why do I do the things I do

why do I do the things I do?
when the things I choose to do
bring me pain and familiar outcomes
We as human beings, beautiful human creatures
have so much to offer,
so much to give to the wonderful world
so much to say and so much to do
so much to teach and and and
then we choose the evil things we do
if this were a dream I would be going down
like the airplanes I fly in my mind
and then fall from the sky with no warning
if this was someone else's life
I would know how to act and know how to be
I would know what to say and how to be me
but being me is the hardest part of all
especially when I won't let myself become my all
and I run from right and I choose to fall
down down down again I am used to this
only humans can keep doing this
and no amount of songs will ever fill me up
because it's my soul that gets the empty cup
it's not too late, it's never to late
to make a change for the better
to make a difference for me, for you, for each other
so I pray that one day I will have no regrets
no punishments for my actions
not guilt for my deceptions
and I will be perfect to me and to you
and I will be one with my soul and with you.

~Jenn