Ok ok ok, I missed a day and I will explain. It isn't due to drinking too much, sleeping too late, or forgetting my responsibilities...it was because I was going in to a recording studio (with guitarist) to 'lay down some tracks', (wow, how cheesy does that phrase sound?), and I had to be completely prepared for the day. Had to warm up my voice, my voice in the am always needs extra time, had to do my breathing, had to drink some coffee, and had to remember to take a shower :)
I love the recording process and I LOVE the collaboration between creative minds, all working towards a common goal...and when a song comes together, everyone feels the same sense of excitement from the accomplishment. It's cool, so I love when I am in the process of development. Actually, I might really love the selling of a song too, but I have yet to experience that :)
In the process, however, I always notice how impatient I am, and also how much of a perfectionist I am to a fault. It is hard to have so much pressure sitting on your shoulders while it is all taking place. I wish I could figure out a way to let all of that go, to take a pill or something to take all the unnecessary baggage out of the picture and have it just be the heart and soul being present and open. I want that, I will keep striving for it and hoping with all my yoga and meditation, some sort of enlightenment will come. Hmmmmmm, I guess everything I do is for some sort of goal, like it is all homework for something I wish to achieve, and maybe I never will? And, if/when I achieve it, I wonder if I will even know I achieved it, or I will just think I am coming closer and closer but still not accomplishing the goal...who knows who knows who knows...but obviously, there's a lot of shiat I seem to come up with in my mind, try to analyze, figure out, and solve to help me become BETTER, more PERFECT....eeewwwwwwww, no? Need to solve this issue !!! And, needless to say, I hated skipping the day, the blogging day, that wasn't very perfect of me :(
~Jenn
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