another day

What am I feeling today, I'm not blue or sad or missing you
but I feel incomplete, empty, not grounded on my feet
discontent, I guess, that is what I feel, and that's worse than anything else
it's not happiness, it's not sadness, but a bore about it that can't be scratched
I wonder if this is how most people feel, when a day is just a day, it's just bein real
maybe I am looking for a roller coaster ride, something to fill me with pain and pride
I can't relax when I feel this way, when I feel nothing and not sure about my ways
I can't adjust to whatever is going on, I can't trust I know any part of this song
if someone would tell me this is totally normal
if someone would push me in a certain direction
if someone would guide me towards my own acceptance
I wouldn't have to give myself this pain of rejection
I must be a stupid creature for not figuring out how to live and be happy
maybe I should just give up, let it all go, surrender to everything I don't know...
THAT sounds like a plan, I can get on board right away
I guess I am good for something even on a bad day...
so there's my plan, there's my job, outlined in front of me
another day, another goal, another 24 hours of work to complete...

~Jenn