I'm not the ME I want to be

I feel my heart fluttering
I'm gonna start protecting
how I feel, what I think
so I can pretend to be what I think you need from me
but I'm not the me I want to be.
Dark comes, it's revealing
clothes off, stop concealing
your passion blinds what you see
so I can pretend to be what I think you need from me
but I'm not the me I want to be.
I can't make you see
I can pretend to be
what I think I should be
what you want me to be
but I'm running inside, cuz I'm hiding
and I hate how I am, I don't know who I am
but I'm not the me I want to be
the truth can only set us free
but you don't want to hear about the me
who has a secret part of her,
who has loved another in the past years
he has a hold on me, I don't want you to see
how this truly affects me...
I'm feeling my heart fluttering
I'm nervous from my hiding
I need to start protecting
how I feel, what I think
so I can pretend to be what I think you need from me
but I'm not the me I want to be,
I'm not the me I want to be.
But you won't want the real me,
so for you, I will be a different me.

~Jenn