Good bye to lies

I keep doing things bad for me
I keep choosing what's wrong for me
sometimes I think I will feel better about it
but I always feel guilty and worse about it
I keep wanting to trust you and what you say
I keep wanting to believe in your good way
but I always come backing to thinking
you are not so good and lie to get away
and then I ponder and try to think it 'through
and then I wonder what should I do
I punish you with passive coldness
you punish me with insulting rudeness
we are not meant to be and let's say it now
we are not meant to be, you and I know it now
let's be smart about the future
what could make us happier
what could make us at peace
what could make us love and live in grace
I don't want to live this way anymore
you know I said it once to you before
But this time I mean it, so there you have it
don't say a thing, let me walk out the door
I am not going to call you anymore
I am not going to see you anymore
I am not going to help you through anymore
I will always remember this untrusting feeling
And that will keep me from opening the door
good bye to you, good bye to lies
I hope you can live a fulfilling life
with someone who believes your constant lies.

~Jenn