Note to self...

I feel it coming on, and I am not happy about it.
Everyone has it, it has to come at sometime.
But I didn't want it to come NOW, not NOW, I still need some juice.
Here it is, I will admit it...I feel a dry period coming on, a hump, a brain feeze, a writer's block, and creative brake, a lull, a whatever you want to call it, but I feel it coming on.  I was going so well, I really was, writing songs every day and actually coming up with some good material.  Now, all of a sudden, I am expected to come up with songs daily, regularly, and I have frozen all of a sudden.
One, I don't want my songs to start sounding the same, so I am in fear of not knowing enough chords to make my songs sound different.
Two, I don't even know what to write about right now.  I feel stale, like I said everything I wanted to say, and now nothing flows, NOTHING...waaaahhhhhhhh.
I guess there is nothing to do about it but just to ride it out.  I am not going to freak, am not going to talk to much about it, am not going to worry that my creative juices will not come back.  They will, I know they will, they HAVE to...So, there you go...but it is interesting to realize that once there was an expectation of me to write songs all the time, that is when the hump started.  My fear of failing or of dissappointing has crept in.  And it has taken over.  But I will not allow it to take over this time.  It doesn't deserve to win anymore.  I am not a failure, I am not a dissappointment, or I will try NOT to be.  And who cares anyway if I am right?  I am trying like everyone else is in the world, and I am trying my best.  I am grateful for people who want me to write songs all the time, that is what I should be talking about.
Okay, note to self:  stay happy about people who are liking your songs and wanting you to keep producing more.  They could be saying, let's just stick to what you got and concentrate on the old songs and not write newer one's.  So, you are doing okay self, you are, no worries ...

Thanks for listening :)

~Jenn