybe try and look another way
to help you figure out
what your life is about.
A clock doesn't know it's time
but it keeps ticking and ticking
we can't forget time like it forgets us
and I will always remember you
until you come back a new you.
Don't try to erase me
as you go searching for a new slate
you're aways going to be here,
your letters are written on my stone
I know you don't think you're coming back
you don't the colors I see yet
but don't lose everything you hate
love what I love, you can always hate...
So, I let her go.
Now, years and years still passing by
years and years, I haven't seen or heard her sigh
what I saw through my goggled eyes...
I wish I didn't let her go.
~Jenn
Monday, June 11, 2012
bye bye baby
you make me laugh now
every time you decide how
to walk away from me
religiously it comes to that day
when you say
bye bye baby
the one time you left a note
saying you counted all the votes
friend's said to leave
here's the same holiday
when you say
bye bye baby
remember making love
and you cried you felt too close
and you got scared
welcome back to the day
when you say
bye bye baby
I can't believe I let you in
but every time you go
I know I'll hear another hello
don't care anymore about the day
when you say
bye bye baby
you told me the other day
you met another just as fair
you needed something new
this day seems very new
when you say
bye bye baby
never thought there'd be another
again and again you were mine
I'm not your fool anymore
good luck making her stay
when you say
bye bye baby
I don't believe in love anymore
you either stay or choose to go
doesn't matter what ties you together
everyday could still be THAT day
when you say
bye bye baby
are you a stayer or a goer
you gonna run and hide
you gonna sit still and ride
the ride, it's all a ride
don't care who you are
you will be the same
in every game
so are you a stayer
or a goer
looking for another game
I dare you, one more day
before you say
bye bye baby bye bye...
~Jenn
every time you decide how
to walk away from me
religiously it comes to that day
when you say
bye bye baby
the one time you left a note
saying you counted all the votes
friend's said to leave
here's the same holiday
when you say
bye bye baby
remember making love
and you cried you felt too close
and you got scared
welcome back to the day
when you say
bye bye baby
I can't believe I let you in
but every time you go
I know I'll hear another hello
don't care anymore about the day
when you say
bye bye baby
you told me the other day
you met another just as fair
you needed something new
this day seems very new
when you say
bye bye baby
never thought there'd be another
again and again you were mine
I'm not your fool anymore
good luck making her stay
when you say
bye bye baby
I don't believe in love anymore
you either stay or choose to go
doesn't matter what ties you together
everyday could still be THAT day
when you say
bye bye baby
are you a stayer or a goer
you gonna run and hide
you gonna sit still and ride
the ride, it's all a ride
don't care who you are
you will be the same
in every game
so are you a stayer
or a goer
looking for another game
I dare you, one more day
before you say
bye bye baby bye bye...
~Jenn
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Isabella Blu
Isabella Blu where are you
I've been waiting so long, so long
every time I think I might have found you
something stops you from coming along
Isabella Blu what should I do
as I wait and wait yet nothing comes through
I wasn't born with much patience,
but only hope in that one day I find you
Isabella Blu are happy where you stay
at these times do you wish I doubt
if I will ever see your timeless face
please, I'm begging you to come around
Isabella Blu is it something that I do
have you heard I'm not so great
have you seen something you don't like
are you scared we won't relate ?
Isabella Blu I can't leave you to be
you know I see your eyes sometimes
blue like the ocean that never sleeps
sparkling like sapphires taking fire
Isabella Blu how do you do
I am not going to give up on you
even if I make some mistakes as I look
I promise to always love you
Isabella Blu help me find you
can you send a note or a sign to me
don't make me wait til I have no more time
please, just put me out of this misery
Isabella Blu I might lose myself if I don't find you
Isabella Blu I miss you before I even know you
Oh Isabella Blu, what have I done to you
~Jenn
I've been waiting so long, so long
every time I think I might have found you
something stops you from coming along
Isabella Blu what should I do
as I wait and wait yet nothing comes through
I wasn't born with much patience,
but only hope in that one day I find you
Isabella Blu are happy where you stay
at these times do you wish I doubt
if I will ever see your timeless face
please, I'm begging you to come around
Isabella Blu is it something that I do
have you heard I'm not so great
have you seen something you don't like
are you scared we won't relate ?
Isabella Blu I can't leave you to be
you know I see your eyes sometimes
blue like the ocean that never sleeps
sparkling like sapphires taking fire
Isabella Blu how do you do
I am not going to give up on you
even if I make some mistakes as I look
I promise to always love you
Isabella Blu help me find you
can you send a note or a sign to me
don't make me wait til I have no more time
please, just put me out of this misery
Isabella Blu I might lose myself if I don't find you
Isabella Blu I miss you before I even know you
Oh Isabella Blu, what have I done to you
~Jenn
risk
the question, I ponder today,
would I risk everything again?
my heart, my spirit, my soul
to be broken, shaken, and taken away,
like you, who tore into and dragged me out of me?
would I will myself to do this again?
as I meditate, do I imagine this end?
Maybe one day,
yes, today I think, maybe,
or one day, one place, a softer one
will call and beckon my emptiness
to fill up with his tempted challenge
so he can breath and suck me out of me
maybe one day, I think,
when I am high I will
succumb to this act of betrayal again,
but only, I think,
when I miss the comfort
of timeless dying.
~Jenn
would I risk everything again?
my heart, my spirit, my soul
to be broken, shaken, and taken away,
like you, who tore into and dragged me out of me?
would I will myself to do this again?
as I meditate, do I imagine this end?
Maybe one day,
yes, today I think, maybe,
or one day, one place, a softer one
will call and beckon my emptiness
to fill up with his tempted challenge
so he can breath and suck me out of me
maybe one day, I think,
when I am high I will
succumb to this act of betrayal again,
but only, I think,
when I miss the comfort
of timeless dying.
~Jenn
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I'm on a road to no where
I'm on a road to a different time
not sure if anything will be mine
the maze is making me dizzy,
I'm feeling kinda silly
it's getting dark, I'm a little scared
feel like I'm on a road to no where
how did this all come about
one day is gone, and now I'm here
nothing makes sense to me
I'm feeling kinda silly
I can't make it stop, don't know what I fear
feel like I'm on a road to no where
running so fast, no one can catch
the ups and downs,
round and round
I love and I hate
this moment, this state
you think I don't make sense
I can read your eyes and your stare
but I'm on a road to no where
you say I'm too young
to know what's good for me
I say I'm gonna follow this path
it's the only one I understand
even if I don't know where I'm gonna land
even if I'm on a road to no where
I'm following the light through the cracks
and I'm dragging my feet
not sure I want to go to the place
everyone else wants me to go
but everything that I cannot see
and all the colors are telling me
I'm on a road to no where
I can't help who I am
everything's coming to a happy face
opposite of my other trends
and no one can understand
the drug I have has no end
I can't make it stop, good to have some fear
but I might be on a road to no where
~jenn
not sure if anything will be mine
the maze is making me dizzy,
I'm feeling kinda silly
it's getting dark, I'm a little scared
feel like I'm on a road to no where
how did this all come about
one day is gone, and now I'm here
nothing makes sense to me
I'm feeling kinda silly
I can't make it stop, don't know what I fear
feel like I'm on a road to no where
running so fast, no one can catch
the ups and downs,
round and round
I love and I hate
this moment, this state
you think I don't make sense
I can read your eyes and your stare
but I'm on a road to no where
you say I'm too young
to know what's good for me
I say I'm gonna follow this path
it's the only one I understand
even if I don't know where I'm gonna land
even if I'm on a road to no where
I'm following the light through the cracks
and I'm dragging my feet
not sure I want to go to the place
everyone else wants me to go
but everything that I cannot see
and all the colors are telling me
I'm on a road to no where
I can't help who I am
everything's coming to a happy face
opposite of my other trends
and no one can understand
the drug I have has no end
I can't make it stop, good to have some fear
but I might be on a road to no where
~jenn
Sunday, May 27, 2012
I'm gonna be happy somehow
I'm gonna try something new
dark and dangerously blue
I wanna walk down the line
erasing all the bad times
cuz I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
1, 2, 5, ready - set - go
up and away from being low
I'm gonna jump off and fly
over the clouds that make me lie
and I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
don't need money where I'm going
gonna feel sun while it's snowing
I'll never feel sad and alone
I'm a queen on my plush thrown
and I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
I can't push anymore keys
music is for everyone but me
don't need any sounds to say
look at me and love me today
cuz I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
just for a moment in this lifetime
I want more and more every time
if this is how I'm gonna be
you have a choice if you want to see
aahhhh, and I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
~Jenn
dark and dangerously blue
I wanna walk down the line
erasing all the bad times
cuz I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
1, 2, 5, ready - set - go
up and away from being low
I'm gonna jump off and fly
over the clouds that make me lie
and I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
don't need money where I'm going
gonna feel sun while it's snowing
I'll never feel sad and alone
I'm a queen on my plush thrown
and I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
I can't push anymore keys
music is for everyone but me
don't need any sounds to say
look at me and love me today
cuz I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
just for a moment in this lifetime
I want more and more every time
if this is how I'm gonna be
you have a choice if you want to see
aahhhh, and I'm feeling right now
I'm gonna be happy somehow
~Jenn
Friday, May 11, 2012
it's up to you
waiting for the phone to ring
you think the answer comes today
don't you see it's cheer or sting
but anything will make you sway
don't be too soft
you had a thought to carry through
a conversation took your attention
then what you needed to do
disappeared with a slight rejection
don't be so weak
dreams are meant to keep you alive
mom and dad's job was to help you stand
only your heart knows how to survive
you choose where your want to land
baby hear the voice
the wind's not gonna give you advice
the sand's not gonna keep you still
the clouds might rain over your house
just wait for the sun to come through
it's up to you
don't cry, that won't make it stop
the counting sheep every night
I can't tell you what to do
no one has walked in your shoes
it might not be okay
I won't tell you want you want
I can't help you open up
gotta do something you haven't done
go ride camels under the deserts sun
it's not always fun
the wind's not gonna give you advice
the sand's not gonna keep you still
the clouds might rain over your house
just wait for for the sun to come through
it's up to you
~Jenn
you think the answer comes today
don't you see it's cheer or sting
but anything will make you sway
don't be too soft
you had a thought to carry through
a conversation took your attention
then what you needed to do
disappeared with a slight rejection
don't be so weak
dreams are meant to keep you alive
mom and dad's job was to help you stand
only your heart knows how to survive
you choose where your want to land
baby hear the voice
the wind's not gonna give you advice
the sand's not gonna keep you still
the clouds might rain over your house
just wait for the sun to come through
it's up to you
don't cry, that won't make it stop
the counting sheep every night
I can't tell you what to do
no one has walked in your shoes
it might not be okay
I won't tell you want you want
I can't help you open up
gotta do something you haven't done
go ride camels under the deserts sun
it's not always fun
the wind's not gonna give you advice
the sand's not gonna keep you still
the clouds might rain over your house
just wait for for the sun to come through
it's up to you
~Jenn
Thursday, May 3, 2012
I see you running to a place
where you don't think you belong
all the lines on your pretty face
telling me you don't feel strong
the road to win the race
will never bring you down
it's only when you start
you'll find the road to be on...
don't be scared to follow your heart
when you don't know where to turn
and if you feel lost at times
just let your inner light shine
you'll be on your way, you'll be on you way
and you'll share your story with me one day
look at you, you need to sleep
why the cries you worry too much
the answers are all in your dreams
but you don't think it will be enough
you want the sky, it's in your reach
travel far, see what you can touch
baby baby I'm not gonna preach
but you can do anything if you just...
stop what your doing and follow your heart
when you don't know where to turn
and if you feel lost at times
just let your inner light shine
you'll be on your way, you'll be on your way
and you'll share your story with me one day
~Jenn
where you don't think you belong
all the lines on your pretty face
telling me you don't feel strong
the road to win the race
will never bring you down
it's only when you start
you'll find the road to be on...
don't be scared to follow your heart
when you don't know where to turn
and if you feel lost at times
just let your inner light shine
you'll be on your way, you'll be on you way
and you'll share your story with me one day
look at you, you need to sleep
why the cries you worry too much
the answers are all in your dreams
but you don't think it will be enough
you want the sky, it's in your reach
travel far, see what you can touch
baby baby I'm not gonna preach
but you can do anything if you just...
stop what your doing and follow your heart
when you don't know where to turn
and if you feel lost at times
just let your inner light shine
you'll be on your way, you'll be on your way
and you'll share your story with me one day
~Jenn
I don't want to...
I don't want to love you anymore
my heart hurts every time you walk out the door
you can't see my eyes, but my soul is dying
I can't pretend anymore that I'm not crying
I don't want to love you anymore
I don't want to kiss you one last time
my lips will only speak good bye
years and years of feeling so good
when it wasn't real, all was misunderstood
I don't want to kiss you one last time
I don't want to see you leave again
It makes me hide and cry to my friends
the tears I have shed I can never get back
as the years roll on I have to get on track
I don't want to see you leave again
I don't want to go, I don't want to be
it's done, its over, I'm ready to be free
love that doesn't have any meaning
won't lead to any kind of healing
I don't want to have you anymore
I don't want to hurt
I don't want to cry
I don't want to leave
I don't want to feel
I don't want to listen
I don't want to love
you
anymore
I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to
~jenn
my heart hurts every time you walk out the door
you can't see my eyes, but my soul is dying
I can't pretend anymore that I'm not crying
I don't want to love you anymore
I don't want to kiss you one last time
my lips will only speak good bye
years and years of feeling so good
when it wasn't real, all was misunderstood
I don't want to kiss you one last time
I don't want to see you leave again
It makes me hide and cry to my friends
the tears I have shed I can never get back
as the years roll on I have to get on track
I don't want to see you leave again
I don't want to go, I don't want to be
it's done, its over, I'm ready to be free
love that doesn't have any meaning
won't lead to any kind of healing
I don't want to have you anymore
I don't want to hurt
I don't want to cry
I don't want to leave
I don't want to feel
I don't want to listen
I don't want to love
you
anymore
I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to
~jenn
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Let Me Walk In Your Smile
I wish I could walk in your shoes for a while
wearing your sneaks and very bright smile
I'm sick and tired of muddy brown locks
yours are better, prettier to mock
Let's switch shoes if just for a day
it's not too serious, only for play
so I will be you, taller and sweeter
you will be me, smaller and meeker
I know I am the bigger sis
but I, I will send a kiss
to you, my sis, if just for awhile
you let me walk in your smile
you be me, I will be you
I'll buy a bigger pair of shoes
I'll call your name to heart and hope
you always seem to help me cope
you've had your troubles, but Ive seen it through
and now all grown, you're on your own
the road seems long but I wish to be
on your road in your eyes to see
and I know I am the bigger sis
but I, I will send a kiss
to you, you my if just for awhile
you let me walk in your smile
you, younger one are the lucky
all tell you this in wisdom and truth
so trust your beauty, blond locks, and eyes
to see where you're meant to be
wearing your sneaks and very bright smile
I'm sick and tired of muddy brown locks
yours are better, prettier to mock
Let's switch shoes if just for a day
it's not too serious, only for play
so I will be you, taller and sweeter
you will be me, smaller and meeker
I know I am the bigger sis
but I, I will send a kiss
to you, my sis, if just for awhile
you let me walk in your smile
you be me, I will be you
I'll buy a bigger pair of shoes
I'll call your name to heart and hope
you always seem to help me cope
you've had your troubles, but Ive seen it through
and now all grown, you're on your own
the road seems long but I wish to be
on your road in your eyes to see
and I know I am the bigger sis
but I, I will send a kiss
to you, you my if just for awhile
you let me walk in your smile
you, younger one are the lucky
all tell you this in wisdom and truth
so trust your beauty, blond locks, and eyes
to see where you're meant to be
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Bue Over You
If you're not sad, does that mean you're happy
let's say you haven't shed a tear in over a year
if you're not mad does that make you really happy
but you haven't called me in over a year
see I'm trying to make sense of the past of all it's nonsense
and I'm trying to determine my moods as I'm turnin
am I'm happy could it be true?
or am I sad and blue over you?
do you ever feel you have no clue?
are you lost in these moments without any treasure
are you lost in these moments with no feelings to measure
I went to the movies last night, I saw what love what was
and then I dreamt of you last night and I saw what love was
let's say you haven't shed a tear in over a year
if you're not mad does that make you really happy
but you haven't called me in over a year
see I'm trying to make sense of the past of all it's nonsense
and I'm trying to determine my moods as I'm turnin
am I'm happy could it be true?
or am I sad and blue over you?
do you ever feel you have no clue?
are you lost in these moments without any treasure
are you lost in these moments with no feelings to measure
I went to the movies last night, I saw what love what was
and then I dreamt of you last night and I saw what love was
see I'm trying to make sense of the past of all it's nonsense
I'm trying to determine my moods as I'm turnin
am I'm happy could it be true?
or am I sad and blue over you?
do you ever feel you have no clue?
then I do my walking and I sit in the sun
and then I light some candles in hopes of bringing in more fun
I walk with a smile to invite more happiness
but what am I if all I feel is emptiness..
are you happy if you're not mad
are you happy if you're not sad
see I'm trying to make sense of the past of all it's nonsense
I'm trying to determine my moods as I'm turnin
am I'm happy could it be true?
or am I sad and blue over you?
do you ever feel you have no clue?
tell me what am I
tell me what are you
tell me what are we to do...
~Jenn
Thursday, April 12, 2012
I don't know who I am without him
I don't know who I am without him
all my daily thoughts about how to make him feel better
when we were together
are pointless lists ...
my mind doesn't know how to stop thinking
my heart doesn't know how to stop loving
and yet my soul has decided to stop ticking ...
I don't know who I am without him
I can stay really sad if I want to
stay in bed and pretend I'm ill
but that might make the love we had look bad
and I don't want to look back and regret
years spent in pain and sadness and wasted breath
love is wasteful when we are so able to look another way
ignoring all the signs that say run away,
years of love just down the drain...
I don't know who I am without him
but I remember I was someone before I met him...
I've changed in so many ways,
I have to believe I'm better this way
I wish I could erase this time and just remember
the happy times when we were together
but now is now and I can't seem to get past
this emptiness I feel from a soul that is too sad ...
I believe the sun shines somewhere in the distance,
telling me that the moment I decide to let go,
is the moment that I will never have to feel this low
again.
~Jenn
all my daily thoughts about how to make him feel better
when we were together
are pointless lists ...
my mind doesn't know how to stop thinking
my heart doesn't know how to stop loving
and yet my soul has decided to stop ticking ...
I don't know who I am without him
I can stay really sad if I want to
stay in bed and pretend I'm ill
but that might make the love we had look bad
and I don't want to look back and regret
years spent in pain and sadness and wasted breath
love is wasteful when we are so able to look another way
ignoring all the signs that say run away,
years of love just down the drain...
I don't know who I am without him
but I remember I was someone before I met him...
I've changed in so many ways,
I have to believe I'm better this way
I wish I could erase this time and just remember
the happy times when we were together
but now is now and I can't seem to get past
this emptiness I feel from a soul that is too sad ...
I believe the sun shines somewhere in the distance,
telling me that the moment I decide to let go,
is the moment that I will never have to feel this low
again.
~Jenn
Thursday, April 5, 2012
blue waves
you were in the right place at the wrong time
older, wiser, I can see your mind
a whole lot of goodness above the spirit who calls
blue waves softening on red sand rolls
you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
I saw you standing there before you knew me
that day you thought you had it all figured out
a bully with the sweetest baby face
blue waves circling the sadistic sharks
you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
it might not appear as it seems
nothing ever does, does it, does it
and you ask is this a nightmare or a dream
and you know the only thing to do is forfeit
blue waves will take you away every time
blue waves rippling through your mind
and I know, oh I know
what makes you you,
what makes you do the things you do
and it don't matter, nothing really matters
cuz you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
nothing is a good as rain on a sunny day
nothing feels as great as eating icing AND the cake
I can see it now through all the clouds
blue waves running from the picking birds
you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
good or bad, it's not a test, life is love, pain and mess
I see dark and you see blue, but this is all up to you
don't you see the world as one open space
blue waves gonna take me back to grace...
you were at the right place and the wrong time
you were running to somewhere every time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
~Jenn
older, wiser, I can see your mind
a whole lot of goodness above the spirit who calls
blue waves softening on red sand rolls
you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
I saw you standing there before you knew me
that day you thought you had it all figured out
a bully with the sweetest baby face
blue waves circling the sadistic sharks
you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
it might not appear as it seems
nothing ever does, does it, does it
and you ask is this a nightmare or a dream
and you know the only thing to do is forfeit
blue waves will take you away every time
blue waves rippling through your mind
and I know, oh I know
what makes you you,
what makes you do the things you do
and it don't matter, nothing really matters
cuz you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
nothing is a good as rain on a sunny day
nothing feels as great as eating icing AND the cake
I can see it now through all the clouds
blue waves running from the picking birds
you were in the right place at the wrong time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
good or bad, it's not a test, life is love, pain and mess
I see dark and you see blue, but this is all up to you
don't you see the world as one open space
blue waves gonna take me back to grace...
you were at the right place and the wrong time
you were running to somewhere every time
and now you're mine, you're all mine
~Jenn
Thursday, March 29, 2012
yo yo
every time you get angry, she sees the light
every time you push her away, she hears your plight
every time it's almost over, she wants to start again
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
every time you lose your steam, she comes clean
every time you throw in the towel, she's not mean
every time you raise your voice, she makes a nicer choice
cuz it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
up and down, she turns you around
when you get to close, you're right back to ground
she'll run away but when she gets to far,
she'll take your hand and she'll pull you for more
cuz it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
but what I think she's scared to admit
is her love for you, it scares her a bit...
and it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
every time you push her away, she hears your plight
every time it's almost over, she wants to start again
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
every time you lose your steam, she comes clean
every time you throw in the towel, she's not mean
every time you raise your voice, she makes a nicer choice
cuz it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
up and down, she turns you around
when you get to close, you're right back to ground
she'll run away but when she gets to far,
she'll take your hand and she'll pull you for more
cuz it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
but what I think she's scared to admit
is her love for you, it scares her a bit...
and it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
it's a yo yo with you, she loves you when you're blue
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
8 ball eyes
He looked at her with his dark, 8 ball eyes
and then it happened, she was born.
But instead of swimming up stream, floating freely,
she was pulled into a dark wet swamp,
quicksand that she was strong enough to survive,
but, the challenge to stay afloat would become her life.
Her goal was to keep her head above water,
to be seen by the clouds that most people took for granted,
until one day, one miracle, that's all it takes,
a bird would see, then listen, then whistle a message
that she could hear with she naked ears above the mud.
she would never see this bird again
but this bird, forever, would be her friend
and the message would be a sign, would be an end
and the swamp would melt into clear blue water
and she wouldn't have to fight or try to swim
because the current would carry her home
and all her friends would be waiting together
celebrating the end of her being alone.
And then it would happen, in the midst of the party
the man with the 8 ball eyes would catch her eye
and once again, against all her wisdom and strength,
she would be reborn, and death would fire her world.
that's all it takes to fly
that's all it takes to die
8 ball eyes, 8 ball eyes
~Jenn
and then it happened, she was born.
But instead of swimming up stream, floating freely,
she was pulled into a dark wet swamp,
quicksand that she was strong enough to survive,
but, the challenge to stay afloat would become her life.
Her goal was to keep her head above water,
to be seen by the clouds that most people took for granted,
until one day, one miracle, that's all it takes,
a bird would see, then listen, then whistle a message
that she could hear with she naked ears above the mud.
she would never see this bird again
but this bird, forever, would be her friend
and the message would be a sign, would be an end
and the swamp would melt into clear blue water
and she wouldn't have to fight or try to swim
because the current would carry her home
and all her friends would be waiting together
celebrating the end of her being alone.
And then it would happen, in the midst of the party
the man with the 8 ball eyes would catch her eye
and once again, against all her wisdom and strength,
she would be reborn, and death would fire her world.
that's all it takes to fly
that's all it takes to die
8 ball eyes, 8 ball eyes
~Jenn
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
my balloon
red, blue, white, pink
fly away without strings
wishing to disconnect like you
I want to be my balloon
fly with the wind
you don't have to come back
but I will catch you out of envy
I will make you mine one day
tie you up so you can't play
I can deflate you as I wish
make you mine and be unkind
you have everything I need
air, freedom, and peace
wherever you go you stay the same
but I know your weakness
it feels the same
a light prick and you lose the game
your skin will never be the same
oooohhhh, I can make your life change
and I know you will become
the same as me, we will be one
dead skin and lifeless body
stuck to the ground
no more sound
watching the sky to see
what you once were ...
free
~Jenn
fly away without strings
wishing to disconnect like you
I want to be my balloon
fly with the wind
you don't have to come back
but I will catch you out of envy
I will make you mine one day
tie you up so you can't play
I can deflate you as I wish
make you mine and be unkind
you have everything I need
air, freedom, and peace
wherever you go you stay the same
but I know your weakness
it feels the same
a light prick and you lose the game
your skin will never be the same
oooohhhh, I can make your life change
and I know you will become
the same as me, we will be one
dead skin and lifeless body
stuck to the ground
no more sound
watching the sky to see
what you once were ...
free
~Jenn
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
dreamer dreamer dreamer
All you do is dream
when dreaming isn't real
and look at everything
thats going on around you
dreamer dreamer dreamer
you're looking at the stars
don't you know you can never touch
you'll never be close enough
look at me in front of you
touch me, see me, it's real
what can the stars give to you
listen I'm telling you the truth
life is gonna pass you by
as you star gaze and dream
how do you think things get done
when all you do is wonder
dreamer dreamer dreamer
stop looking at the stars
what you need isn't that far
look at what you have here
look at you and who you are
you don't have to dream
to be your own star
everything that need to be
is exactly what you see
dreamer dreamer dreamer
you're running up and away
you're no gonna get anything
if you don't deal with today
snap out of this dream
it will be there when you need
stand on your own two feet
and then you can dream away...
~Jenn
when dreaming isn't real
and look at everything
thats going on around you
dreamer dreamer dreamer
you're looking at the stars
don't you know you can never touch
you'll never be close enough
look at me in front of you
touch me, see me, it's real
what can the stars give to you
listen I'm telling you the truth
life is gonna pass you by
as you star gaze and dream
how do you think things get done
when all you do is wonder
dreamer dreamer dreamer
stop looking at the stars
what you need isn't that far
look at what you have here
look at you and who you are
you don't have to dream
to be your own star
everything that need to be
is exactly what you see
dreamer dreamer dreamer
you're running up and away
you're no gonna get anything
if you don't deal with today
snap out of this dream
it will be there when you need
stand on your own two feet
and then you can dream away...
~Jenn
Saturday, March 17, 2012
if I never met you
one day when the skies are grey and it's you and me gazing at the sea
I'm going to look at you and say
my life would not be as complete
if I never met you
one drive over a weekend ride when it's you and me travelin silently
I'm gonna reach for you hand
my life would not be as grand
if I never met you
if I never met you I would still be wandering through
all the different paths one can take
looking for something that would fill the empty space
and even if we never met I know I would be missing you
because you are and will always be
the only one for me
one night when the stars are out and it's you and me strolling the beach
I'm going to smile and shed a tear
knowing I wouldn't have this moment
if I never met you
~Jenn
I'm going to look at you and say
my life would not be as complete
if I never met you
one drive over a weekend ride when it's you and me travelin silently
I'm gonna reach for you hand
my life would not be as grand
if I never met you
if I never met you I would still be wandering through
all the different paths one can take
looking for something that would fill the empty space
and even if we never met I know I would be missing you
because you are and will always be
the only one for me
one night when the stars are out and it's you and me strolling the beach
I'm going to smile and shed a tear
knowing I wouldn't have this moment
if I never met you
~Jenn
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
I need you
are you ready to listen because I'm ready to tell you something
I need you,
but all this time I have been pretending to NOT like you
it's what do, it's what I do
then maybe your will like me more
if you think I don't need you
it's so true it's so true
but here I am telling you the basic truth
I need you desperately I do
so now I said it, you know how I feel,
you can tell me now you feel differently for me
I know you do, I know you do
every time I speak my truth,
every time I become vulnerable
it's something new, something new
you could take advantage of me knowing I need you,
I wouldn't go
it's so true, it's so true
the armor is off, I have no other shields,
now I'm scared of what you might do
some don't like to be needed or wanted
it makes them scared they might fail
I've failed so many times in my life,
but if I fail again, I hope it's with you
and just so you know,
I wish I didn't need anyone
but I know I'm not enough
I want a guide along the path
I want to listen and do what I'm told sometimes
I want to be heard and understood other times
just like anyone else would
cuz I'm not enough all alone
but I'm more than enough sharing the thrown
if this information has made you see me differently
don't be shy, speak your utmost peace
I'll be on my way if you tell me that today
I'll know better for the next time not to share my needs
but it's true, it's very true
I need you.
~Jenn
I need you,
but all this time I have been pretending to NOT like you
it's what do, it's what I do
then maybe your will like me more
if you think I don't need you
it's so true it's so true
but here I am telling you the basic truth
I need you desperately I do
so now I said it, you know how I feel,
you can tell me now you feel differently for me
I know you do, I know you do
every time I speak my truth,
every time I become vulnerable
it's something new, something new
you could take advantage of me knowing I need you,
I wouldn't go
it's so true, it's so true
the armor is off, I have no other shields,
now I'm scared of what you might do
some don't like to be needed or wanted
it makes them scared they might fail
I've failed so many times in my life,
but if I fail again, I hope it's with you
and just so you know,
I wish I didn't need anyone
but I know I'm not enough
I want a guide along the path
I want to listen and do what I'm told sometimes
I want to be heard and understood other times
just like anyone else would
cuz I'm not enough all alone
but I'm more than enough sharing the thrown
if this information has made you see me differently
don't be shy, speak your utmost peace
I'll be on my way if you tell me that today
I'll know better for the next time not to share my needs
but it's true, it's very true
I need you.
~Jenn
Sunday, March 11, 2012
exactly the same
get off the phone, why are you always looking down
I'm talking to you, standing in front of you
get off the phone, you're texting makes me feel alone
look at me, tell me you don't need me, if that's how you feel
I'm writing to you without a phone
and I still feel all alone
sometimes I wish that we lived together
but I know we would get sick of each other
happiness only lasts as far as my honesty lives
once fear intercepts, my loneliness is all that's left
I wonder, I always wonder, how you can't understand
your words speak over my head
but I know you know how to pierce my heart
I opened up too much from the start
It's always been you that I want, that I need
but you're not the one, you're not the one
I've given you too many chances, I'm not the one
and all this time, it's you that I've put in front
you don't get it, you don't see it, and I keep trying
maybe it's easier to keep trying than to give up
but I've had enough, I'm not giving up, I'm letting go
letting go of you're beauty and of being guilty
letting go of you and me because I want to be free
letting go of all that's been, moving on from all this sin
I'm talking to you, listen to me
stop texting, this is about you and me
easy come easy go for you, now I see
you're great, never change, I'll just leave
I'm glad you never asked me to stay
because everyday I would do what you say
and that's the different between you and me
I let you in, I grew, I changed,
and here you stay, exactly the same.
~Jenn
I'm talking to you, standing in front of you
get off the phone, you're texting makes me feel alone
look at me, tell me you don't need me, if that's how you feel
I'm writing to you without a phone
and I still feel all alone
sometimes I wish that we lived together
but I know we would get sick of each other
happiness only lasts as far as my honesty lives
once fear intercepts, my loneliness is all that's left
I wonder, I always wonder, how you can't understand
your words speak over my head
but I know you know how to pierce my heart
I opened up too much from the start
It's always been you that I want, that I need
but you're not the one, you're not the one
I've given you too many chances, I'm not the one
and all this time, it's you that I've put in front
you don't get it, you don't see it, and I keep trying
maybe it's easier to keep trying than to give up
but I've had enough, I'm not giving up, I'm letting go
letting go of you're beauty and of being guilty
letting go of you and me because I want to be free
letting go of all that's been, moving on from all this sin
I'm talking to you, listen to me
stop texting, this is about you and me
easy come easy go for you, now I see
you're great, never change, I'll just leave
I'm glad you never asked me to stay
because everyday I would do what you say
and that's the different between you and me
I let you in, I grew, I changed,
and here you stay, exactly the same.
~Jenn
Thursday, March 8, 2012
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
round and round here we go
it matters most to you not me
that I keep this dance going
but can't you see I'm just rolling
in your orders and complaints
I try to tell you but you won't listen
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're though
you close the door again
exactly what you do to your friends
soon think I won't ever leave
but don't see I'm just rolling
in all your complaints and orders
I try to tell you but you won't listen
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're through
All my friends can't wait to see
the ending of you and me
I stuck up for you for too long
when you come home, I'll be long gone
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're through
good bye to you to us we're through
~Jenn
it matters most to you not me
that I keep this dance going
but can't you see I'm just rolling
in your orders and complaints
I try to tell you but you won't listen
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're though
you close the door again
exactly what you do to your friends
soon think I won't ever leave
but don't see I'm just rolling
in all your complaints and orders
I try to tell you but you won't listen
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're through
All my friends can't wait to see
the ending of you and me
I stuck up for you for too long
when you come home, I'll be long gone
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
what you want and what I need are not the same thing
so good bye to what I'm forcing
I'm so much more than you want from me
I'm gonna do what I want to do
good bye to you to us we're through
good bye to you to us we're through
~Jenn
Monday, March 5, 2012
I didn't mean to say
It's hard to breath sometimes when there's so much on my mind all the time
do you know, that no matter what you have my heart even though we're apart
with this space and time I still always feel you will be mine...
cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't want to waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say...
clouds are coming in again makes me feel this time might be the end
but I know, it hurts like rejection but I'm hoping this only brings back our connection
cuz with this space and time every night you're still on my mind...
cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't wanna waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say...
I didn't mean to say we're done, I know I hurt you, I'm sorry, you're know you're still the one
I'm sorry I said we're through, cuz baby you know I'll always love you
all the papers that I read, it's too much violence, too much greed
It's so crazy to me to be fighting with you when it's you I desperately need...
and with this space and time, I'm hoping you say you're still mine...
cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't want to waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say
do you know, that no matter what you have my heart even though we're apart
with this space and time I still always feel you will be mine...
cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't want to waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say...
clouds are coming in again makes me feel this time might be the end
but I know, it hurts like rejection but I'm hoping this only brings back our connection
cuz with this space and time every night you're still on my mind...
cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't wanna waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say...
I didn't mean to say we're done, I know I hurt you, I'm sorry, you're know you're still the one
I'm sorry I said we're through, cuz baby you know I'll always love you
all the papers that I read, it's too much violence, too much greed
It's so crazy to me to be fighting with you when it's you I desperately need...
and with this space and time, I'm hoping you say you're still mine...
cuz everything I do, I do for you
everything I think, I think about you
I don't want to waste another day
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say
thinking bout the things I didn't mean to say
Sunday, March 4, 2012
I want to go home
I was going through some old stuff
I found a note I wrote about us
I said I was on my way to the beach
I wanted you to come out and meet
I signed it with a kiss from my lips
and it made me remember the things I miss
I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong
I wish we could go back to when our love was strong
I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone
I want to go home, I want to go home
nothing really matters to me anymore
when secrets and tears become part of the norm
do you remember when we used to say
I love you and I can't bear to be away
so many times I needed a kiss
I have to tell you, it's you that I miss
I found a note I wrote about us
I said I was on my way to the beach
I wanted you to come out and meet
I signed it with a kiss from my lips
and it made me remember the things I miss
I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong
I wish we could go back to when our love was strong
I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone
I want to go home, I want to go home
nothing really matters to me anymore
when secrets and tears become part of the norm
do you remember when we used to say
I love you and I can't bear to be away
so many times I needed a kiss
I have to tell you, it's you that I miss
I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong
I wish we could go back to when our love was strong
I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone
I want to go home, I want to go home
I don't want another sleepless night
I don't want to pretend I'm alright
I don't to spend another day
wishing for all of this to go away...
I am putting all of this old stuff to rest
I'm going to write you a note instead
I hope you can feel how much I need you
life is too short to live with the blues
take this note I am signing with a kiss
Im bringing back all the things that we miss
I wish we could forget all the things we did wrong
I wish we could go back to when our love was strong
I can't do this alone, but I feel so alone
I want to go home, I want to go home
~Jenn
Sunday, February 26, 2012
I'm letting you go
It's been awhile since we spoke
and I've been trying to cope
I miss you and hate you sometimes
thinking of all the lies
but now I need to let you know
I'm letting you go
there's a burning desire inside
that makes me want to see you
even though I am hating you
most of the times
but now I need to let you know
I'm letting you go
I'm letting go of wishing I never met you
I'm letting go of feeling I might forgive you
I'm letting go of wanting to try and change you
I'm letting go of hoping I run into you
I'm letting go
I don't know where you are now
but I know you will hear this somehow
I would say I wish you well
but that would be a lie
so now I need to let you know
I'm letting you go
I need to let you know
I'm letting you go,
Bye
~Jenn
and I've been trying to cope
I miss you and hate you sometimes
thinking of all the lies
but now I need to let you know
I'm letting you go
there's a burning desire inside
that makes me want to see you
even though I am hating you
most of the times
but now I need to let you know
I'm letting you go
I'm letting go of wishing I never met you
I'm letting go of feeling I might forgive you
I'm letting go of wanting to try and change you
I'm letting go of hoping I run into you
I'm letting go
I don't know where you are now
but I know you will hear this somehow
I would say I wish you well
but that would be a lie
so now I need to let you know
I'm letting you go
I need to let you know
I'm letting you go,
Bye
~Jenn
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Be careful what you wish for
the day I told you to stay away
I knew it was going to be hard
but I needed to let go and walk away
I needed to be in my space
one week had passed and not a word
thought you might have called
I wanted to hear the sound of you voice
I was missing you, missing you
it was my choice to leave
now I have a change of heart
please, please we need to talk
I can't stand this feeling...
be careful what you wish for
once you get it, once it's true
the choice might not be good for you
be careful what you wish for
everyday I would take away
that call to push you far away
I wished for pain to go away
and now it's bigger than I ever felt
my wish was my greatest mistake
I wish I could wish my wish away
I hope you can wish my wish and say
you wish our love back to stay
be careful what you wish for
once you get it, once it's true
the choices might not be good for you
be careful what you wish for
be careful what you wish for
~Jenn
I knew it was going to be hard
but I needed to let go and walk away
I needed to be in my space
one week had passed and not a word
thought you might have called
I wanted to hear the sound of you voice
I was missing you, missing you
it was my choice to leave
now I have a change of heart
please, please we need to talk
I can't stand this feeling...
be careful what you wish for
once you get it, once it's true
the choice might not be good for you
be careful what you wish for
everyday I would take away
that call to push you far away
I wished for pain to go away
and now it's bigger than I ever felt
my wish was my greatest mistake
I wish I could wish my wish away
I hope you can wish my wish and say
you wish our love back to stay
be careful what you wish for
once you get it, once it's true
the choices might not be good for you
be careful what you wish for
be careful what you wish for
~Jenn
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
I said yes
we said the other day
we would not talk for a while
we both know unfortunately
we can't see each other like before
wondering if I could erase you
if that would be helpful
if I could make the last 5 years
wash away with all my tears
would I ever do it again
would I ever be your friend
it's too hard it's too hard
when love only feels lonely
when love feels this empty
it's too hard it's too hard
I thought love was supposed to shine
make us all better with time
I always wanted a partner
someone who would be mine
This darkness takes up
all the space love should be
But I'm the only one to blame
I was given you as a test
And, right away, I said yes.
I said yes
-Jenn
we would not talk for a while
we both know unfortunately
we can't see each other like before
wondering if I could erase you
if that would be helpful
if I could make the last 5 years
wash away with all my tears
would I ever do it again
would I ever be your friend
it's too hard it's too hard
when love only feels lonely
when love feels this empty
it's too hard it's too hard
I thought love was supposed to shine
make us all better with time
I always wanted a partner
someone who would be mine
This darkness takes up
all the space love should be
But I'm the only one to blame
I was given you as a test
And, right away, I said yes.
I said yes
-Jenn
Monday, February 20, 2012
writing
you say you like to write
you say it takes your mind away
from everywhere to only here
you can think of love and happiness
even when life is filled with loneliness
I don't know how you say what you say
but it gets me every time
and once you start writing,
your time becomes mine
and I feel connected and far from blue
as you explore
all the different sides in you
today I went to read your page
I read that you are leaving today
you don't even care to explain
my heart dropped and I felt betrayed
through your words I could feel again
when my world seemed to be at it's end
and now you say you're done with this
I guess you didn't care about your fans
your time was mine
and now I disconnect and return to blue
as you disappear
I need a voice to fill your shoes
I sat down with pen and paper
didn't know how I would explain
but something had to voice this pain
and I remember what you said one time
writing is what freed your mind
I wrote and wrote and wrote some more
my hand was tired but I didn't care
I was taken over by a feeling
that needed to be heard and shared
I never thought I had much to say
but there were layers and layers of past years
my time flew by
as I connected to all the colors of blue
and I gave back life
to my own voice, in my deepest truth
~Jenn
you say it takes your mind away
from everywhere to only here
you can think of love and happiness
even when life is filled with loneliness
I don't know how you say what you say
but it gets me every time
and once you start writing,
your time becomes mine
and I feel connected and far from blue
as you explore
all the different sides in you
today I went to read your page
I read that you are leaving today
you don't even care to explain
my heart dropped and I felt betrayed
through your words I could feel again
when my world seemed to be at it's end
and now you say you're done with this
I guess you didn't care about your fans
your time was mine
and now I disconnect and return to blue
as you disappear
I need a voice to fill your shoes
I sat down with pen and paper
didn't know how I would explain
but something had to voice this pain
and I remember what you said one time
writing is what freed your mind
I wrote and wrote and wrote some more
my hand was tired but I didn't care
I was taken over by a feeling
that needed to be heard and shared
I never thought I had much to say
but there were layers and layers of past years
my time flew by
as I connected to all the colors of blue
and I gave back life
to my own voice, in my deepest truth
~Jenn
Saturday, February 18, 2012
I'm not the same without you
someday we're gonna see
what all this is about
someday we're gonna be
filled with love and happy hearts
someday I will be with you through it all
from the highest cloud we'll rise and fall
don't be scared it's been done before
don't know what it's about
someday the reason to be
will only be a drifting thought
someday I will be with you through it all
from the highest cloud we'll rise and fall
but today I'm no the same without you
you stay miles away
but my love will never change
because I don't know who I am
without this love I have
for you for you for you
I'm not the same without you
and I love your hands on mine
and I fill my time with your smiles
I drink your smell with my wine
I'll hold you up every time
good bye is only said once
but l'll never let you say it
and one day I will find you
I'm not the same without you
I promise I will find you
I'm not the same without you
I'm not the same without you
I'm not the same without you
~Jenn
what all this is about
someday we're gonna be
filled with love and happy hearts
someday I will be with you through it all
from the highest cloud we'll rise and fall
don't be scared it's been done before
don't know what it's about
someday the reason to be
will only be a drifting thought
someday I will be with you through it all
from the highest cloud we'll rise and fall
but today I'm no the same without you
you stay miles away
but my love will never change
because I don't know who I am
without this love I have
for you for you for you
I'm not the same without you
and I love your hands on mine
and I fill my time with your smiles
I drink your smell with my wine
I'll hold you up every time
good bye is only said once
but l'll never let you say it
and one day I will find you
I'm not the same without you
I promise I will find you
I'm not the same without you
I'm not the same without you
I'm not the same without you
~Jenn
Monday, February 13, 2012
We'll see
she grew up in a small town
didn't learn between right and wrong
she tried to study and got caught between
friends that didn't have any dreams
we'll see, said her angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
drinking with the kids after school
she thought she was pretty cool
got behind the wheel on a rainy day
ended up driving her car into a tree
we'll see, said her angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
life is so precious no matter how reckless
it's not gonna change unless you change your ways
it's never too late and never too soon
to change what your destiny gonna do to you
we'll see, said her angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
I met her a couple years later
she worked in the hospital that saved her
told me she knows how I'm feeling
I took the pills cuz I stopped believing
we'll see, said my angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
she gave me another chance, another day
but I'm just looking for a place to feel okay
I asked her is the loneliness ever gonna end
is my broken heart ever gonna mend
we'll see, she said to me,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
we'll see, we'll see
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
~Jenn
didn't learn between right and wrong
she tried to study and got caught between
friends that didn't have any dreams
we'll see, said her angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
drinking with the kids after school
she thought she was pretty cool
got behind the wheel on a rainy day
ended up driving her car into a tree
we'll see, said her angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
life is so precious no matter how reckless
it's not gonna change unless you change your ways
it's never too late and never too soon
to change what your destiny gonna do to you
we'll see, said her angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
I met her a couple years later
she worked in the hospital that saved her
told me she knows how I'm feeling
I took the pills cuz I stopped believing
we'll see, said my angels,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
she gave me another chance, another day
but I'm just looking for a place to feel okay
I asked her is the loneliness ever gonna end
is my broken heart ever gonna mend
we'll see, she said to me,
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
we'll see, we'll see
we'll see, we'll see what's gonna be
~Jenn
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
what am I supposed to do with that
I know good people find each other in life
so how the hell did you end up by my side
your behavior is unkind
and your words are like knives
I'm so tired of your sorry's and cry's
the next time I forgive you it'll be a lie
you're cold most of the time
how you win me with one nice line...
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
you're driven by an ego that's never enough
and you feel you can't ever fuck up
then you come around makin me feel
I can relax and let you take the wheel
but here I am crying inside
with the fighting all the time
why I let you do it every time
why oh why oh why oh why...
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
I love the sweet boy I see deep down
I know you struggled, I know your scars
I really wish I could make you feel loved
but I'm not gonna be a victim of this fuxxxed up stuff
find another girl to beat up on
I'm dumping the trash this time around
you're just a little boy stuck in his frat
and I deserve so much more than that...
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
what am I supposed to do with that
~Jenn
so how the hell did you end up by my side
your behavior is unkind
and your words are like knives
I'm so tired of your sorry's and cry's
the next time I forgive you it'll be a lie
you're cold most of the time
how you win me with one nice line...
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
you're driven by an ego that's never enough
and you feel you can't ever fuck up
then you come around makin me feel
I can relax and let you take the wheel
but here I am crying inside
with the fighting all the time
why I let you do it every time
why oh why oh why oh why...
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
I love the sweet boy I see deep down
I know you struggled, I know your scars
I really wish I could make you feel loved
but I'm not gonna be a victim of this fuxxxed up stuff
find another girl to beat up on
I'm dumping the trash this time around
you're just a little boy stuck in his frat
and I deserve so much more than that...
you tell me that you love me
you treat me like you hate me
what am I supposed to do with that
what am I supposed to do with that
~Jenn
Sunday, February 5, 2012
you gotta be you
It don't matter if your english is bad
and I don't care what others have
all I want to know is who you are
so say what you feel even if it's hard...
Don't try and be someone your not
and don't do everything you're taught
I'll give you my number if you wanna go out
but if you wanna have me,
you gotta be you
I've been around a lot of blocks
I know what I like and I know what I'm not
I'm a good girl at heart but a bad girl sometimes
so I'm not looking for mr know it all
and I don't give a damn who's in control
and I'll tell you anything you wanna know
but if you wanna have me
you gotta be you
So I know it sounds like a simple plan
but I tell you I'm still looking for my man
so are you strong enough to be yourself
we could be you plus me we'd be two selves
and I don't care if you like me or not
I know I talk too much and I eat a lot
but I'll be there for you like know one will
so if you wanna have me
you gotta be you
you you you you youuuuuuu, you gotta be you you you you yoouuuuuu
~Jenn
and I don't care what others have
all I want to know is who you are
so say what you feel even if it's hard...
Don't try and be someone your not
and don't do everything you're taught
I'll give you my number if you wanna go out
but if you wanna have me,
you gotta be you
I've been around a lot of blocks
I know what I like and I know what I'm not
I'm a good girl at heart but a bad girl sometimes
so I'm not looking for mr know it all
and I don't give a damn who's in control
and I'll tell you anything you wanna know
but if you wanna have me
you gotta be you
So I know it sounds like a simple plan
but I tell you I'm still looking for my man
so are you strong enough to be yourself
we could be you plus me we'd be two selves
and I don't care if you like me or not
I know I talk too much and I eat a lot
but I'll be there for you like know one will
so if you wanna have me
you gotta be you
you you you you youuuuuuu, you gotta be you you you you yoouuuuuu
~Jenn
Saturday, February 4, 2012
it's all about love
you think I'm pretty stupid
I see how you look at me
I still have dreams
how crazy of me
but I'm not gonna give up the fight
even if I never get it right
because it's all about love
it's all about love
who knows when something special
is gonna happen to me
it's hard to believe
you have it so easy
but I'm not gonna give up the fight
even if I never get it right
because it's all about love
it's all about love
here I am looking for a break,
I can see it in my mind, I wish that meant something
I'm throwing petals to the wind
praying they will come back again
the best part about living a dream
is finding out that you can win
so look at me and try to say
you know better than my way
I dare you I dare you I dare you
now silence has the best of you
but I can't give up the fight
even if I never get it right
because it's all about love baby
it's all about love
yeah it's all about love
it's all about love
I see how you look at me
I still have dreams
how crazy of me
but I'm not gonna give up the fight
even if I never get it right
because it's all about love
it's all about love
who knows when something special
is gonna happen to me
it's hard to believe
you have it so easy
but I'm not gonna give up the fight
even if I never get it right
because it's all about love
it's all about love
here I am looking for a break,
I can see it in my mind, I wish that meant something
I'm throwing petals to the wind
praying they will come back again
the best part about living a dream
is finding out that you can win
so look at me and try to say
you know better than my way
I dare you I dare you I dare you
now silence has the best of you
but I can't give up the fight
even if I never get it right
because it's all about love baby
it's all about love
yeah it's all about love
it's all about love
Friday, January 27, 2012
I don't belong with you :(
when you knocked on my door
I didn't want to be home
I was silent when you walked away
but I wanted to run to you
I didn't want you to know that
you 're too good for me
your eyes make me cry
your too good for me
I know you would get sick of me
I'm saving you from feeling let down
I'm saving you from feeling bored
I'm saving you from wasting your time
I don't belong with you
I know you are going to feel hurt
I see you cry and you want my love
but can't you see you don't see me
you don't see how I spend my time
you would get restless around me
you don't see I am selfish
and you might catch me in a lie
you would get frustrated with me
and all of my silly dreams
I'm saving you from feeling let down
I'm saving you from feeling bored
I'm saving you from wasting your time
I don't belong with you
deep down I want you to be happy
I want to be the one you remember
even as you try to find another me
I love you that much to let you go
but I never want to see you leave
I don't make any sense at times
but you're the only one who understands
can't you see you're the one
but I can't risk seeing the end
I'm saving you from feeling let down
I'm saving you from feeling bored
I'm saving you from wasting your time
I don't belong with you
I don't belong with you
~Jenn :(
I didn't want to be home
I was silent when you walked away
but I wanted to run to you
I didn't want you to know that
you 're too good for me
your eyes make me cry
your too good for me
I know you would get sick of me
I'm saving you from feeling let down
I'm saving you from feeling bored
I'm saving you from wasting your time
I don't belong with you
I know you are going to feel hurt
I see you cry and you want my love
but can't you see you don't see me
you don't see how I spend my time
you would get restless around me
you don't see I am selfish
and you might catch me in a lie
you would get frustrated with me
and all of my silly dreams
I'm saving you from feeling let down
I'm saving you from feeling bored
I'm saving you from wasting your time
I don't belong with you
deep down I want you to be happy
I want to be the one you remember
even as you try to find another me
I love you that much to let you go
but I never want to see you leave
I don't make any sense at times
but you're the only one who understands
can't you see you're the one
but I can't risk seeing the end
I'm saving you from feeling let down
I'm saving you from feeling bored
I'm saving you from wasting your time
I don't belong with you
I don't belong with you
~Jenn :(
Thursday, January 26, 2012
excuse me
excuse my failure to write everyday this year...
I've been preoccupied with work and recording some new songs and rehearsing for a show and mingling with friends and hanging out with some family and and and those are my excuses, take them or leave them, I hope they lend a hand in believing that I have not disappeared in any way, I haven't died or given up, I have just been immersing myself in projects that exhaust and inspire me. This year, already the end of january, I am feeling pretty positive and happy for a change. Better days are coming this year, my way, everyone's way I am hoping, praying, and it's about time dammit!
Hopefully I will have something to write about soon!
So, please excuse me,
~Jenn
I've been preoccupied with work and recording some new songs and rehearsing for a show and mingling with friends and hanging out with some family and and and those are my excuses, take them or leave them, I hope they lend a hand in believing that I have not disappeared in any way, I haven't died or given up, I have just been immersing myself in projects that exhaust and inspire me. This year, already the end of january, I am feeling pretty positive and happy for a change. Better days are coming this year, my way, everyone's way I am hoping, praying, and it's about time dammit!
Hopefully I will have something to write about soon!
So, please excuse me,
~Jenn
Friday, January 20, 2012
my lovers never last
I wake up and I pray
before I take a break
I think good thoughts
while I meditate
and then my morning shake
I work a lot and pay my bills
I'm never late to meet
I eat 3 meals
and give to those in need
so why am I not happy?
I must be trouble, I must be bad
my lovers never last
it must be something from my past
my lovers never last
woke up next to john the other day
but I still felt alone I have to say
I think I had too much to drink
it messes with how I think
I had to call jason to say
what's up dude, how's your day
he said he had to call me back
but I think he might have just lost track
there's always miller to watch a game
but I think he secretly might be gay
and mike, oh mike, he's okay nice
but seriously, he's not really that bright
I used to have a crush on Sammy
but still, why am I not happy?
I must be trouble I must be bad
my lovers never last
it must be something from my past
my lovers never last
I remember my first love david craig
we spoke about getting married one day
I hate to regret things I have done
but I was the one to mess this one
he found me one afternoon upstairs
drinking with his friend on a dare
I never thought he would have known
I guess he called on his way home
I always cry when I think of his face
but that was it, I was full of disgrace
He never wanted to see me again
and I never wanted to talk to his friend
I think I never wanted to forgive
even though I have so much more to live...
I know I'm trouble, I know I'm bad
my lovers never last
It must be something from my past
my lover's never last
~Jenn
before I take a break
I think good thoughts
while I meditate
and then my morning shake
I work a lot and pay my bills
I'm never late to meet
I eat 3 meals
and give to those in need
so why am I not happy?
I must be trouble, I must be bad
my lovers never last
it must be something from my past
my lovers never last
woke up next to john the other day
but I still felt alone I have to say
I think I had too much to drink
it messes with how I think
I had to call jason to say
what's up dude, how's your day
he said he had to call me back
but I think he might have just lost track
there's always miller to watch a game
but I think he secretly might be gay
and mike, oh mike, he's okay nice
but seriously, he's not really that bright
I used to have a crush on Sammy
but still, why am I not happy?
I must be trouble I must be bad
my lovers never last
it must be something from my past
my lovers never last
I remember my first love david craig
we spoke about getting married one day
I hate to regret things I have done
but I was the one to mess this one
he found me one afternoon upstairs
drinking with his friend on a dare
I never thought he would have known
I guess he called on his way home
I always cry when I think of his face
but that was it, I was full of disgrace
He never wanted to see me again
and I never wanted to talk to his friend
I think I never wanted to forgive
even though I have so much more to live...
I know I'm trouble, I know I'm bad
my lovers never last
It must be something from my past
my lover's never last
~Jenn
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I'm Ready to Fall in Love
I'm ready
ready to fall
in love
with you
are you ready
ready to fall
in love
with me
and I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
how its gonna go, gonna go
all I know
is that I'm ready
ready to fall in love
I'm ready
to take your hand
look at the sky
through your eyes
are you ready
to stand still
only walking
right by my side
and I don't know, I don't know
how it's gonna go
all I know
is that I'm ready
to fall in love
yes I'm ready
ready to fall in love
are you ready
to walk in my world
I want you to see
everything I have in me
and I'm ready
to have you to hold
forever and ever
I'm never gonna let you go
I'm ready
ready to fall
in love
with you
are you ready
ready to fall
in love
with me
I don't know I don't know
how it's gonna go
all I know is Im ready
ready to fall
in love
~jenn
ready to fall
in love
with you
are you ready
ready to fall
in love
with me
and I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
how its gonna go, gonna go
all I know
is that I'm ready
ready to fall in love
I'm ready
to take your hand
look at the sky
through your eyes
are you ready
to stand still
only walking
right by my side
and I don't know, I don't know
how it's gonna go
all I know
is that I'm ready
to fall in love
yes I'm ready
ready to fall in love
are you ready
to walk in my world
I want you to see
everything I have in me
and I'm ready
to have you to hold
forever and ever
I'm never gonna let you go
I'm ready
ready to fall
in love
with you
are you ready
ready to fall
in love
with me
I don't know I don't know
how it's gonna go
all I know is Im ready
ready to fall
in love
~jenn
Monday, January 16, 2012
we can succeed
if we try
if we believe
we are one
everything
and nothing
this is what we have
nothing at all
and everything right here
will you stay with me
let me feel complete
stay with me
give me what I need
I know you know
how to say
what you want
I know you know
I don't know
what I want
but this is what we have
nothing at all
and everything right here
stay with me
let me feel complete
stay with me
give me what I need
If I tell you
all I am
will you stay
if you see me
all of me
will you leave
what if this is all
nothing is gonna to change
all that I feel
will stay the same
will it be enough for you
all that you feel
will never change
this is how its gonna be
this is what we have
nothing at all
and everything right here
stay with me
let me feel complete
stay with me
give me what I need
I hope it's enough
all of me
all of you
are we enough
for me
for you
~Jenn
if we try
if we believe
we are one
everything
and nothing
this is what we have
nothing at all
and everything right here
will you stay with me
let me feel complete
stay with me
give me what I need
I know you know
how to say
what you want
I know you know
I don't know
what I want
but this is what we have
nothing at all
and everything right here
stay with me
let me feel complete
stay with me
give me what I need
If I tell you
all I am
will you stay
if you see me
all of me
will you leave
what if this is all
nothing is gonna to change
all that I feel
will stay the same
will it be enough for you
all that you feel
will never change
this is how its gonna be
this is what we have
nothing at all
and everything right here
stay with me
let me feel complete
stay with me
give me what I need
I hope it's enough
all of me
all of you
are we enough
for me
for you
~Jenn
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Just Gibberish
It happens sometimes, I know it's here now. I don't have very much to say, nothing to talk about and nothing to share. Nothing but empty words to occupy your air.
It's a wave, it will pass, like a beginning and an end, it will see what we all see. But the middle of the road is the hardest place to be. If the wave is a good one, then you know the last half is coming to an end, so death is awaiting and happiness could be fading. If the wave is not a good one, then riding it down is almost like waiting to be born. Again, with hope, something new something better, something different is around the corner. Or not. The big question mark awaits with answers and knowledge that only time can answer. So there you have it, look at this wave. I have nothing to say but gibberish. Just gibberish. It's the rise and fall of gibberish. The development of gibberish. The downfall, the death of gibberish. The word itself seems to say a lot more than it's meaning I think. But if we didn't have gibberish, then maybe we wouldn't appreciate profoundness or greatness. So, I love to be a team player and someone who carries my weight as we look at the whole picture. So with gibberish, just gibberish, I add to the mix, so other works can be seen and get their fame and recognition. At least now gibberish has some sort of purpose, no? Yeah, I know, it's just gibberish...
~Jenn
It's a wave, it will pass, like a beginning and an end, it will see what we all see. But the middle of the road is the hardest place to be. If the wave is a good one, then you know the last half is coming to an end, so death is awaiting and happiness could be fading. If the wave is not a good one, then riding it down is almost like waiting to be born. Again, with hope, something new something better, something different is around the corner. Or not. The big question mark awaits with answers and knowledge that only time can answer. So there you have it, look at this wave. I have nothing to say but gibberish. Just gibberish. It's the rise and fall of gibberish. The development of gibberish. The downfall, the death of gibberish. The word itself seems to say a lot more than it's meaning I think. But if we didn't have gibberish, then maybe we wouldn't appreciate profoundness or greatness. So, I love to be a team player and someone who carries my weight as we look at the whole picture. So with gibberish, just gibberish, I add to the mix, so other works can be seen and get their fame and recognition. At least now gibberish has some sort of purpose, no? Yeah, I know, it's just gibberish...
~Jenn
Friday, January 13, 2012
Right now
Right now I am looking at a woman
she is standing on the corner
waiting for someone
thinking about someone
confused about someone
Right now I am watching her pace
looking at her watch
she ignores the passers by
takes out her cell phone to check
Right now I am wondering about this woman
I am close enough to go to her
she is crying alone right now
standing on the corner
as if her life is somehow over
why do I choose to watch sad things
and what makes me think I can
like anyone can
understand them and make them better
right now I am walking towards her
I have tissues to offer her
she looks kind and approachable
I am not scared of her
right now I watch a woman open her purse
she looks me in the eye
as she pulls out a gun from her bag
my eyes catch hers as she takes
a gun to her head
I see her for the last time
I am her last moment
she pulls the trigger as she stares
it seems like slow motion
I watch her take her own life
there is nothing I can do
I don't think my tissues are enough
right now is all we have
and this is my right now
~Jenn
she is standing on the corner
waiting for someone
thinking about someone
confused about someone
Right now I am watching her pace
looking at her watch
she ignores the passers by
takes out her cell phone to check
Right now I am wondering about this woman
I am close enough to go to her
she is crying alone right now
standing on the corner
as if her life is somehow over
why do I choose to watch sad things
and what makes me think I can
like anyone can
understand them and make them better
right now I am walking towards her
I have tissues to offer her
she looks kind and approachable
I am not scared of her
right now I watch a woman open her purse
she looks me in the eye
as she pulls out a gun from her bag
my eyes catch hers as she takes
a gun to her head
I see her for the last time
I am her last moment
she pulls the trigger as she stares
it seems like slow motion
I watch her take her own life
there is nothing I can do
I don't think my tissues are enough
right now is all we have
and this is my right now
~Jenn
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
go another way
who wants you
does it really matter
when all you do
is cling and clatter
too much mess
is not a great thing
too much stress
and you can't sing
how you gonna get it together
how you gonna get your way
wrong choices and behavior
baby you gotta go another way
go another way
it's over soon
do you even care
you want the moon
what you need is there
you're running away
from everything real
and what you say
doesn't make the deal
how you gonna get it together
how you gonna get your way
wrong choices and behavior
baby you gotta go another way
go another way
everything is hard
but time will let you see
you know what is right
and courage is the key
so get it together
go and get your way
choose the right behavior
and go another way
choose the right behavior
and go get on your way
choose the right behavior
and baby, have your way
choose the right behavior
and go another way
~Jenn
does it really matter
when all you do
is cling and clatter
too much mess
is not a great thing
too much stress
and you can't sing
how you gonna get it together
how you gonna get your way
wrong choices and behavior
baby you gotta go another way
go another way
it's over soon
do you even care
you want the moon
what you need is there
you're running away
from everything real
and what you say
doesn't make the deal
how you gonna get it together
how you gonna get your way
wrong choices and behavior
baby you gotta go another way
go another way
everything is hard
but time will let you see
you know what is right
and courage is the key
so get it together
go and get your way
choose the right behavior
and go another way
choose the right behavior
and go get on your way
choose the right behavior
and baby, have your way
choose the right behavior
and go another way
~Jenn
Thursday, January 5, 2012
love me
love me
like you want to
and I promise
that I'll want to
love you toooooo
yes I dooooooo
Play me
like your want to
and I'll say things
that I'll only say
to yooouuuuuuu
yes to youuuuuuuu
we're like two peas in a pod
don't cha know we play the same songs
on the same iPod
I'm your best friend and I'll always be
it's so easy it like one two three
don't you want to love me
like I love you
love me
and I'll love you too
trick me
like you want to
and I'll promise
to always pretend
for youuuuuuuu
yes for youuuuuuuu
take me
like you want to
and I'll give you
what you need me
to give to youuuuuuuuuuu
yes to youuuuuuuuuu
If we take it slow or take it fast
doesn't matter cuz we know yes we know
we're gonna last
I say to you, I love you and ya know I do
I love that you know it's the plain ol truth
don't you want to love me
like I love you
love me
and I'll love you too
like you want to
and I promise
that I'll want to
love you toooooo
yes I dooooooo
Play me
like your want to
and I'll say things
that I'll only say
to yooouuuuuuu
yes to youuuuuuuu
we're like two peas in a pod
don't cha know we play the same songs
on the same iPod
I'm your best friend and I'll always be
it's so easy it like one two three
don't you want to love me
like I love you
love me
and I'll love you too
trick me
like you want to
and I'll promise
to always pretend
for youuuuuuuu
yes for youuuuuuuu
take me
like you want to
and I'll give you
what you need me
to give to youuuuuuuuuuu
yes to youuuuuuuuuu
If we take it slow or take it fast
doesn't matter cuz we know yes we know
we're gonna last
I say to you, I love you and ya know I do
I love that you know it's the plain ol truth
don't you want to love me
like I love you
love me
and I'll love you too
we're like two peas in a pod
don't cha know we play the same songs
on the same iPod
I'm your best friend and I'll always be
it's so easy it like one two three
don't you want to love me
like I love you
love me
and I'll love you too
~Jenn
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