Life, death, and the pursuit of ?????

Life, death, and the pursuit of...???

What are we actually pursuing?  I can't say it's happiness because we fight all the time, we lie all the time, we cheat, we steal, we kill...and I'm not that smart, but I DO know that THAT is not a way to bring happiness into the world...
I can't say it's love because we torture ourselves with working too hard, not spending time with our families because we have to make more money, going after a title or a document that says we are good when really, we still go home to emptiness and worry and stress and unhappiness...
I can't say it's peace when everyday we fight to get our own space...everyday we compete with the guy next door, or choose to go to another country, another war...fighting for our own beliefs like we know all the answers when really, what is a belief and who are we to know what to believe?
I CAN say we are running in circles, pursuing a world that we have made some sense of in our heads, but a world that is not big enough for the actual world...in 100 years, maybe less, no one will be thinking about us, no one will really be caring about us, and all of our worries and judgements and truths will be for what?  what are we pursuing when really, there is NOTHING to pursue, NOTHING to accomplish but possibly a little joy while we are here, a small piece of life that will come and go like everything else does in the world...we are beings, that's it, it's not that important and yet it is extremely important because we are...we ARE something, and everyone is the same thing, and everyone is NOTHING AND EVERYTHING...yes, I know, it's so simple that it is probably the most complicated concept to see...I am trying to see it, and with the trying part, I am NOT seeing it...and in some time, it won't even matter...because none of this really matters, but it all matters at the same time...hmmmmmmmm...say NO to drugs :)
Life, death, and ...
~Jenn