The Perfectionist

It was my first time
didn't think I was gonna shine
but I took a stand
there were no hands
to help me in my place
I closed my eyes
I felt my nerves
but I didn't let them
get to me
I pretended that
they weren't mine
they weren't my friend...
Then it was over
all over, then end
I couldn't believe how fast
the time went
and all my worries
were not even there
all my concerns
didn't even matter
and I wondered, I wondered
if I could had done it better
there was no turning back
but my mind would't let go
just kept thinking
about everything I did
and everything, everything
I didn't do
there would always be
a next time for me
but never will there be
a first time to do better ...
Next time I will know
I need to do better

~Jenn