right now I'll never know

Some things I will never know
right now
because I'm on another road...

I don't think you can surprise me
but I do think you hypnotize me
and it's a definite high you give me
when you look me in the eyes
and you know what and how I see
and I can't lie, I can't lie
even if I don't know what to say or how to be
it's you I want right next to me
and you freakin know
I can never hide my smile
I don't know how you do it at times
but I will say you do it everytime
a touch, a look, I know who you are
it hits my heart, you are my star
I want to hide and run away from you
but you catch me when I want to
and you pull me back without a fight
and I can't say no, I can't resist,
doing the right thing is my life long test
and caving in is my truest regret
because I know I'm not at my best...
but am I my happiest?
right now I'll never know I guess...

~Jenn