Do you love her more than me...

I really don't know what made me think of this title, this phrase, 'do you love her more than me'...I might have been listening to a beatles song and the sentence just came to me, maybe I didn't get enough sleep, maybe I drank too much :), maybe I was remembering a movie, but I thought about it more, and then felt the sadness of someone, anyone, loving someone and feeling less than someone else.  And, I guess it probably happens all the time, someone loves someone more than someone else, so therefore, they do not end up together.  The person ends up with the person he/she loves more.  The End.  But, there are reasons, issues, stories, bags, situations that are always going on behind the scenes that keeps people apart...I think.. I really believe most of the truth, or what lies behind closed doors is never uncovered and maybe never realized in situations.  Even in relationships where people are together, they are sometimes on different sides that do not understand each other.  Sad, I think, because I really believe in the phrase, 'the truth will set you free'...but in all honesty, how often do we REALLY REALLY know the truth?  The REAL truth? And if we did know the truth, what would we do with it and how would it change anything or everything?  Hmmmmmmmmmmm...
Anyway, the phrase made me interested enough to think there could be a song/poem somewhere in the theme...


Do you love her more than me
And I only ask because it seems
You wont leave her for me?
When it feels so good with you
When you say you love me everyday
When you speak of connection and taking more vacations...
Why do I feel you love her more
And why do I feel in some sort of competition
When all you have to do is walk in some direction
Choosing what you want more, who you love more
And why do I insist to put myself in this much pain
Just waiting, waiting the waiting game
To prove or find out some ugly truth
To know for sure if you love her more...

But the truth is one that people say
Will set you free, so I sit and wait
Watch for signs that say one way
This way
That way
Which way to go
To know for sure,
But don’t tell me now,
Do you love her more than me
Or is it just differently?
And does it matter which way it goes
I don't like to be the one that knows
You are doing something deceiptful in your plans
And who am I to make demands
And who am I to take second base
When it's always home I want to go
I'm so dumb for me to be here
I want to erase all these wasted years
So, do you love her more than me...
I don't care anymore, just let me be.

~Jenn