I still don't know...

I have lived in cities and towns
I have prayed before priests and clowns
looking for an answer
I want an answer
I have gone to psychics and talks
I have listened to people who've walked
in heaven to teach
He is always in reach...

But I still don't know the answers
And I  still have too many questions
And I still don't know why I am here
I still don't know my purpose here.

I have loved older men
I have had fun with lots of friends
but it gave me nothing
just a longing
I have played with children and babies
I have yearned for a big family
but I can't find the love
to last a whole lifetime

So I still don't know the answers
And I have too many questions
And I still don't know why I'm here
I still don't know my purpose here.

I have studied a lot of yoga
I have read books on dying
only to fear that our dying is near
I pray everyday
and I try to mediate
only to realize time is ticking away

But I still don't know the answers
And I have too many questions
And I still don't know why I'm here
I still don't know my purpose here.

~Jenn

90th post

Wow, I cannot believe this is my 90th post, it doesn't seem like I have been at it THAT long, but I guess time really does go by past.  I think I should throw a party or somethin for the 100th post, don't you?  100 seems to be a memorable number, something big, something worth noticing ?
Hmmmmmmm....anyway, I'm BAAAAAAAAAck!  Back from a vacation, lots of sun, lots of sleep, yes, I actually slept, lots of somethin else that starts with s ;), and lots of food, lots of it.  And to be quite honest, I wasn't feelin like I REALLY needed vacation.  I was in my work mode, lots of things are happening now with music and life and friends and I wasn't really in the mood to go away.  But, being it my birthday week, yes it is true, I was whisked away by friends and didn't have much of a choice.  So I surrendered to the vacation and had a good time, but to be honest, to be really honest, I am so glad to be back!  I have so much stuff I want to do, have to do, gotta do, and I need to get doin it if you know what I mean...I want this year to be MY year, and it will be my year if I focus and give it my all, I really believe that.  I believe everyone can have 'their' year happen whenever they want it to happen, but it is timing and focus and awareness and passion that has to come together to make it all happen.  And it happens for all of us at different times.  But for me, the time is now.  Right now.  And enough vacations for a while, I am here to work and provide and focus and practice and DO.  Just DO.  DO DO DO DO DO.  So, I am happy to be back and happy to start again.  And if I had to do it all again, I probably would not have gone.  Right now, right here, right now is where I want to be, and NOT eating chips and drinking margarita's and sleeping and hanging out in the sun.  There is a time and a place for all of that, but I just don't think it is time for that now...maybe it's just time for a margarita :)

~Jenn

vacay time

I am going away, far away
for a much needed, very needed vacay
I might be blogging once in a while
since it is something that brings a smile
but it might be sporadic and not every day
I will be sunning and tanning most days
once in a while we all need a break
so I'm taking one, my late spring break
I never had these as a kid, so I am due you see
It helps me replenish and get to a better me :)
Margaritas, chips, guac and some salsa
music, ocean, books and more salsa
it's all I need once in a while
once in a while for a bigger smile...

~Jenn

I'm getting crazy...

Friday riddle...who ever thinks of riddles anymore?  I do I do :)

So, we have all had these, usually they come more in our youth, but they can come anytime.  They can feel really good and can feel really bad.  Some can turn into happy endings, some can turn into embarrassing endings, some might not turn into anything, and some can turn into horrific endings.  They usually make you feel out of control and CRAZY !!!!!!  What am I talking about????

I have a secret to tell you
And I promise it's true, very true
Just promise not to say a thing or two
But I have a CRUSH on you know who.

I saw him the other day downstairs
It was hard not to trip down the stairs
But I smiled and pretended I didn't care
I hope he didn't catch my stare.

        And I wish I could tell him my feelings you know
        But I'm scared he might not get me you know
        And what if he rejects me you know
        Oh man, he's making me crazy

I dream about him every night
I picture his arms huggin me tight
I don't even think he knows my name
Could you tell him, no wait, that's lame...

        And I wish I could tell him my feelings you know
        But I'm scared he might not get me you know
        And what if he rejects me you know
        Oh man, he's making me crazzzzzzyyyyyyyy

Do you think it could ever happen for me
I want to know if he ever thinks of me
If only I could tell him how I feel
I wish this dream could be something real...

        And I wish I could tell him my feelings you know
        But I'm scared he might not get me you know
        And what if he rejects me you know
        Oh man, he's making me crazzzzzzyyyyyyyy
      
~Jenn

Crazy Life

I had a dream last night I was in car crash.  And I didn't die, but I injured my leg pretty bad.  It was black and blue and cut up and looked broken and it really hurt and I remember I had to tell my one friend that I was in an accident so he could come and help me.  And I don't think he came, or I got in touch with him.  And that was all I remembered...it's a new dream for me.  Usually I have dreams of plane crashes, not car crashes, and I never get hurt, I just possible might die before I wake up...hope the new dream means I am overcoming something!

Crazy Life

Woke this morning to my normal dream
people running, people shooting
takes a little time to shake it off
but it's all normal, it's all routine
gotta get stuff done, be someone
I'm on automatic, systematic
I'm not worried I'm not anxious

Its a new day, love could come
it's all the same even though I try to tell myself
every day could be that special day to be seen
everyday I could welcome someone to this
crazy life crazy life

Cars are racing and my mind is turning
it's 5 o'clock and it's time to start
once I tried dancing, tricking, making money
I thought love would come save me
I was a good girl when I was little
it didn't help,  or maybe it did
I sold my soul to live my dream,
what's the dream, then I scream hello
crazy life crazy life

Hello mother hello father hello lonliness
where's my family, I want a family
gonna put myself out there again
I think I'm ready, I think I'm ready for my
crazy life crazy life

~Jenn

busy day

I have such a busy day today
I'm sorry because there will be a delay
in something I choose say
So don't take it personally
because it is my fault totally
I have to run to a lesson
then do some errands
then lunch with friends
and homework again
but I will be back
tomorrow or soon after
so keep some laughter
or save some for later
and I will try to appease
so no one will leave
me ;)

~jenn

why do I do the things I do

why do I do the things I do?
when the things I choose to do
bring me pain and familiar outcomes
We as human beings, beautiful human creatures
have so much to offer,
so much to give to the wonderful world
so much to say and so much to do
so much to teach and and and
then we choose the evil things we do
if this were a dream I would be going down
like the airplanes I fly in my mind
and then fall from the sky with no warning
if this was someone else's life
I would know how to act and know how to be
I would know what to say and how to be me
but being me is the hardest part of all
especially when I won't let myself become my all
and I run from right and I choose to fall
down down down again I am used to this
only humans can keep doing this
and no amount of songs will ever fill me up
because it's my soul that gets the empty cup
it's not too late, it's never to late
to make a change for the better
to make a difference for me, for you, for each other
so I pray that one day I will have no regrets
no punishments for my actions
not guilt for my deceptions
and I will be perfect to me and to you
and I will be one with my soul and with you.

~Jenn

I wonder if you ever think of me too

Hi there, it's me again
How are you?  I'm fine thanks
I know you don't like when I call
But I thought you wouldn't mind that I talk to you
It's been about a year now
So much has passed that I want to share
And I want to hear about your life
And if maybe, just maybe, you still care
           I'm just hoping we can talk again
          And maybe there's a chance we can be friends
          But I woke up today and thought of you
          And I wonder if you ever think of me too
We could grab a drink or coffee
Or maybe lunch at the beach
Do you still take walks along the shore
I could meet you if that's better for you...
           I'm just hoping we can talk again
           And maybe there's a chance we can be friends
           But I woke up today and thought of you
           And I wonder if you ever think of me too
I've grown up a lot since then
And I'm sure you have too
I'm sorry for the mistakes I made before
But do you think we can open a new door?
           I'm just hoping we can talk again
           And maybe there's a chance we can be friends
           But I woke up today and thought of you
           And I wonder if you ever think of me too

I wonder if you ever think of me like I think of you
I wonder if you ever dream of me like I dream of you
I wonder if you've ever loved another like I loved you
I wonder if you will ever love me again like I still do...
                                                                              I love you

~Jenn

Every mistake is just another lesson

I believe mistakes are another word for lessons, however, learning the lesson is a whole different story, applying the lesson take courage and growth...I find myself making the same mistake, over and over and over and over and over and over again, and learning the same lesson over and over and over and over and over and over again, but not applying the lesson to grow and make a different mistake. Maybe I am so used to this one mistake that I don't wish to know another mistake...but mistakes are painful, very painful no matter how often we make them, and the lesson is not worth anything unless we choose to use it, no?  I can walk away with the fact that I'm just a moron, but that is a cop out...the lesson, will always be there for the taking, and I just have to TAKE the freakin thing once and for all...

I didn't see it
love came freely and illegally
I thought it was just a joke
but I see that it's not just a hoax
sometimes love is not the right love
and it's not like I don't want to grow and move on
but sometimes love blinds and I'm not so strong
but every mistake becomes another lesson
every mistake becomes another lesson
every mistake is just another lesson for me take...
it's so hard
my heart feels real
who cares what's wrong
when love is a gift
that keeps on giving through the pain...
and it's not like I don't want to grow and move on
but sometimes love can be a painful marathon
but every mistake becomes another lesson
every mistake becomes another lesson
every mistake is just another lesson for me to take...
I don't want to stay in the same place
I know it takes courage to run a new race
I'm scared to jump without knowing where I will land
but every mistake becomes another lesson to take
I'm two steps away from deciding
I feel like my whole life is declining
what is right and what is wrong, I wanna be strong...
and it's not like I don't want to grow and move on
but sometimes love can be a painful marathon
but every mistake becomes another lesson for me to take...
every mistake can be another lesson for me to take
every mistake should be a lesson for me to take...
move on move on move on move on
be strong move on it's ok to move on

~Jenn

Family

family living their lives for kids to be sweet
tell you what they want you to do, and you get food for free
dad say's my boy throws a ball with a real fast twist and my girl plays with dolls and they are perfect for me
together for winter break, spring break, and a summer trip to the beach
you know you have it good but you still want to rebel from the family tree

where will you go when its that time to leave the nest
when you wish for your freedom but miss home and the rest
you have something to prove to your teachers that said
they love you, support you, but you better pass the tests.

we love our cousins, our brothers, our sisters and their boyfriends
they cover the secrets we keep from our keeper's
another mistake was made, he got caught with a drug and now he's the black swan in the family lake, but

where will you go when it's time to leave the nest
when you wish for your freedom but miss home and the rest
you have something to prove to your teachers that said
they love you, support you, but you better pass your tests.

some families bind, some grind, some pick at everything you do
some punish, some uplift, and some ignore everything you do
are we children of our parents or are we our own souls tied to god
who do we listen to, who do we answer to, who do we ask questions of when we don't know what to do, but

where will you go when it's time to leave the nest
when you have decisions to make that put you to the test
you have something to prove, we all do sometimes
my family, your family, let's hope someone guides us over time.

where will you go when it's time for me direct the show
when I have to decide all that's best for you to grow
family, my family, the circle can seem so slow
do what I say, I did in my time, and I will make sure you,one day, will go.

~jenn

why why why

why do I always seem to plan things that I know when the event comes, I will want to cancel?
why do I say yes when I mean no sometimes?
why do I smoke in the afternoon sometimes knowing I will feel like crap right afterwards?
why do I take a pill to sleep when I know every morning waking up is harder to do than if I just slept naturally?
why do I say yes when I mean no?
why do I make so many plans for the week when I know what I want to do is chill out and write more songs?
why do I buy more things when I know I should be saving right now?
why do I get so negative about certain parts of my life when I know being negative doesn't help me?
why do commit to someone's plan when I really want to follow my own plan?
why do all of my songs sound strange?
why can't I meet the man of my dreams?
why can't I sleep at night when I am usually so tired from the day?
why does my manger and music producer really want to work with me?
why does A T&T suck so bad?
why does my mom still tell me what to do and make me feel I can't do anything right?
why do I always have so many questions and no answers?
why haven't I been able to write a major hit song yet?
why can't I sing like alicia keys?
why do I pretend to not know the answers when I really know the answers?
why do I go against my gut and instincts sometimes?
why do I go against myself sometimes, knowing the outcome will not be a good outcome for me?
why do I say yes when I really mean no?

why why why why why why why why?
~Jenn

?????????????????????????????????HUH???????????????????????????????????

Great days sometimes lead to stressful results...does that make sense?

My day could not have gone any better yesterday, that day yesterday, the one I said was gonna be a good day, well it was a good day, a really good day...yesterday was.

Last night was a really bad night, I couldn't sleep, and I wasn't doing anything fun to pass the hours by, I was in my bed rolling around to try and get comfortable, to try and not think, to try and stop my thoughts from the rambling notes of worry and anxiety, thoughts that do not make me feel so good, man I am really my worst enemy sometimes...ok, let me explain...

So, here I am, proud of myself for a good day's accomplishments, everything with my music, my recording, my meeting new people is going great and moving forward.  But now I am worried there is so much I am going to have to prove now.  If people are taking chances on me, and they seem to be doing that, then I have to prove I was worth taking that chance, prove something in me is worth becoming something they want to explore or promote...I start to question, what if there really is nothing that great in me, it is all an act and I have tricked everyone and they will all see that they made a big mistake in taking a chance on me...I start to worry, I think 'I better start working harder, I better start learning how to write better songs, sing better, BE better in time for when I have to be better'...and then comes the STRESS...STRESSSSSSSS, I don't want another failure, I don't want to be another disappointment, I don't want to be another person who just falls through the cracks and no one will know their name...but hey, this is what life is all about.  And who cares if no one knows my name, I know someone does, my mom, my dad, my sister, my niece not so much, but someone does know my name, shouldn't that be enough?

Anyway, great days lead to worry and stress for me, but then again ,bad days lead to worry and stress for me, so I think the moral of the story is that I can never win, and worry and stress is just a thing and maybe that is who I am and maybe most people are like this and maybe it is what keeps me wanting to be better...but if I am NOT ever better, then what good is it anyway???????????????? Huh.

~Jenn

4/11/11

Wow, numerology says today is going to be a great day for me.  Four and eleven are 2 of my favorite and lucky number's, and it is perfect timing because I need all the luck and good wishes that I can muster today.  Today is a big day for me.  It is, and I will tell you why but I won't tell you today, so I hope we have a deal.  I don't want to possibly jinx or mess up in any way my day, so there ya go...and since my day is supposed to go so well for me, that just means lots of people will be feeling something good too...so have some fun!

Revenge...

I have heard actions speak louder than words...
so i am going to be an actress,
not a writer.
I have a voice to be heard and it might be worth more than words...
so, here's what I am going to do
and it involves you, what I will do
I'm gonna chain you up and lock the door
I want you to know you're mine, all mine
You will be mine, just mine
so I can have you when I want
I can go as I please
I can feed you good with me
and leave you when you tire me
You're mine, all mine, and I am not opening the door
I learned control from you some years before
You can tell me what to do,
but I can choose yes or no to you
You can yell at me all night
But I can leave or take it sometimes
You're gonna love me true
Cuz I am not leaving til you do
And I can't promise I will ever leave you.
You can call your friends
Tell them what's going on
They can visit when I say they can
But I will never let them belong.
You can call your mom briefly
Just tell her you're safe with me
I'm not gonna let you go baby
And the years you put me to the test
When you ordered and didn't let me rest
Now you will see me at my best
My best baby, I feel Rocky, best of the best.

~Jenn

got you pegged baby

Come down next to me
Let's whisper and not shout
I have some good things to tell you
And I want to get it all out
I got you pegged baby, and it's a good thing
Cuz I know your every move baby, and I know your thing
I got you pegged baby, come over to my side
Let's put the top down and go for a long ride
I'm not gonna let you go
Just letting you know
And I've got a great plan to follow
And everythin from you is allowed
Cuz I got you pegged baby, and it's a good thing
And I know your every move baby, and I know your thing
You can let it all go cuz I know it all anyway baby
You can't hide anything from me, I know you baby
I don't mind your morning breath
Cuz I love you in the evening
I don't mind when you scream and shout
Cuz later it won't matter what it's about
You love me when I need you
You hold me tight so tight
I don't mind if you let go sometimes
I know you'll be back for the good times
I got you pegged baby, and it's a good thing
I know your every move baby, and I know your thing
Let your worries go cuz I'm not gonna go
I'm here for the whole ride and I'm all you're gonna know
I got you pegged baby, baby I got you pegged
I got you pegged baby, baby I got you pegged.

~Jenn

Finally!

Finally is the first word that comes to mind at the moment, FINALLY!
I have been waiting to get a green light from the music manager to go ahead and record with some producer he is setting me up with.  2 weeks, I felt he wasn't calling me back for a reason, or that he maybe had second thoughts and didn't want to set me up with the guy anymore, but I was wrong...YAY, I like being wrong sometimes!
So, next week is the next process, I am excited...I will meet the producer, get to know him, and make a record or something, this is exciting!  I am actually going to do this which is crazy!

I can't see black or white right now
all I see is blue
there are no clouds in the sky right now
and night's not comin soon

I'm happy right now, happy today
and I wanna make you happy too.
come on by, I'm smillin now
and I wanna make you smile too.

you can take away the sun for now
let the rain dance down
I can handle it all right now
so let me be your clown

you say you can't believe me
you've known me way too long
I'll prove my heart is jumpin
just listen to my swingin song

I have a pulse, I'm happy today
and I wanna make you happy too
call me, wake me, grab me babe
cuz I wanna make you happy too.

~Jenn

Coffee Time

Gonna try to sing the blues, it never seems to be too hard...

Coffee Time

It's morning time and I'm feeling down

haven't slept a wink

I pace and write and walk a little

and then I stop to think

Coffee time, its morning time

I love it when its black and strong

I will never drink the tea or juice

anything but coffee is just wrong

I speak to god when I can't sleep

the hours pass me by

I ask god to let me sleep 

but it's my boy that makes me weep

Coffee time at night

when I think about how lonely I am 

it doesn't do me any good 

to remember all of my daily 'shoulds'

coffee time in the afternoon

when I am tired from the internal fight

I know I won't be takin naps

cuz I start to worry about the night

I feel like I am delirious

I wonder if everyone feels this

my man, my boy, he's out again

and I'm cryin for another kiss

Maybe I picked the wrong guy

since I can't sleep and I feel so low

my face is getting more wrinkles now

and every moment goes so slow

Coffee time one more time

I'm thinking of callin an ending

but the black brew serves me too good

as my heart yearns for love's mending

Where's my boy it's coffee time

I want to pour him some

I'd mix some rat poisoning in it this time

I'm hurt, I'm sad, he's done.

~Jenn

Happy Friday :)

the ride

Oh no, here we go again.
something is not right, I feel it setting in
I have been here before, I know what it feels like
it's a state in my mind that doesn't sit right

the world has it's troubles, I float in the water
the boat we sail forward is facing it's storm
back and forth we all go, I start to feel qweezy
pill or no pill, so far this ride is not easy

sometimes I want to jump and swim to the land
but I know I wouldn't make it by myself to the sand
sometimes I feel I wish we would all go down
but I know that's selfish talk and God won't let us drown

the wind keeps blowing and the boat keeps rocking
I feel alone most of the time watching people talking
so far everyone seems okay with the turbulence
so why am I so sensitive to all of this craziness

help me, help me, I want it all to stop
I don't know how I can last, how to get this ride to stop
the ships that pass seem to glide right past
smiles and waves that reveal tonight they will last

there's something on our boat that is not standing strong
there's nothing in my heart that wants this to last too long
here comes the last wave, I see it in the distance
one more time I will ride it and not stand with resistance.

~Jenn

bad mood monday

I really don't know where I come up with these things...I saw a movie over the weekend, some HBO movie, and it made me sad...

Poor little jeannie
couldn't make up her mind
she tried her luck with lots of men
looking for the perfect match
now she's still looking
single once again
seems like the men of her past
didn't make for ones that would last...

It's nearing her 40th year
now she wants a baby jeannie
but she is still alone
by saying too maybe maybe's
time is slowly ticking
she feels it more than ever
so she jumped in bed with a guy
she would have never brought home to mother.

Pregnant and 50 lbs bigger
the baby dad likes his dinner at 6
he works at night in a bar
coming home in the morn at 6
this wasn't the plan, she worries
she never would have stuck it out
but the baby needs a father
and jeannie needs financial support.

Stuck in a life where you can't get out
her mistake was looking for perfection
she closed her eyes to people with true love
and held out for an imagined idea of love
baby jeannie cannot feel what love could be,
jeannie will be lonely, forcing a fake connection
and daddy will turn to drinking to escape his mistake.

No happiness will come of desperation
emptiness will continue to create separation
the end of three souls unfulfilled will be
the biggest loss for all to see...
the world was no good to little jeannie
lets hope she gets to try it all again...

~Jenn
Mental note: write something really depressing and it makes you feel much better :) 

yay, a new month

I like when a new month begins...and you will never guess why, NEVER will you guess why, but I will let you try...

Tick tick tick tick...

Give up?

Good guess, but NO...here's why I like when a new month begins...it's because I get to read my new monthly horoscope by www.astrologyzone.com :)  Seriously, that is exciting to me!  I get to see what's in store for me this coming month, what might be my better days, what might be my better times, what might be some harder times to come...and it's not like I take is soooooooooooo seriously, but I actually like to keep track of what the horoscope says so I can see if it is right on with the message or not...and I have to say, no joking aside, it is usually pretty ON...usually.
Last month, for example, I was supposed to fully concentrate on my work, on my dreams and put everything into it and it was supposed to take off in some way...well, last month I did just that, I got a manager, I wrote some new songs, I started recording, all within last month!
This month I am supposed to stay focused with my dreams and stay on track with my work ethic and towards the end of the month, love will bloom and my social life will pick up again for the next year!  How exciting is that?  We shall see, we shall see :)
But either way, I am going to keep my focus on the music, on my writing, and on my blog, so lucky you :)

Let's see what happens this month !!!
Hope you have a good month as well, and the stars are shining down on all of you ;)

~Jenn

Boy, Girl

Boy: I wrote a letter the other day, I wasn't sure what to say, but I wrote you a letter the other day...

Girl: I got your letter the other day, not sure what you were trying to say, but I got your letter the other day...

B: I wanted to tell you in the best way I could, that things between us didn't work out as the should...I know there isn't anyone to blame, but I really miss you and am not sure what I want to do...

G: I hear what you are saying, I sort of feel the same way, things between us didn't work out in a good way...I know there isn't anyone to blame, but I think we tried the best we could and I am not sure that we should...

B: Don't say what I think you might say...I am not ready for another goodbye from you...I don't think you know hard my life has been, missing and thinking about how to get back with you...

G: Don't say what I think you might say...I am not ready to start this mess up again...I don't think you have heard my feelings in the past, and I have been trying to let go of you at last...

B: Please don't let go yet, I will take all the blame, and I will apologize to no end for all of your pain...I know we have more light inside and out, and I believe we can grow in ways we have not sought out...

G: Don't say anymore, I have heard all of this before...last year remember you talked me into opening the door once more...I want to believe your talk and thoughts, but history tells me to walk on out...

B: I know I know, I remember the last time we tried to be together...I begged you to stay despite all your pain...I have learned from the ways I mistreated you before, and honey, oh baby, it will be no more...

G: Baby, no baby, don't call me sweet things...I can't resist the temptation to sweet things...let me go, let me be, I wish you the best, please don't ignore the past and everything we have finally put to rest...

B: But I don't rest without you, I know what I want...in the past I think I have forgotten what's important and what should be in the front...you are my life, not my job, not my friends, I promise you baby, I will never ignore you ever again...

G: I've heard you before, and I am listening now...in the past I might have really been swayed to believe...but honey, no baby, it's so hard for me to say, but the truth of my state is that I have found another to take your place...

B: Oh, I see, how stupid of me...I guess now I see it all, our love meant nothing to you at all...good luck my friend, I won't contact you again, I wish you and your other a good life being with another...I'm hurt, it's not what I expected of you, of us, good bye, good bye...

G: Don't do this again, can't you see what you do?  Now I feel so guilty because I have hurt you...you did this to me, how can you not let me be, I can't be with you and I can't hurt you...good bye, good bye the best way for us is to go about our life and never ever discuss...

B: No more words, good bye forever it will be...I won't contact you and please don't contact me...the pain of this end has scarred me again, but I see we can never be anything to each other, not even friends...

G: Good bye, thank you for your letter, I wish you the best...just hang up now, it's over, hang up and go forward...

B: Good bye

G: Good bye

B: Wait, I will try again, somehow, another place, another time...be ready, I will find you, and you will finally be mine...

G: Good bye...

~Jenn

Friday AGAIN

It's friday AGAIN, and most people are happy about that.  I am happy about that...well, sort of... But, living as long as I have, don't cha think I would just get sick of every week, every friday being happy about it, AGAIN?  It's so redundant, don't you think?  It's not like I haven't been excited before about a friday, but AGAIN?  Really?  Do I need to go there AGAIN for one more week and then AGAIN next week cuz we all know friday will come around AGAIN?  And then the week after?  Exhausting now that I really think about it?  AGAIN, I need to celebrate just ONE MORE Friday...help meeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
I guess I am just sick of Friday, same thing every week, week after week, 'yay it's friday'...paleeeeaaaaaazzzzzeeeeee...are we in high school or something?  I mean, let's try something new, like how about 'lovin terrific tuesday', or 'we made it to wonderful wednesday', or 'man o man o man I'm manic for monday'...I don't know, but 'thank god it's friday' is getting so old for me, it just really is...and who says the weekend is always so great, always so special that we rejoice when it has arrived?  I  mean, I have the busiest day out of my week on saturday, I work all day and cannot play...and then sunday, who says sunday is such a good day?  That day has always been one full of depressing thoughts, loneliness, boredom, football (and now with no football even more depressing)...so, maybe I don't like when friday is here, maybe that just, means I have to 'get through' one more weekend of coping, of scheduling, of trying to keep it together...
'Made it to Monday' is what I need to be sayin...I made it to monday, yeeeehaaaaaa, I made it through another sunday, I made it through another saturday night of NOT getting hit by a drunk driving or NOT getting food poisoning from a new restaurant, or NOT getting date raped by a first date, I made it I made it I made it!!!!!!
So, I can't wait til monday comes around, this is true, but I know I am weird, so I will leave you with, 'have a wonderful weekend and so glad you are happy because it is friday' :)

~Jenn