Sooooooooooooooo??????

Falling in love is not for kids, but in this case I wish we met when we were young.  Where we would just carry the leftover bags from our families.
And I want to know you already longer than time will allow me too.
I waited so long for someone like you, and now that you are here, I am scared of losing you.  I never thought I would attach again, since I am still working on detaching from the past.  And then you came along, showing me that surprises can come at the least appropriate times...out of a cake, here you are, here you are...
I don't want to lie to you, or play games, or pretend I'm something I'm not.
And I'm scared of messing up, or saying something I should not.
But here I am, this is it, this is the real me,
and I'm okay if you're not okay with me.
I want to tell you that I'm okay even if you don't want to be with me
And I want to tell you that I'll be good because I know I said everything I could
And I want to tell you that it's okay, I'll find another, or not, someday
And I want to tell you don't worry about me, I know who I am and where I stand.
You say family is your priority but you run away whenever you speak about you and me.
If you're not ready, or you're scared, it's fine, it's cool, but my time is ticking and I need to unwind in a safe place where I don't have to think, where I don't have to be anyone else but me.
So are you coming, you gonna come with me?  I won't bite, I won't leave, I won't say things that are mean...
So, are you gonna walk away, or are you gonna walk with me?
I want to hold your hand, I want to stand by your side, not in front or from behind, and I want to be everything that you see, and I don't want to be anyone else but me.
Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo???????

~Jenn