everyone warned me about you

when you came into my life
I wasn't gonna put up a fight
one look in your blue eyes
I never wanted to say good bye

but everyone warned me about you
yep everyone warned me about you

I don't listen much to talk
even if it's friendly bark
I do my own thing every time
follow my heart down the line

but everyone warned me about you
yep everyone warned me about you

everyone warned me about you
I never listen to outside truth
now I'm stuck feeling blue
wishing I never laid eyes on you

you took me for a ride
I ignored friends, kept my pride
I wish I never opened my heart
I wish I took the warnings to heart

cuz everyone warned me about you
yep everyone warned me about you
now I'm stuck feeling blue
I'm gonna warn everyone about you

~Jenn

who needs you anyway

I've been wandering around
always listening to you
you're telling others what to do
but it occurred to me today...

I wake up and go to work
do what I'm supposed to do
I bring it all back to you
but it occurred to me today...

I finally dawned on me
while I was happily drinking
it occurred to me today
who needs you anyway
you only bring me down,
so it occurred to me today
who needs you anyway

everyone's got stuff going on
they go home and suffer through
you don't have a family to love
and it occurred to me today...

you could disappear one day
someone might notice
but no one would care too much
so who needs you anyway

the world would go on the same
I would still laugh and play
love would find it's way
so who needs you anyway

who needs you anyway, who needs you anyway
I hate to say I hate to say
but you only bring me down
so who needs you anyway, who needs you anyway

it occurred to me to say
it occurred to me today
it occurred to me to say
who needs you anyway
who needs you anyway

~Jenn

TRYING is for whimps

SINGING is completely different than WRITING is completely different than ACTING is completely different than PLAYING is completely different than WATCHING is completely different than TEACHING is completely different than BEING...BUT, it's all about LIVING for me, how I want to live, how I am trying to live, and no matter what action I am taking, I am living.  Trying to live and actually living are 2 different things, but I don't think you can try to live, you just ARE living.
I can try to sing, but I guess I am actually singing by trying to do it.  I can try to loose weight without actually loosing it I guess, I can try to make it in the music business without actually making it, I can try to have a healthy loving honest relationship without actually having one, I can try to have a baby without having one, but I can't try to live, I have to do it plain and simple.
Where is all of this coming from?  I guess I am trying to decide, hah, I guess I will decide and not try, what the difference is between doing something and trying to do something.  Maybe I don't even care what the difference is, but in the act of trying, you are giving yourself a way out, you are setting yourself up for failure, because you can try your whole life to do something that might never get done.  But, by doing something, you are doing something that you are committing to and can't make excuses about it because you are DOING it, not just TRYING to do it...so, in my mind, this is a commitment kind of thing, a choice, a step onto a path that might be a good or bad step, but it is a choice to go somewhere and not just talk about going somewhere...I'm trying to go somewhere...SEE?  I need to just fuckin go somewhere, DO something that I keep talking about, and then I won't be TRYING to live my freakin life anymore, I might actually LIVE a life worth talking about :)  The scary thing is that I might DO something and fail...fail to accomplish what I am doing...that's what I need to get used to maybe.  I will fail, I will not cave in by failing, I will stay positive in my failures, and maybe, just maybe, with all my failures, if I stay focused with my chin up, that will be a success it itself...???
Trying is for whimps...I will figure out a song for this at some point...

~Jenn
(yes, you're right, this post is most likely not easily understood...my apologies...it's sunday, and I had a late night DOING something last night ;))

the only thing you do is bring me down

You looked me in the face and said
I heard you say
I love you baby, you're the one for me

that's what you said, did I get you wrong?
cuz the only thing you do is bring me down

I heard you tell that girl
I heard you say
forget about about her, you're the one for me

that's what you said, did I get you wrong?
now the only thing you do is bring me down

I'm not a fool ya know, maybe a fool for believing
you could be the one, be a nicer one
boy was a wrong, I was turned all around

cuz the only thing you do is bring me down
the only thing you do is bring me down

can't make amends, can't change the trend
I'm stuck liking you yet I can't look at you
don't talk to me, you're just a creep

that's what I'm saying so don't get me wrong
the only thing you do is bring me down
the only thing you do is bring me down

~Jenn

Oh well, oh well, oh well

I might be a product of an afterlife I can't recall
a living mess of flesh that's been here for a while
I feel I've been wandering in and out of lives
looking for answers and never getting it right
I might be a product of lesson I was taught
a long time ago when I was a man or maybe a dog
I feel like I've kept some advice close to heart
trying to teach others and trying to live right
but I'm not cutting it all the time
I'm faltering and falling most times
meeting people that waste my time
loving souls that end up hurting mine...
oh well, I say, oh well
I'm no one and everyone,
oh well, oh well, oh well
nothing and everything might matter one day
but we're all here and no one cares so
oh well, oh well, oh well
caring selfish souls running dreaming screaming
love me, hate me, get away from my face
I'm me, who am I, I don't want to die, help me
doesn't matter, be careful what you say,
words mean nothing, don't speak unless you have something to say
oh well, oh well, oh well
oh well, oh well, oh well
I might be a product of an afterlife I can't recall
but, oh well, oh well, it doesn't matter after all

~Jenn

thanks

thanks to my health, I am able to walk with my chin up
thanks to my family, I am able to live amongst a group
thanks to my friends, I will always have a hand
thanks to my soul, I have strength to give back
thanks to my world, I can be free
happy thanksgiving to you, to me
happy thanksgiving, wishing you all peace
and turkey and everything that's yummy...

~Jenn

on my way to feed the homeless...never have done this before, felt the need to be a better person than usual :)

I wanna fall in love with you

I wanna fall in love with you
I do I do I do
but only if you want me too
do you do you do you?
will you be true
will I fall for you
will you treat me
like you say you will
will you fall for me
will we have 2 or 3
what is this feeling
taking over me...
I wanna fall in love with you
I do I do I do
but don't let me fall for you
if you can't handle being true
if you don't think you'll fall for me
if you don't want to love me...
but am I making myself clear
do you see do you hear
what I am telling you, do you
I wanna fall in love with you
I do I do I do
but only if you want me too
say you do, dammit, say you do...
I just want you to, I do.

~Jenn

right now I'll never know

Some things I will never know
right now
because I'm on another road...

I don't think you can surprise me
but I do think you hypnotize me
and it's a definite high you give me
when you look me in the eyes
and you know what and how I see
and I can't lie, I can't lie
even if I don't know what to say or how to be
it's you I want right next to me
and you freakin know
I can never hide my smile
I don't know how you do it at times
but I will say you do it everytime
a touch, a look, I know who you are
it hits my heart, you are my star
I want to hide and run away from you
but you catch me when I want to
and you pull me back without a fight
and I can't say no, I can't resist,
doing the right thing is my life long test
and caving in is my truest regret
because I know I'm not at my best...
but am I my happiest?
right now I'll never know I guess...

~Jenn

distance

when I don't know what to do
distance
when I want to know how I feel
distance
when I need recovery from you
distance...

but your not supposed to need it too
so now what am I supposed to do?

don't come to my door today
I'm not ready to open it to you
My heart is still resistant
it's me and my friend, distance

I need more time to think
I need more time to drink
my feelings have not been consistent
so I need my friend, distance

okay, I'm ready and now your telling me
you need your space, you need space?
it wasn't supposed to be this way
you are changing the game we play

if you want me to wait around
don't you think time will tell
I thought you'd be the one to stand still
pick up the phone I'm calling you!

fine, be that way, I'll chill
I'll chill out waiting for you
but distance was MY call, MY friend
so don't think I won't visit again

distance go away now
distance is hurting me now
distance doesn't resolve
everything between us now

-jenn

I'll always be there for you

If you touch one person,
you open a whole city
if you help a journey find it's purpose,
you are helping the whole universe
if you reach out and help me through
I'll never turn my back on you
I'll always be there for you

If I can be of service
it doesn't matter how many know
if you can spread the word
you will be servicing the world
if you reach and and help me through
I'll never turn my back on you
I'll always be there for you

I need some help right now
it's hard to say that out loud
I don't know where to go
I know you don't know me well
I hate that I need to ask
but I'm drowning with every task
I need some help right now
I need some help right now

I want to help every face I see
turn a frown in to a happy soul
but I never thought I would be in need
I never wanted to accept others treats
but, if you reach out and help me through
I'll never turn my back on you
I'll always be there for you

~Jenn

just one more day

On my way to rehab
we all have to get better at some point
it's about taking the responsibility
of actions that have inflicted pain
it's about taking the time to look
at the darkness you overlooked
it's the saving grace we all have
to choose a much better path...
(but just give me one more day)
On my way to rehab
wonder who I will have to meet
who will be begging me for secrets
I want to go home and hide
I want to do this another time
I'm scared of what I might become
what happens when I come undone
how will I look at myself and go on...
(I just need one more day)
On my way to rehab
I've hurt everyone with my lies
why would anyone stay by my side
I can't do this alone, but I'm totally alone
unless I can have one more day
before this rehab thing takes place
just one more day
just to say good bye, to have closure
that's all I need, then I'll be free
to go about everything else in front of me
one more day, just one more day...
Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

~Jenn (don't worry, I like pretending :))

finish what you start

Finish what you start, but make sure you know what you are starting...!!!
With that said, I think I try and start to many things without thinking it through.  And everything I start develops and gets to a certain place and then, oh oh, I want to start something else ...but different days, different outlooks, a different me, finish what you start and that's gonna be my phrase.  I start a yoga class, I am going to finish it, not leave early, not come in late, I will be there the whole time.  Start a career, I am not gonna run away from a little down time, I will keep plugging away and get to another place.  And a relationship, well, that's a whole different story, but I don't think I will try and start something unless I feel I want to finish it.  Starting things seems to be not so hard for me, maybe even a challenge that I want to give myself, to see if I can start something, but I usually can for some reason, it's the finishing part I find myself struggling with...eeehhhh, why I am always struggling for something?  How about enjoying what I have, loving every moment, not struggling in every moment...how about not asking so many freakin questions and just living for awhile?  How about that? ANYWAY, I have a show tomorrow night, should be a good one, a fun one, so as of today and tomorrow, I will be struggling for that outcome :)

~Jenn

Her way

What does she do
when she doesn't know what to do
and one road is calling her name
but the one she's on feels more safe

what does she pick
when one road is paved with brick
the other is made of stone
and she doesn't want to walk it alone

tell her to go, she wants to know, tell her to gooooo...
the right way, and the good way, to find her way, gotta find her way

speak what you will
cuz she'll listen to you
tell her you know how she feels
make sure she knows your for real

don't lie to her
cuz she'll believe your words
tell her to trust her insides
you know she's gonna tell you good bye

then tell her to go, she needs to know, I tell her to gooo....
the right way, and the good way, to find her way, gotta find her way

I know this girl well
I see her everyday
I know her every move
and I feel her inner pain

so I'm telling you
it's okay let her run from you
I know she'll be okay
every step of the way

so I'm telling her go, she needs to know, tellin her to go...
find her right way, to find her way, her good way, to find her way
she's gotta find her way, let her find her way, gotta find her way

L.A. Day

It's cold out today for an LA day
just like the people who come out this way
what do you do, why are you here
who do you know, I saw Cruise over there

Everyone's an actor, I hate to say
or a producer, or writer working on a play
what do you do, why are you here
I'm sorry but you're not good enough dear

The sun's coming out, it's a boring day
just like the people who come out this way
I want to look younger, I need to look better
what's the secret of how to live forever

Going back home for the holiday
have to spend some time with the family
they don't get me anymore, tell me to get a man
I have dreams to be big, they just don't understand

Everyone's happy here in la la land
I'm feeling alone, I'm missing a loving hand
if I give up now, my friends at home will see
that I am not special like I wanted to be

Years pass but LA is still the same
gotta go find a script and hustle today
what do you do, why are you here
I envy your passion, I lost it somewhere

It's cold out today for an LA day
gonna stay in, I can't motivate today
who do you know, why are you here
what do you do...I GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE

~Jenn

when are you coming home

I'm sitting by the window
there's a moonlight glow
into my empty house, my empty home
when are you coming home

Every night sleeping alone
my bed too big, my sheets cold
sometimes I don't even want to come home
when are you coming home

The phone rings but it's not you
every knock makes my heart wish it you
waiting to hear your footsteps on the floor
when are you coming home

I can't eat or drink anymore
I don't remember how to smile
sometimes all I do is walk miles and miles
when are you coming home

I don't know where to go
if I don't have you to hold
and I'm scared to feel this alone
when are you coming home...

~Jenn

In the long run...

I don't know where I'm going
but all that I am today
has everything to do with where've I've been
how I spent my yesterday's...
and the things I've heard
the person I am with you
has everything to do with what I've seen
what I've said, what you've done...
But in the long run,
does anyone really know what's next,
who will you see, who will I be,
where are you going the day after today,
are you running way or are you staying okay
in the long run, in the long run...

I'm feeling a fire I haven't felt in a while
I'm feeling a passion burning inside
a new day is coming, a new me, a new smile
everything I dreamed might be coming true
and you can't ignore it, you know it too...
But in the long run,
does anyone really know what's next
does anyone know the next steps
I don't know where I'll be tomorrow
if I'll smile or want to hide for a while...
But in the long run
I'm going to grow and all that I become
in the long run
will be good for you and everyone
in the long run
and you just might be better than you think
in the long run
I just might be okay
in the long run.

~Jenn

I didn't see it coming

I didn't see it coming,
behind every smile,
how was to know ?
were you thinking
or were you planning
or were you waiting
for me to say
stay , or go away?
I don't even think
I know you anymore
it's so easy for you to hide
behind those dark eyes
speak what you want
don't tell me what I want
give me something to mend
so it doesn't have to end.
I don't care what you say
l know you're afraid
but say it today,
I'm not going away...
Wow, I didn't see it coming
that you could be THAT way
the person who would write a note
never looking for a 'maybe'
or a chance to make things right
you gave up without a fight
and I didn't see it coming.
How could I be so naive
you, I wanted to believe
would never say goodbye
you beat me to the finish line
I wish I could have been first
but I hate being the 'bad' one
so now I can feel the 'hurt' one
and write another sad song
and pray that someone else comes along...

I didn't see it coming
last night when I was crying
I couldn't look you in the eye
but you just sat by my side
I don't even know your name
but I like you just the same
I didn't see it coming
my heart's open again.

~Jenn

Dear older ME...

Dear me,
older me,
what's up?
are you happy finally?
did you get rid of what's his name
and make a cute baby?

I had a dream about you last night
I saw you smile and sleeping tight
remember the days when you cried
I am sorry I couldn't dry your eyes

I want to tell you I'm doing my best
sometimes I can't wait to be you
and be rid of all this mess...

Life is trying to test me (you) right now
if you think back, you might be mad at me
for not choosing wisely or appropriately,
but can't you see where you are right now
would not be the case if I (you) didn't somehow
fall down, fall out, and then search for a life vest
and struggle with fear that I wouldn't pass the test?

Anyway, any who, I am so happy for you,
you made it through, you made it through,
or at least I'm thinking that's true,
or at least I'm praying you did, you do,
cuz I'm here, 10 years younger, wondering, hoping,
the ME now is a different YOU...

~Jenn (anyway get this one ?:))

Recovery

Recovery is the hardest thing to do...
been down and out so many times
the feeling is tolerable, doable, you can deal
but making a turn to the better place, getting OUT from the bottom
is hard to do, almost impossible...recovery...
what doesn't break you makes you stronger
and every failure is another lesson learned
and time heals all wounds and everything passes,
BUT, it's hard to get OUT from the bottom and into recovery...
Change is good, from bottom to top, but
I'm stuck however, it happens to all of us...
I don't like being stuck for more than a week,
and time is passing so fast, everyday I feel weak,
it's getting me worried and I know for sure
I don't like being on the bottom anymore.
The bottom is sad and dark and deep
the bottom is an end, without possibilty
the bottom encompasses every moment of every day
the bottom makes me tired, I don't ever want to play
the bottom is hard, it's lonely, and it's real
the bottom makes it impossible to NOT deal
the bottom hurts and the bottom doesn't change
I have to get out of here, my soul needs to change
I have to get out and get some life, some air...
If I stay here any longer, I will see life as unfair,
if I stay here any longer, I will lose ability to care,
if I stay here any longer, I will completely disappear,
so it's time to recover and get the f!!##$! out of here.

~Jenn

I got nothin :(

I'm staring at the computer screen, this is a first, this is a first
I can't think of anything to say, really, I can't
I wrote a sentence down and tried to say something witty
but I had to erase it and accept this situation
I have nothing, nothing, nothing today
I feel awake I feel clear I feel alive and well
I feel like I should have something brilliant today, but hey, hey
it's just my typing to say I have shit today
maybe I just need another cup of coffee, what do you say
okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay
it's monday today, awesome, a new week to celebrate
I made it through another weekend
I'm done, done for today...

~Jenn :(

my quotes for the day...

"when you have nothing to say, don't say anything "...jenn

"time will heal your greatest wounds...or it won't "...jenn

"you're only as good as your recovery from your last mistake "...jenn

"only stupid people think they're smart "...jenn

"if you can't laugh at yourself, more people will laugh behind your back "...jenn

"love is free, so feel free to give "...jenn

what does it mean

what does it mean, I know what it means
you say I don't listen, I say I didn't hear you
I say you don't understand, you say I don't care
so we stay together, I don't know anymore
I don't know what's better for you or what's right for me
but what does it mean when we're both not happy..
I've heard from wise souls gratitude holds the key
I've listened to my parents who say no one is happy
I know what is right and what is wrong for me
but what does it mean when we're both not happy...
are you still recovering from your old flame
and looking for a part of her in our game
am I still remembering the time I was hurt
I needed a quick fix and you pulled me from dirt
who knows, I don't know, we're all doing our best
I want someone to teach me, someone who knows best
I don't know what's better for you or what's right for me
but what does it mean when we're both not happy
what does it mean when we're both not happy

~Jenn

kindness kills...kinda

I saw a movie today.  Sarah's Key.  Soooo good yet so sad.  It was a story that took place during the Holocost, a time that always brings tears to acknowledge, but the saddest part that hit me and made me think about was kindness...kindness is so amazing to see, and yet why is so heart wrenching?  When someone puts themselves at risk for someone else, or actually puts someone else first, above themselves, that makes me sad...it really does.  So, I will always say evil kills, that is an obvious statement, but I really think kindness kills just the same, in a deeper, more fulfilling way...I should be more kind, I think we all should, don't you?
I am feeling very old and very jewish...I am going to a bat mitzvah for a friend of mine's, and I have never had a friend with a teenager as a child...yes, this is an OLDER friend, and yes, I haven't been to a bat mitzvah since I was in my teens, but hey, it's a mitzvah either way, a 'good deed', and I am all for good deeds and being KIND!!!!

~Jenn
short and sweet and KIND...what have you done today that is the name of KIND?

TRUTH

It's surprising, so surprising, to trust someone, feel like you know someone, feel like someone cares about you, and to find out they say something behind your back that is just so far from the truth, so far from being a good friend, a confident, and in the sole name of gossip...it's surprising.
And, I could be really upset about it, I could be, but because it is so far from the truth, and because my deep instinctual gut feeling about this person was that they were a fake and phony, it turns out that it doesn't really bother me...but it could, it really could.
So, one more person can be deleted from my thoughts or deleted from my calendar.  No more time worth spending on them, no more time.  Still, I stay surprised and a little rattled, but no worries, it is something that I can easily move past from and not think about ...still surprising however.
It's friday, rainy friday, and I am feeling like a movie and a glass of wine.  I am so glad I am not an alcoholic, so I can appreciate and look forward to a glass of wine on a rainy afternoon.  I can appreciate a piece of chocolate, because I know one piece is plenty for me, and I don't feel like chocolate very often.  I can appreciate a day in bed to rest, because I don't feel like that very often, and I can appreciate a good piece of meet, because when I crave it, I know my body needs it.
But, I know what I cannot appreciate because I need it constantly and I probably am a junkie for it...love, connection, love.  29 years of looking, and I still don't know if I appreciate it or not, because I am always searching for it, and then once I get it, I need more.  I don't know if I actually really feel it even, because I always need more of it...soooo... I am NOT an alcoholic, I am NOT a chocolaholic, I am NOT a steakoholic, but, my name is jenn, and I AM a lovoholic.  It can be romantic love, parental love, friendly love, sisterly love, but LOVE is the name of the game and I want it damnit.  I love giving it too, but that's probably part of the problem as well.
Let's play by the 12 step recovery program...today is day 2 and I have only looked for love once so far.  Just once.  But it is only day 2.  And tonight maybe I will look for love again, so oh boy, I will have to start from scratch again.  And just to bring me back to the beginning, I maybe can learn that I have a tendency to look for love in the wrong places...and give love unjustly...the person whom betrayed me and my trust, I was probably looking for some type of love in that situation, blinding me of what the truth was...and that's it !  THAT is the problem...whatever you need, whatever you so call crave, it will blind you and keep you from the truth, and ultimately it will hurt you.  The truth is here to save you, set you free, and the other stuff, whatever you try to make yourself believe of convince yourself to see, if it is not true, it will hurt you and make you unhappy.  Whether you want to believe this or not, the hard truth is that is doesn't matter what you believe or not, because truth is above your belief's, your idea's, your walls...truth is gonna ride over anything else, and that is the fuckin truth!  Ok, maybe there's a song in all of this rubbish :)
(Maybe I shouldn't drink in the afternoon either :) )

~Jenn

just another day

It's a rambling day, a rambling day...
because, for once, I don't know what to say
I am at a loss for words
doesn't happen very often
maybe I should take a break and come back later
hoping something will inspire me at some point today
or maybe this is it
maybe I am not supposed to feel inspired every day
maybe this is just reality and I should write nothing today
what if I stopped asking questions and got on the ride
what if I stopped wondering where the ride would go
and I just buy the ticket not knowing how it will go...
today, unlike yesterday, different than the days before
how many kinds of ways can I say the same thing
okay back to today, being different than before
what if I pretend I don't know what to do other than
live in the day and let it do me as opposed to me doing it
I'm gonna make love with the day, let it love me back
sounds stupid, I know, but I need to figure this out
I need to figure out how to be WITH my life and not above it
I need to see how to BE in my world and maybe not below it
I need to be ONE with the day, the day being the world
and so I figure out assignments to solve a problem
I love assignments to give me a purpose, I reason to exist
an equation to answer, to make my world seem safe
to make me fee like I have a reason to go about another day,
just another day...

(Say NOOOOOOOO to drugs ;))

~Jenn

My friend said...

"I woke up this morning saying what the f#$$###$ am I doing?
I made some coffee and said what the f#&&###& should I be doing?
I went to work and said what the f#$$###$ am I doing here?
what the f#$$$###$ man, what the f#$$$###$"

Okay...my friend worried me today, he kept saying what the what the what the f#$$#...
and then he said something that went like this, or at least, this is my interpretation of what he said...

"Everything around me right now seems strange...
I am living a life that means nothing, it's just strange.
Maybe I'm really depressed and this is how it feels,
maybe this is just what life is, and I'm a gerbil on a wheel,
maybe it's a sign that I need to do something quick,
or maybe it means I'm an artist and this is how we tick..
maybe just maybe I have no idea what I am saying
maybe just maybe this is me and I'm actually crazy.
Do crazy people know they're crazy
or is it something they're forced to believe?
Do they ask as many questions as I come up with,
and then have no answers to satisfy their undying needs?
Oh well, here it is, what the f#$$###$...
what do you think, tell me, am I just fuxxxed up?"

I had to respond, even though I didn't know what to say...

"Maybe we're all just going through some rough times,
it's okay, it will be okay, everything will be just fine..."

I think everyone in a bad place wants to feel heard or understood.  Everyone wants to feel like it will get better, it will be okay.  Everyone wants to feel that they aren't alone, that they aren't the only one's in the world unhappy at the moment.  And everyone wants to feel that they can believe one day happiness will come back, it isn't gone forever...because it's not.
Every moment of misery will be a future moment of peace.

~Jenn

Makes you wonder

I don't think you make it to the top
until you made it out of the bottom.
I don't think you can say success
until you know you're out of the hole.
I know it's hard, I know it's not fair,
but we all go through a test
until we get to rest...
and just when you think you're out,
it calls you back without a plan.
It makes you wonder your strength,
makes you wonder what you're doing,
makes you wonder, makes you wonder
how to make it out from under.
And just when you've had enough,
you have no more air, no where to go,
that's when you need to make it through
and at some point, we all have to...
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder
how to make it out from under.
It makes you wonder what you did wrong,
if you deserve all that you brought on.
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder,
scared and alone it keeps you under,
a ghost, a thought, a feeling within
it's part of us all, it's how we fit in.
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder
who you are when you're under.
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder,
hoping for it all to be over,
running faster to make it over.

~Jenn