my lovers never last

I wake up and I pray
before I take a break
I think good thoughts
while I meditate
and then my morning shake
I work a lot and pay my bills
I'm never late to meet
I eat 3 meals
and give to those in need
so why am I not happy?

I must be trouble, I must be bad
my lovers never last
it must be something from my past
my lovers never last

woke up next to john the other day
but I still felt alone I have to say
I think I had too much to drink
it messes with how I think
I had to call jason to say
what's up dude, how's your day
he said he had to call me back
but I think he might have just lost track
there's always miller to watch a game
but I think he secretly might be gay
and mike, oh mike, he's okay nice
but seriously, he's not really that bright
I used to have a crush on Sammy
but still, why am I not happy?

I must be trouble I must be bad
my lovers never last
it must be something from my past
my lovers never last

I remember my first love david craig
we spoke about getting married one day
I hate to regret things I have done
but I was the one to mess this one
he found me one afternoon upstairs
drinking with his friend on a dare
I never thought he would have known
I guess he called on his way home
I always cry when I think of his face
but that was it, I was full of disgrace
He never wanted to see me again
and I never wanted to talk to his friend
I think I never wanted to forgive
even though I have so much more to live...

I know I'm trouble, I know I'm bad
my lovers never last
It must be something from my past
my lover's never last

~Jenn