I still don't know...

I have lived in cities and towns
I have prayed before priests and clowns
looking for an answer
I want an answer
I have gone to psychics and talks
I have listened to people who've walked
in heaven to teach
He is always in reach...

But I still don't know the answers
And I  still have too many questions
And I still don't know why I am here
I still don't know my purpose here.

I have loved older men
I have had fun with lots of friends
but it gave me nothing
just a longing
I have played with children and babies
I have yearned for a big family
but I can't find the love
to last a whole lifetime

So I still don't know the answers
And I have too many questions
And I still don't know why I'm here
I still don't know my purpose here.

I have studied a lot of yoga
I have read books on dying
only to fear that our dying is near
I pray everyday
and I try to mediate
only to realize time is ticking away

But I still don't know the answers
And I have too many questions
And I still don't know why I'm here
I still don't know my purpose here.

~Jenn