what you don't know is killing me

What you don't know can't hurt you
but I feel the pain
I'm holding something from you
for my own gain
I know I did something wrong
It's making me insane

but this is how it will have to be
what you don't know is killing me

If I could tell you without hurting you
I would promise
to never ever do a bad thing again
I would promise
to give you everything you deserve
and no one would know

but this is how it will have to be
what you don't know is killing me

secrets last a lifetime too long
for reasons that we construct alone
but if I were to make this secret known
you would toss me from my thrown

so this is how it will have to be
what you don't know is killing me

I love the thought of transparency
but now my self destructive ways
will keep that dream from me
and with you, I'll never feel free

but this is how it will have to be
what you don't know is killing me

maybe it'd be better to be brave
but this secret is going to my grave
I can't risk the love we've built
so I will live alone with my guilt

and this is how it will have to be
what you don't know is killing me

what you don't know is saving you
what you don't know is killing me
what you don't know will always be
the wall you'll feel between you and me

but this is how it will have to be
what you don't know is killing me

~Jenn