Only lonely

She has a loud way about her
never a moment of quiet, or silence
I can't help but listen through my walls
with a pillow over my head to muffle the sounds
of whining, complaining of what is to come
worrying, praying about what is around
bitching, obsessing about her life today
it's more than a soap opera, it's maurey everyday.
The guy next door yells at her sometimes
he puts her down, says she's wasting his time
he can't focus, he can't write when she's loud
he wants to move I think, but it makes me think
she is only lonely, only lonely
that makes her this way
only lonely, only lonely
no one to listen, no one to hear her scream
so she screams louder and louder
hoping someone might come and see her pain
but she only pushes us away, loneliness growing
changing behavior is the only way she might change
so I think, so I learn from her and all her pain...
If I keep doing exactly what I do today
my life won't change, everything will stay the same
if I do something different, one thing at a time
then I might see something new, a little surprise...
I want to tell this woman who cry's
to stay quiet one day, to watch the sun rise
but I think it's too late, some of us don't like change
and I think I never want to get in that depressed state
so I'm going to make my move, something new today
and I'm going to help the woman live with all her mistakes.

~Jenn