Right now

Right now I am looking at a woman
she is standing on the corner
waiting for someone
thinking about someone
confused about someone
Right now I am watching her pace
looking at her watch
she ignores the passers by
takes out her cell phone to check
Right now I am wondering about this woman
I am close enough to go to her
she is crying alone right now
standing on the corner
as if her life is somehow over
why do I choose to watch sad things
and what makes me think I can
like anyone can
understand them and make them better
right now I am walking towards her
I have tissues to offer her
she looks kind and approachable
I am not scared of her
right now I watch a woman open her purse
she looks me in the eye
as she pulls out a gun from her bag
my eyes catch hers as she takes
a gun to her head
I see her for the last time
I am her last moment
she pulls the trigger as she stares
it seems like slow motion
I watch her take her own life
there is nothing I can do
I don't think my tissues are enough
right now is all we have
and this is my right now

~Jenn