this is not a simple song

This is not a simple song...
since I'm tired, so tired, of needing
to be something more than nothing
I'm trying so hard to meditate
and be happy with my being nothing
but it's really hard to look around
and see faces that look so hard
people running their own race
putting others in their place
signs saying no, stop, go away
come, you, get out of my way
I'm so tired, so tired of this world
when nothing works together
and we're all running to or from
the place away from each other
sometimes I have nothing more to say
other times I can't stop talking this way
it's holiday time and it makes me reflect
on myself who is always guilty
of having friends I neglect
if I could do one new thing this year
if I could change my habit or action
it would be to stop all my tears
wasted on myself and not on others
I would cry for the families
that don't have the ability
to reflect or write something down
cuz they are too busy staying alive
I would cry for the children
who have never heard of santa
there are no presents to receive
they are lucky if they eat
I would stop with my whining
since I I have so many treats
and I would, will, pray and meditate
everyday in every way
on bringing in more peace...
no one needs a reason
to act in human ways ...

~Jenn