huh???

Hi doc, thanks for taking me today
something has been bothering me for days and days
I thought I had a handle on it until he left for his trip
I didn't think I would care, but now I'm pulling out my hair
I didn't want this to happen doc, help me stop the fall
I'm fallin again, fallin again for the wrong kind of man
He's kind and he's sweet, yeah, I know you will say 'great'
but I don't think he wants the same things as me
he lives for the moment and I don't think he wants kids
and you know I live for love and future, and big family trips
I don't know what to do, I didn't want to like anyone
who wouldn't say I want you now and I want you forever and ever
and now I am just babbling please forgive me I'm a mess
I don't understand myself, fix me, fix me and this mess
Is there a drug I can take, something to make me forget
all the mistakes I made and make me see more clearly
that maybe the future for me is something I don't expect
maybe my life is something that will not be filled filled regret
maybe there is a man out there that will not neglect
my wishes, my desires, the passion that burns in me with fire
doc doc doc am I talking too much
you haven't said a thing, it's making me nervous
you think I'm crazy don't you don't you don't you
you probably think I can't be helped, don't you, don't you
just say it, I can take it, whatever, I get it
here's your money, thanks for nothing, you've been a great service to me
don't expect me to come back, you can't fix me, I see
I will just go about my life, I will be fine, you will see
I don't need you or anyone to make me feel complete
I have it going on, I have a lot, I can be free
of all my thoughts, worries, see, they are leaving me as we speak
bye doc, see you NOT, my work with you is finally complete.

(Ummmmmmmmm, okaaaayyyyyy????)
~Jenn...