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I have a bunker mentality at times
because I lack some spirituality at times
and my state of conditionality at times
makes my mind run, and run and run...
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Look at me, what do you see
I like you today, but tomorrow, tomorrow
you seem slow, different, weird, funny,
you're not good enough for me...
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I want what you have, what you have
how do I get it without losing myself
it seems so easy when I watch and see
how to pretend, how you seem to be...
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I'm running to stop and breath deep
I'm praying I come out okay today
I'm begging you to listen to me
and I want to let it all go away...
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You say what you mean but then one day
I see you act another way, you say
manipulate, contemplate, and coordinate
and then let go, be still, just flow...
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I don't sleep, but I want to lie with you
I can't eat but I want to cook for you
I'm running to be one with you today
tomorrow what will come my way...
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I want to know everything
I can't hold on to anything
teach me what I need to know
help me learn to show
my feelings for real, for real
open me up so I can feel, feel
hear me to I can let go of me
I'm tired of holding onto me
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~Jenn