Change is for the better

I got a new car yesterday, and I can now say one day I have driven a bmw, whoopppie, I am cool.
Just kidding, I am pretty dorky and shy and am not so much into cars as long as they get me from one place to another, but I have to say, I like a smoother ride and I like a heated butt seat, and I like a good sound if I had to pick...AND, of course, I need my coffee cup holders and a way to put lots of crap in the trunk...not too much maintenance, right?  Oh, but I can't wait to drive an SUV at some point in my life, maybe in my 30's I will be able to accomplish that goal...MAYBE, after I sell a song, then I will be on the path to an SUV....That's IT :)
Either way, for the next week, I will probably look forward to wherever I have to go because I will be going there in a new way, a new smell, a new look, and as much as I hate change, because I really HATE change, I kinda like the change when it is actually in my lap...it's the time in between the change that I can't stand...the time before the change happens, when you know you have to MAKE the change, it is inevitable, but you don't want to go through the action, the event of the change, you just want the change to be your world already...am I making sense? Like death, change is death, it has to come no matter what you do...
Like, now that I am thinking about it, I have to move, I don't really want to move, but I kinda HAVE to move to save some money before I make it big :)  So, the new place, wherever it's gonna be, will be great I am sure, the old place, which I love, is great, but the move, the trying to find a place I am gonna like, the packing, the unpacking, the adjustment, all of that I don't want to go through....waaahhhhhhhh, I am stressed out again...And THEN, there is the relationship change...even if the boyfriend is getting old, the patterns are not healthy, I am not happy, if I am in the relationship, I am in it and I don't want to go through the change of breaking up, of getting out of it, of pain and hurt and missing and remembering all the love we once had, even if the next relationship will be the man of my dreams, because the change will still be so hard to go through...BUT, I guess that is life, and, once again, I get to the conclusion that life is a fuckin pain in the ass sometimes and it is hard and painful and full of change.  But, change is always for the better, so I guess if I do what I am supposed to do and get through change and actually MAKE my changes as opposed to fighting and resisting them all, I will be rewarded by life in someway, since I have come to the conclusion that change is for the better...right ????   HELP !@!!!

~Jenn