win win winna

I saw a really good movie last night, Win Win with Paul Giamatti (and some other peeps obviously)...it was really good!  And, of course, he was great in it as usual.  There is something about him that just reeks of a good guy, a good soul, a good person, and whatever character he plays, that goodness comes out on screen and you just have to love him...or I do at least, I love his soul.  Anyway, it was also a great movie because it was a slice of real life, real struggles that might not have typical 'happy' endings, but they still are better off in the struggles they are having to overcome.  It was a good movie, I give it a thumbs up for sure, even two thumbs up, if I had another thumb I would put it up too :)
I want to be a good person, I want to be a good soul, I want to be someone that always  goes for the best possible outcome for the whole group, not just for myself.  I don't want to act as selfish as I think I do some of the time.  Because acting that way might not be best for the others around me.  I wish it was different.  I wish that I could act selfishly and what would be best for me would be best for everyone around me.  Maybe that CAN be achieved, I guess every situation would be different ...
Today I have to write, today I need to sing, today I need to get a manicure and pedicure.  A me me me day.  Sounds like a selfish day to me.  Thinking the work I need to do is for me, but it could be also for people around me when they can experience the work, so maybe the work is not that selfish of a thing.  The mani/pedi has to be selfish, but hey, if it pleases me to have nice nails, then I am a happier person for it, and might treat others better, no?  I think I might be on to something.  If I can make myself happier, than I will be a much better human being in the world.  Now, if for some reason, getting my nails done was a chore and I was doing it for my 'man' and not for me, then I might see it as not so happy and walk around the day being resentful or feeling impatient for having to sit there for an hour.  Then I might walk around the world NOT being so nice to others, not smiling and saying 'hi'.  I get it I think, you?  Walk around the world today, do your work today, sing your song today and walk around with a smile and see how you feel :)  Im gonna try it at least...

Smile, it's friday !!!!!

~Jenn