I'm missing you

I'm missing you , I'm missing you
I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't figure out what to do when I'm missing you, missing you
I'm a big girl in a small body, my heart is too big for my sensitivity, and I feel everything you don't want me to feel, and I'm missing you, missing you
I want to run away to a place where I don't feel anything but grace
I want to run away and hide somewhere where only peace resides
I want to run away and be someone else, someone who sees what could be
I want to run, run, run and keep going until I don't feel like going
I'm missing you, I'm missing you
I'm gonna do everything I need to do
I'm gonna pretend I can have some fun
I'm gonna be successful and frolic in the sun
and maybe one day my heart will forget you
and one day the place that hurts the most will be filled with something that doesn't infect me but protects me
and maybe one day I will be happy and not miss anyone
and maybe one day I will have a baby and say that they will be perfect in every way and my love will overcome everything that I have done and what I do will no longer have anything to do with missing you, never have anything to do with missing you...

but maybe, just maybe, this is wishful thinking and I will always miss you, always.

~Jenn