Recovery

Recovery is the hardest thing to do...
been down and out so many times
the feeling is tolerable, doable, you can deal
but making a turn to the better place, getting OUT from the bottom
is hard to do, almost impossible...recovery...
what doesn't break you makes you stronger
and every failure is another lesson learned
and time heals all wounds and everything passes,
BUT, it's hard to get OUT from the bottom and into recovery...
Change is good, from bottom to top, but
I'm stuck however, it happens to all of us...
I don't like being stuck for more than a week,
and time is passing so fast, everyday I feel weak,
it's getting me worried and I know for sure
I don't like being on the bottom anymore.
The bottom is sad and dark and deep
the bottom is an end, without possibilty
the bottom encompasses every moment of every day
the bottom makes me tired, I don't ever want to play
the bottom is hard, it's lonely, and it's real
the bottom makes it impossible to NOT deal
the bottom hurts and the bottom doesn't change
I have to get out of here, my soul needs to change
I have to get out and get some life, some air...
If I stay here any longer, I will see life as unfair,
if I stay here any longer, I will lose ability to care,
if I stay here any longer, I will completely disappear,
so it's time to recover and get the f!!##$! out of here.

~Jenn