Makes you wonder

I don't think you make it to the top
until you made it out of the bottom.
I don't think you can say success
until you know you're out of the hole.
I know it's hard, I know it's not fair,
but we all go through a test
until we get to rest...
and just when you think you're out,
it calls you back without a plan.
It makes you wonder your strength,
makes you wonder what you're doing,
makes you wonder, makes you wonder
how to make it out from under.
And just when you've had enough,
you have no more air, no where to go,
that's when you need to make it through
and at some point, we all have to...
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder
how to make it out from under.
It makes you wonder what you did wrong,
if you deserve all that you brought on.
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder,
scared and alone it keeps you under,
a ghost, a thought, a feeling within
it's part of us all, it's how we fit in.
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder
who you are when you're under.
It makes you wonder, makes you wonder,
hoping for it all to be over,
running faster to make it over.

~Jenn