just another day

It's a rambling day, a rambling day...
because, for once, I don't know what to say
I am at a loss for words
doesn't happen very often
maybe I should take a break and come back later
hoping something will inspire me at some point today
or maybe this is it
maybe I am not supposed to feel inspired every day
maybe this is just reality and I should write nothing today
what if I stopped asking questions and got on the ride
what if I stopped wondering where the ride would go
and I just buy the ticket not knowing how it will go...
today, unlike yesterday, different than the days before
how many kinds of ways can I say the same thing
okay back to today, being different than before
what if I pretend I don't know what to do other than
live in the day and let it do me as opposed to me doing it
I'm gonna make love with the day, let it love me back
sounds stupid, I know, but I need to figure this out
I need to figure out how to be WITH my life and not above it
I need to see how to BE in my world and maybe not below it
I need to be ONE with the day, the day being the world
and so I figure out assignments to solve a problem
I love assignments to give me a purpose, I reason to exist
an equation to answer, to make my world seem safe
to make me fee like I have a reason to go about another day,
just another day...

(Say NOOOOOOOO to drugs ;))

~Jenn