why why why

why do I always seem to plan things that I know when the event comes, I will want to cancel?
why do I say yes when I mean no sometimes?
why do I smoke in the afternoon sometimes knowing I will feel like crap right afterwards?
why do I take a pill to sleep when I know every morning waking up is harder to do than if I just slept naturally?
why do I say yes when I mean no?
why do I make so many plans for the week when I know what I want to do is chill out and write more songs?
why do I buy more things when I know I should be saving right now?
why do I get so negative about certain parts of my life when I know being negative doesn't help me?
why do commit to someone's plan when I really want to follow my own plan?
why do all of my songs sound strange?
why can't I meet the man of my dreams?
why can't I sleep at night when I am usually so tired from the day?
why does my manger and music producer really want to work with me?
why does A T&T suck so bad?
why does my mom still tell me what to do and make me feel I can't do anything right?
why do I always have so many questions and no answers?
why haven't I been able to write a major hit song yet?
why can't I sing like alicia keys?
why do I pretend to not know the answers when I really know the answers?
why do I go against my gut and instincts sometimes?
why do I go against myself sometimes, knowing the outcome will not be a good outcome for me?
why do I say yes when I really mean no?

why why why why why why why why?
~Jenn