I forgot...

Looking outside today seems different in every way
I don't feel like myself but I see more clearly than the other days
the time I am taking to think about everything I want for you and me
is making me see how much you really mean to me
 And
   I forgot about all the times you took my hand telling me you loved me
   I forgot about how you took me in when I didn't have much of anything
   I forgot about how you taught me to love again and feel alive and free
   I forgot about your support and how much you meant to me.

It's never too late to say your sorry, but I am afraid I lost you already
even though there was nothing else I could do but go away without you
I needed to think it all through and remember who I was before I met you
I let you take over and I lost myself and I was feeling like someone else

You know me so well and you know when I get scared
I hide within myself and I shut down and pretend I don't really care
and I loved you for taking over and for making me feel safe and secure
but I needed to stand on my two feet and deal with my challenges and defeats

And through it all I forgot the love I always had for you
and though it all I forgot how strong we both were for each other
and through it all I forgot how much I wanted to be with you
and through it all I forgot how much I needed to say I still love you...

Where will will go from this point on, I can't say I know which way
I believe in life and ups and downs and learning as we go our ways
I hope you come back to me because I know you still have love for me
and I know if you do we will make it through and be better for it, I do...

AND I forgot about all the times you took my hand telling me you loved me

        I forgot about how you took me in when I didn't have much of anything 

        I forgot about how you taught me to love again and feel alive and free

        I forgot about your support and how much you meant to me.

~Jenn