I just want to be happy

        I never thought it would come to this
               today I see right from wrong
                        but it's hard to be strong...
And I thought I could be
the way you wanted me
but my heart says I can't
ever be happy,
if I see you again...
      not even to be friends
      it's too much for me
      I wish you could see
      all that it takes for me
      to pretend to not love you
      to not miss the way we used to be
And I thought I could be
the way you wanted me
but my heart says I can't
ever be happy,
if I see you again...
      not even to be friends
      I'm slipping on wet ground
      saying too much on my mind
      I don't know how else to be
      but the real me
      the one you got to see
And I thought I could be
the way you wanted me
but my heart says I can't
ever be happy,
if I see you again...
      not even to be friends
      cuz this feelin won't end
      if my heart keeps running
      every time I see you coming
      and I will always make
      the same mistake
But I thought I could be
the way you wanted me
but my heart says I can't
ever be happy,
if I see you again...
      not even to be friends
      unless I just give up my life
      to be a second in your life
      but that could never lead
      to me being happy
      I just want to be happy...
And I thought I could be
the way you wanted me
but my heart says I can't
ever be happy,
if I see you again.

~Jenn